Couple of thoughts while I drive

All right, here we go. There are many topics that we could discuss. There are many topics indeed. We could discuss my new book, Blue Eyes, which is a collection or diary of messages from the Grand beyond. Messages from my ethereal sister, Christina. Messages to bring hope and uplift, ease loneliness is depression or depressive thoughts. Lots we could talk about, in spiritual journeying to find out who we are, who our soul is, and then we can talk about religion and we can talk about the Queen’s passing. (I didn’t want to do this right at the time of her passing out of respect).

I have a lot of English ancestry. So, the Queen’s passing is somewhat of a titillating subject for me, as my daughter asked me (when it happened), “What do you think about the Queen’s passing”? And I said, “Well, my first thought was that ding dong, the witch is dead.” Okay, I’m just being honest. In my head I heard the accompanying Wizard of Oz song.

That was my first thought probably because my mom would have been very happy as she waited YEARS for that woman to die. She really had NO love for her. My mom was very distraught over the situation with Princess Di, Diana, Princess of Wales. My mom really believed that we had Welsh ancestry. And so, she followed closely the life of Princess Diana from the time she learned Di would marry Prince Charles. As an aside or spiral thought, I cannot believe that we’re going to have a king Chuck now. Sounds like a slab of beef. But anyway, my mom would have been very happy to know that the Queen finally left this earth. I hope that my mom has a chance on the other side in the Grand Beyond to speak with the Queen. But when I told my husband he remarked they won’t be in the same place. I guess that tells you his feelings too. Not that the Queen didn’t have some redeeming qualities. I’m sure! Like her learning how to be a truck driver. And a mechanic when she was a teenager to give her a little taste of how the little people live.

I know I sound bitter. But as I told my daughter when I listened to Piers Morgan have his little spiel about Queen Elizabeth II. He said something that got under my skin a bit. He used the words that she wasn’t in it for herself. Well, Piers she was born into the royal family. So in that regard, I guess she wasn’t in it for herself. She didn’t seek out to become a queen, right? But she certainly was in it for herself. Monetarily speaking, Piers. She was worth over $500 million. She sat around eating bonbons with her feet up–investing. I don’t know anybody who’s an investor who doesn’t work a job that isn’t in it for themselves. So, that really pissed me off when he said that. Otherwise I like Piers Morgan. Alright. Enough of that.

The best and most eloquent and compassionate speech that I’ve heard yet (about the Queens’ passing) was from Russell Brand, who can be the most vulgar comedian going but he actually seemed to care about the people who cared about the queen. So I appreciated what he had to say and I got through his soliloquy just fine without something rubbing me the wrong way. But let me remind folks, we fought a war in America against England. We fought against everything they stood for. The whole Church of England and the Anglican Protestant stuff. We did. We fought that and we gained our independence. India also sought, by the way, to gain their independence from England.

England is a monarchy that rules more than 10 countries. I don’t know if people are aware of that. So in this day and age, I would have thought that we’re not living in the Game of Thrones scenario anymore, and we wouldn’t have kings and queens and rulers just when you say the word “subjects” it harkens “slavery” to my mind. So no, I’m not a big fan of the royal family. I never was. But especially not after my mother said the Queen probably put a hit out on Princess Diana because of her affair with Dodi El-Fayed. The Queen wasn’t pleased about Diana and Dodi’s affair. Well, you know, I’m sure my mother wasn’t the only one to come up with that little plausible scenario. I mean, you just don’t piss off a queen. Right? So, Diana kind of made her own bed in that regard. And perhaps literally, but this king Chuck guy was no saint. Come on. He was doing Camilla for how many years? And why didn’t he marry her? Who knows? You know, it’s all screwed up and screwy with that family. I didn’t shed a tear when I found out QEII passed. She loved to get along in life and she was the monarch for 70 freakin years. So most people can’t hold the job or maintain family relationships for 70 years, though, you know, again, she she has a few redeeming qualities. But I’m not so apt to pick up a tissue you know over her passing.

Well, I watched that ridiculous pageant of a funeral for about five minutes. I preferred to spend my time going to a spiritually uplifting and enlightening day (part of what was going to be a weekend retreat). But, I didn’t want to leave my husband for the weekend. (And after he suffered a stroke two days after hurricane Ian passed our area, now I know why!)

I went for one day of a two-day retreat with Gloria Grace Rand, and some kindred spirits. And like minds, yeah, they may not feel anything like me about the queen, but that’s okay. You know, I’ve said enough about her anyway.

Gentle way to bring ease and healing to your body. And it’s as close to you as your breath.

Now. Speaking of spiritually uplifting things, subjects topics. Let’s work now to get myself back into a peaceful and calm state after I could feel it in my body that tension and anxiousness. I wouldn’t even call it anxiety. But yes, I get a little tense when I get in a bit of a bend over something and there’s only a few subjects, thankfully, that I get in a bend over anymore. Most of my readers know what those subjects are. Subjects in the other sense of the word.

To make myself feel better, I shift the subject, change the subject, because once a thought builds momentum and spirals out some emotion, it doesn’t just fizzle out. You know, when you get on what I call a bend, or event, or upset over, over something. So, to feel better, I changed the subject to one of the best subjects I can think to switch to, Spirituality. Now again, spirituality is a whole vast myriad, huge subject, huge topic because we can talk about it endlessly because spirit is there no, there’s no way to quantify or even qualify spirits.

But in my book, Blue Eyes, I do talk about the vastness. I didn’t talk about the expansiveness, I talk about how spirit can communicate with us Beyond the Veil. Spirit can communicate with us in many ways, all of our human senses are able to differentiate, decipher identify, pick up tune in to spirit. Oh, we need to do this to be in alignment. All we need to do is tune in sitting and meditating and if one doesn’t meditate, you can pray and then just while you’re praying, just focus on your breathing and quit asking anything. Just stop talking. See how far that gets you. Now if you’re mentally praying, like I think most of you do, while you’re praying mentally, you know while you’re speaking those mental words to some theory or divinity or source.

Just stop asking and wait and focus on your breathing. Focus on how your breath feels in your nose in your mouth, down your throat through the different parts of your body. Sit and do that for a few minutes. And you’re meditating. You’re waiting on an answer. If you go into prayer with a question or or with a concern or worry about someone or something, when you get to this point of just sitting and waiting and not asking anymore, you make it a thought. Now, if the thought is unrelated to what you were just thinking about writing it out. Just let that go. You know, like did I leave the iron on or the bathwater running or the stove on or the lights on our side of the car? You know any of those kinds of parent thoughts that creep in? Just let that go.

Meditation teaches us to watch those thoughts float by on a white fluffy cloud or some something of the sort. If you get a thought drop in to your mind that is something new that you’ve never thought of before directly related to what you were asking about. That is an answer. And you can fairly be fairly certain that it is directly applicable to your question in a way in which you may be able to take action upon it or tell someone else or ask someone else to take action on it. And at that point, you can simply get up and say thank you put your hands up.

I’m assuming you’ve had your hands together if you’ve been praying but if not, that should have been what I offered you first put your hands together say a prayer. Stop your mental talking. Pay attention to the thoughts that drop in not something that you were thinking about before you sat down to just let all that stuff go. But anything new then you can make a note of it something you need to take action on. And then of course you you take pull your hands apart, write down the note and you’re done. Say thank you.

The greatest prayer you can ever pray is simply, “Thank you.” because honestly, when you die and you meet your Creator and you look at your creator in the face, whether near or far however you picture that meeting occurring, if you can even utter the words, “Thank you” in that amazingly glorious, stupendous, spectacular, outrageous blessing, beautiful experience that the lusciousness the depth of that experience. If you can even other two words, I will be surprised. I would be amazed.

If you can say thank you for everything, all of this journey of life, the ups the downs, the roller coasters, the fights, the arguments, disagreements, the hurt, the hurtful feelings, the abuse that being cussed at, whatever, you know, whatever. If you can say thank you to your Creator for everything for your life. That’s it. I mean, that is the pinnacle, the highest that you’re gonna get, and the most just incredible, exhilarating experience. Because God simply wants to be acknowledged now God would love it if we would acknowledge God and I use the word Omniscience for God (now, as of the last 15 years or so), because that’s what was given to me during meditation, prayer and meditation Omniscience. If you’re standing in front of or laying prone in front of Omniscient God or God Omniscience your very breath, your very essence, came from God. And God just wants you to keep connected with God in always every day in all capital all ways.

So, while you’re doing anything, you’re washing the dishes you’re scrubbing the floor, you’re cleaning the toilet, you’re raising your children, you’re working your job, you’re shopping in a store. That’s why lying or stealing, or coveting someone else’s wife or belongings, that kind of thing. That’s why those 10 commandments are Commandments. Not because he just set up rules of the house to say don’t do these things. I don’t like it. It was because when you’re doing those things, you’re out of communion with God. You’re not including the presence of the holy, magnificent immeasurable experience of God that’s why God is Omniscient, right? God sees everything, hears everything knows everything is everywhere all the time. You know, look up the meaning of Omniscience. That’s God. If you do anything that is outside of God, then God’s not in it. Right.

Yeah, the mystery of it is is that God is in everything. So even when the man is beating his wife, God is in the middle of that now those people aren’t aware of that or they wouldn’t be taking that action. That’s the whole issue with works. And when people say faith without works is dead. There’s truth in that. Yeah. When people say all you need is faith, there’s truth in that as well. I am here to wake people up to that. I am here to simply help you become aware of the fact that you can live in gratitude and Grace every single day of your life and in every single moment and every single action when somebody pisses you off when somebody says something to you don’t like when some driver acts a fool on the road cuts you off. Any any of that. I’m I’m driving as I’m speaking, as this is being transcribed by otter. So yes, I’ve seen people act a fool and drive radically. And I mean, I may not approve of it because they’re putting themselves at risk and other drivers on the road. They’re usually someone who’s not mature enough to know that if they lost a tire or a part of their car, that they could have an accident and they could kill themselves or other people. Maybe they kill the people in the car with them and they live themselves what kind of guilt are they gonna live with the rest of their life? Because they needed to get somewhere two minutes before 1000 other cars on the road.

That’s the kind of thing so we can look around we have eyes we can look around and we can see a lot of people doing foolish things around us and we can judge them just like I judge the Queen, right? What was she supposed to do? Give up her crown? Well, she could have said listen, the days of this royal family. This shit is over. We don’t need this anymore. Who’s gonna walk away? The royal family has 88 billion with a B assets, who walks away from that? You know, so it’s a lineage thing. That has gone on for millennia. And so people just don’t walk away from that. Okay, I’ll end there.

We’ve had a nice circular discussion, and I’m going to continue to pray and meditate perhaps come to some different ideas and completions. And be able to be in a more relaxed state when I reach my destination. I love you ALL. Peace to you ALL. Put your hands together when you pray. Ask your question. Stop asking. Wait for the answer. Breathe. Focus on your breath. And when the new thought that you never thought of before drops and say thank you, get up, write it down. Take action. Go about your day with God with knowing Omniscience is always with you. You are never alone. You are never alone.

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Finally! My book is done!

Since I met Patricia McGivern and had a one-on-one hypnotherapy session with her on my birthday in 2016, I have been keeping notes about observations in nature, dreams, visions, and surreal experiences (nighttime visitations) from my mom and dad since they have crossed over to the Other Side of The Veil, transitioned to the Grand Beyond, or had their “Celebration Day.”

My new book draws from these experiences. I named the book, Blues Eyes, a metaphysical novel because it’s centered around things my one day old sister, Christina has shown me.

Book cover: Blue Eyes: A metaphysical novel

I’ll write more and put out some videos soon about what the writing process has been like, but for now, I want to highlight some important lessons and concepts:

Note from March 18th, 2016

“And birth is only the beginning. It is overwhelming sometimes to ponder how courageous and brave it is of each soul to agree to this carnal ride.

Oh, how bumpy and bizarre this ride! How curious this journey of becoming human. How mysterious and magical to be in a living, changing, growing, wonderful body!

As an adult, we think we’re big enough, strong, and tough enough to survive, but we know the body and mind are fragile too.

Imagine when we are in the womb, how fragile, delicate, and vulnerable we are. Oh, how indescribable it must be!

So, let us all pray and meditate daily about how grateful we are to have been born–to be here!

We are able to live, move, and have our being, while not every soul who desires and strives to be here, makes it.

And lets be kind to our bodies, our children, and each other. For we are all blessed to be here, and IN Joy relish the time we have on this magnificent planet.

Note from March 18th, 2021

An Aha moment! While reading the preceding paragraphs, held within about 500 writing “Notes” in my iPhone, I realized (seeing with REAL EYES), that I’d written that 3 years to the day BEFORE the DATE dad had set with me to visit each other—due to me always being “busy, busy, busy” (dad’s words).

Overarching Takeaways

Sitting in this “complete and fulfilling state of GRATITUDE and GRACE” I Am humbled.

When anything disturbs me (including myself), when my expectations aren’t met, I will choose to let it go as best I can to Limitless Omniscience God, and forgive myself and others as we can never see the whole picture, or know the whole story—much less control anything.

Cherish nothing else except each moment of Presence.

Know that you yourself are essential to this world. Understand both the blessing and the burden of that. You yourself are desperately needed to save the soul of this world.

In a Sacred Hoop of Life, there is no beginning and no ending. To everything, turn, turn, turn. There is a reason.

Each of us is important and have a mission. Much love and multitudinous blessings to each of you in ALL ways. ❤️🦋🌀〰️

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Otter: Gratitude rant

Questioning

How do I stay in gratitude?

How I stay in gratitude every day since embarking on the citrus diet where I’ve been eating a grapefruit and oranges tangelos tangerines every day for 30 days.

Now, I’m beyond the 30 day period.

I’ve noticed that while I peel the grapefruit and I peel the orange by scoring them and then hand peeling them over the trashcan, I remembered that my dad is the one that taught me how to peel an orange. And the memory of that brings me to a place of gratitude.

Also, when I wash the knife that I scored the orange with when I wash out my bowl, the one particular stoneware bowl that I tend to use every day multiple times a day that’s the rewashing before each serving of food or each preparation to serve the bowl of food. I have to wash it and I do this over the sink. I wash it by hand and as I’m washing I’m meditating I’m bringing my my mind to a neutral point and breathing and then a thought will drop in. And typically, at least today, it was the thought of my mom, when she would wash dishes. She would talk she would talk to herself and she did this for many years.

In fact, most of my life I remember my mother standing at the kitchen sink, washing dishes and talking to herself sometimes it was imperceptible, the volume of her speech was so low. Dad and I used to joke and poke fun at her (for which I am soooo sorry about now), and she would kind of make a gesture. I can only describe her gesture as as a mixture of blowing off what we would say and frustration that we didn’t understand her. She did tell me in later years that she would was praying or talking with those that had gone before. I didn’t ever really connect that mom may have been talking to spirits, but I did sense that she was putting her doubts or worries emotions out there for God or the angels or whomever was listening.

Certainly, dad and I were not listening to mom’s murmurings. And now, where gratitude comes in from that thought is that (crying) mom had the words then… she was able to articulate and communicate her thoughts and feelings and ideas! Ugh! Because (whether you know this or not), later in mom’s life, she lost her ability to speak, or say much anyway. Mom lost the ability to formulate the words and move her mouth in such a way to be able to make words would come out.

Mom would try to speak. So, she had some mind left. And I watched this. I watched my mother decline and her vocal ability deteriorate over the last two to three years of her life. And in particular the last visit with her before she passed. But I will never know how much of mom’s mind was still alive and functioning, or how much wasn’t.

The few months before mom crossed over she was down to only having the use of about 10 words. Mom would use the same 10 words over and over and over to describe a variety of things. She would point to things and use the word thing or baby and that was it. Or baby was the name (noun) for everything. But mom remembered the words beautiful, wonderful and such, as her descriptions or descriptors (adjectives). I had always offered that instead of worrying, mom could think on all the lovely, beautiful, and wonderful things. And I believe what thoughts she had were on those kinds of things.

Thus, when I had these thoughts while washing dishes I became very grateful. Yes, Gratitude enveloped me. I am sooo grateful to have had the mom I had. The mother who loved and cared for me all the days of my life while she lived.

I am so grateful for all the things my parents taught me.

Do you want to live in that place of gratitude every day?

Everything Resolves to Gratitude. Sheila Murrey

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What Love, Like, and Westworld have in common

I awoke from a dream.

My mother and I had been visiting. I had been talking with her and fitting her with a dress for some special occasion. My daughter/granddaughter was asleep in the next room.

At some point my mother’s acute hearing turned to the bedroom and she quickly made her way to the door, opened it, and caught my daughter/granddaughter quietly playing on the floor, next to the nightlight.

My daughter ran across the bed, to the adjacent bathroom, all the while screaming at the top of her lungs because mom was going to whip her.

From my now vantage point, it was terrorizing! I wanted to intervene, but I was frozen in stillness.

After I woke up, I had to analyze the dream, and write it down because in an instant I became the clockmaker. The clockmaker god of my own Westworld.

We can love someone, yet not like them.

We can love someone and not always like them. ❤️🦋🌀〰️

Why?

How is that possible?

Love is always unconditional if it’s truly love.

Liking someone, it seems to follow, is about Control.

In the case of my daughter, she had not went to sleep when my mother put her to bed. She disobeyed.

Mom’s need to control her led to a whipping which meant none of us would fall asleep naturally happy or at ease.

All my daughter had wanted was to listen to mom and I talk, and would have fallen asleep on the floor, not really hurting anything. However, my mom had a different expectation.

Thus, when my daughter didn’t adhere to my mother’s expectation, mom viewed it as disobedience and the thrashing ensued. Oh, my poor daughter! “Mom don’t”—I wanted to yell.

In the series, Westworld, Creator god makes each person with a bit of him in them, or in his image.

How are we making ourselves, and our children?

Lessons from mom

While my son and I helped dad pack things up, after my dad was mentally and emotionally able to sell the property and mobile home in south Florida where we’d first landed after relocating in 1985 from West Virginia, I found several things that answered some questions I’d had for many years.

Diary pages

Along with several diary pages that mom had written in the 1960s and 1970s, I found an unsigned letter to her that made me question which is more important taking advice from family or from friends.

The statement in the letter that got me was, “I’m disappointed in you that you feel that your friends understand you better than your family (and me).”

Old typed letter
Old typed letter

Who wrote it?

I have an idea of who the letter is from, but I am not sure. It was typed, single spaced on one sheet of paper.

As of this moment, it doesn’t matter to me who wrote the letter.

I will say that it ended on what I would consider to be a positive note, though still preachy.

“Don’t continually think about what is in your past. Let’s live for the future.”

Now, as for me, “I’ve had my share of sad kicks in my face, but I have come through” (to quote from one of my favorite Queen songs, We Are The Champions).

I haven’t cried much in the last year since mom passed, mostly because I still communicate with her in subtle ways, and I am keenly aware of her continuation in my life by occurring synchronicities.

Yet, today, I cried.

I had meditated and upon coming out of meditation, I was filled with emotion. I cried and spoke the following aloud:

Family reflect who we were; friends reflect who we are. 

Family reflect who we once were, or who we were in the past. But, our friends reflect who we are now, who we’ve become, and how much we’ve grown (or not). That’s why we sometimes tend to love our friends more than our family. Yet, some of us (like me), who are very blessed, have family we are also friends with and who we want to spend eternity with. Time limits us, but thankfully (Thank you, God), that eternity is not limited.

Here’s something that’s true for most of us. We’re stuck in a box, or bottle. Even if its clear.

The box or bottle I’m referring to? The fences (rules) of religion—even when religion supposedly isn’t involved.

From a dream

Dream: Mom was reminding me about all the notations she had made in her Bible about “No gossip”, and “not to gossip.”

And that’s because all learning must be Experiential learning—coming from direct experience, which is also why Jesus said let thy speech be yay or nay. He knew that we can never really know the truth of another.

Someone may try to warn you of another. But we all experience each other differently because who we are in any given moment, elicits something different from the person. Many times we’ve experienced this. It’s the situation when one divorced person marries another and they get along gloriously. The “bad” partner may get along with another just fine.

Each of us experience life differently. We just can never fully know someone. People lie. People pretend.

I think most of us want to put our best self forward—but, for most this involves wearing a kind of mask. Call it the mask of pretense. It’s the face of kindness, compassion, peace, or love, while inside ourselves we feel anger, resentment, sadness, jealousy, or regret.

Best lesson

Be a loyal friend and keep people’s confidences. Mama taught me by example and reminded me often to be the best friend I could to my friends.

Now, I find I have a splendid variety of the most trusting loyal friends—all unique in their beliefs, but who each hold a strong core of integrity.

❤️🦋🌀☀️🌱

Thank you.

I miss you mama. Thank you. Thank you for teaching me everything I needed to know (when you could barely talk anymore), by looking in my eyes and placing your hand on the side of my face. And for always living in utter GRATITUDE the last years of your life (though your surroundings were not as you once would have wanted). You came to a place of not knowing or of acceptance, it doesn’t matter which, because you were grateful. You became Grace.

I only cry because I never got to tell you how much I got that lesson, how deeply I learned that last lesson from you. I continue forward, with understanding.

Nothing really matters, or everything matters. Each of us get to choose. Who do you love?

We Are All Connected. OM

Many blessings to you in ALL ways.

UPDATE: I found the rest of the letter, and it was NOT from whom I had thought! And the rest of it brought the earlier statements into balance with love and grace, so I have learned another lesson. I continue to feel Gratitude. Tears! 😭

UPDATE 7-Jun-2019: As I was washing the Lifetime brand (which really do last a lifetime) of pots and pans (that dad gave me years ago), it hit me why mom always LOVED to clean house–it put her in a meditative state! Ah! Yes, my aha moment today. And it brought tears to my eyes. OM

After that, I was looking through pictures of a book I’d bought my granddaughter last year (yes, I save things like that), and it highlighted my new found awareness:

CREDIT: Buddha Doodles, by Molly Hahn
CREDIT: Buddha Doodles, by Molly Hahn

 

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