Often I used to read books before going to sleep. What follows is from one of those times. I’m thinking about potentially narrating books when I retire, or starting a podcast. Let me know what you think in the comments. There’s more on the audio as the point to this post was to test out the narration. Here’s the audio:
Okay, I think what I’m going to do is a little test. And let’s see how this goes. I think I’m going to read just a chapter at a time and post it. This is from a really old book that I’ve been wanting to read for a while. It’s called How to Prosper During the Coming Bad Years. It’s probably out of print. I don’t know. It says it’s a New York Times Books. Are you up for me reading it? It looks like it was a gift to either me or my grandmother in 1980. She passed away in 1980. So I’m not exactly sure unless it was given to my mom and then to me. Let’s see when the printing was. It was printed in 1979. So it’s not as old as I thought. Written by Howard J. Ruff. And it says, of course, “All the rights are reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any electronic or mechanical means, including information storage and retrieval systems without permission in writing from the publisher, except by a reviewer, who may quote brief passages in a review.” So I’m probably not supposed to read a whole chapter. Okay, let me pick out parts of a chapter then and we’ll call this a review.
So, the first page has a note that says, “This publication is designed to provide the author’s opinion regarding the subject matter covered. It is sold with the understanding that the publisher or author is not engaged in a rendering, legal accounting, or other professional service and neither am I by the way, if legal advice or other expert assistance is required, the services of a competent professional person should be sought. The author specifically disclaims any personal liability loss or risk incurred as a consequence of the use and application either directly or indirectly, of any advice or information presented herein.” There are 20 chapters.
I’ll start it this way. There’s an introduction. Then there’s part one, The Problems. Part Two, is The Preservation and part three is The Strategy. Now within part one, there are 11 chapters. There are the watershed year’s inflation, the great transfer tax, a world turned upside down, and put governors on the monitors that sound interesting. The Ponzi chain ladder, east side, west side, the old homestead, don’t bank on it, power to the President. We owe it to ourselves and sin tax SSIN. That’s interesting to know Okay, so then in part two, the preservation there’s an introduction to it, and chapter 12 is about gold and silver coins. There’s personal debt passed on to the old maid. That’s probably talking about the card game I don’t know. But there was a card game named Old Maid preparing for the black market, panic proof. And then in strategy, there’s an introduction. And chapter 17 Is the breakeven or better strategy, the golden calf, a girl’s best friend and Do Thy Patient No Harm. There’s an appendix and an index.
We’ll just do the Introduction. Let me know if you’re interested in hearing more about this. And perhaps I’ll do another by offering a review of each section. How about that instead of each chapter? Let’s see. So that would be four reviews because we’ll review the problems, which probably most of us are already very familiar with the problems the preservation part and the strategy part. So the introduction, I’ll just read a paragraph to myself, perhaps, and then I’ll summarize so bear with me. I’m not a speed reader.
It starts by talking about some time back so they’re quoting November 1968. They went to a meeting and thought they were going to receive some help. And advice from people who managed a company. Oh, it was a speed-reading franchise. I honestly did not read that yet. When I said I was not a speed reader. So that’s funny. They were beginning to emerge from a very difficult few months resulting from a prolonged newspaper strike. And as most of these strikes, do, they come without warning that prevented them from advertising during peak months. I think we’ve all probably been there. We had been in financial trouble. For some time, but things have started to improve on that. Sounds good right? So the author says when he walked out of a meeting, he was wiped out. His franchise had been canceled in the struggle to save the company was over. His business was down the tubes have been her had been notified that his accounts were frozen, but that’s not good. He had $11.36 in his pocket. Yeah, no money, no job, and no unemployment insurance because there isn’t any such thing for small businesses. Who goes broke and that is true? When you’re self-employed, and I know this from both my parents as well as friends, as well as times when I’ve been self-employed as well, there’s no retirement pension. There’s no insurance you have to self-insure for your health and, and life and property, all that sort of thing. And then you have all sorts of business expenses too, which never made sense to me.
One of my friends said, that while she was running her own business, she calculated all the hours that she put in and she was making something like $4 an hour. I mean, that’s why they say you’ve got to do what you love if you’re going to run your own business because you’re not. You could go to work for anybody else and make more than that you can make minimum wage flipping burgers and make more than that. So make sure you do what you love if you are going to run your own business. But back to the book.
He’s talking about a spectacular collapse that had the front page of the financial section in the San Francisco Bay. Area newspapers. And he was invited to resign from a committee of the Oakland Symphony finance committee because I guess he was embarrassing them. There was a terrible period and he says in our lives, so I’m assuming that he’s married. Okay. He says it had only been five months since the accidental drowning of our 21-month-old son, Ivan. Well, that’s very tragic, and sad, I cannot imagine. So he was in the depths of despair, and that tragedy began a chain of events that culminated in his writing of this particular book. His family and he, I guess, decided that such pain, public humiliation, and grief had to be put into some positive purpose. And I’m thinking perspective for others as well as themselves. I feel that it always helps if you’re trying to help someone else that tries to help you through your problems.
He went to work armed with a determination to learn everything he could from the business failure, so that it would never happen to them again. It was then he resolved to apply to his life and future principles that he learned from a variety of sources as well. That’s great and I’ve done the same thing with integrating the spirals. There was, oh, a Mormon upbringing. Okay, that explains why my mom had this book and shared it with me. Which stressed prudence, yes. Avoidance of unsound debt. Yes. My mom was always saying that all the time to us to get out of debt, stay out of debt, and a kind of 19th century rugged self-sufficiency. That’s a quote.
He had been studying economics and either was or studied. Being a stockbroker specializing in venture capital and municipal bonds 25 years as an actor and professional singer had taught him to be persuasive and effective in the use of language in front of audiences. Well, that’s good. And yes, I can see where that would be very helpful if you were going into sales or as in his situation, apparently, entrepreneurial enterprise. So it continues, that he was determined someday to repay every day he had a lot of people say that that get into these kinds of situations, even though his legal obligation was discharged through the legal process of bankruptcy.
My mom and dad went through the same thing. So I understand that. He goes on to say, to right when Jesus preached the virtues of a broken heart and a contrite spirit, which is a quote from the Bible. He believes that Jesus met that people generally do not bring about real change in their lives until they’re traumatized by hitting a bottom of despair and misery, from which there’s no choice but to make basic changes in one’s life and Outlook or follow a path to self-destruction. And from that, bottom in his life came the determination not only to ever, never repeat the same mistakes that I’ve made invulnerable, but help others avoid personal financial difficulties caused by their lack of understanding of the real world. And then something that he retained from that speed reading school collabs was a personal ability to read rapidly.
Well see, that’s fantastic. That’s a skill that I wish I had. And he goes on to say that he can handle a lot of material rapidly and have close to Total Recall, and five hours a day of reading he processes vast amounts of written material and runs across things that most people would never have a chance to get to bits and pieces of information click into place that would not have done so how to not discover too much ground in a short time and can quickly become a walking encyclopedia. Almost anything. I’ve really usually not a jealous person, but I’m somewhat jealous of that.
Maybe perhaps that’s a skill that I can acquire. And once I retire, I do scan a lot which is probably what’s helping me scan these first few pages. But I’m, I do not consider myself a speed reader. And I always got low marks in school myself for comprehension. So it’s something that I’ve had to work on. In fact, in my opinion, I am a slow reader. Because I am always really diving in to comprehend deeply, you know, not just comprehending to regurgitate something in five minutes and then forget about it, but to understand it and incorporate it into my life in some way.
So he goes on, let’s see he’s talking about under-capitalized business ventures, which I don’t understand or know much about. I guess that means you maybe didn’t finance enough. I know capital is money like to start a business with Buddy Okay, so he was successful in one and then one called an advisory service, which was called the rough times are you FF that’s funny, used his name well in that bencher in between, he became interested in flying and developed an obsessive interest in weather and climatology, which is something he says that every economic forecaster should know about. I also became fascinated with the subject of nutrition. Oh, interesting. Well, that’s where we connect again. As well as I worked with an Aeronautical University for 10 years. So I know a little bit or two about flying, not that I ever flew and my dad was a private pilot as well.
So he established a vitamin supplement and food storage distributorship. But then sold the business but that equipped him for his research into food problems and food storage. These events plus long he had a long interest in economics and Kant all came together when he wrote this book that I’m reading the introduction of right now. However, it was the business collapse that gave him perspective drive and the character he says, hopefully, to bring, bring him to the point where he could speak with authority from a pretty good track record as a forecaster. And advisor.
That’s where he is today as of this 1979 Writing anyway. And always has the TV talk show too called the rough house, which is shown or at that time was shown in more than 60 stations. across the US. Then this book was originally conceived as a basic text for subscribers to his advisory service. Okay, and I guess he did some personal planning it’s short-term and intermediate, intermediate-term trends can change so I agree it creates both risks and opportunities and timetables can sometimes use adjustment.
So he wrote a book that could stand alone, but the staff and subscribers could use it to stay apprised of any changes in economic climate or strategy. That explains why there’s that section.
The last section is about strategy. There are alternate strategies for these changes in economic climates and chapter 20. Okay, so some material has been has come from, I guess, his extensive files and information that had gone out in the rough times. That’s the name of it. And then he decided also to introduce and summarize some from his first book.
Okay. So, what we read here should be considered an updated summary and review. And then he explains why he wrote this book before he was an author. He was the father and husband and that’s still, his number one role in life, loves his wife and children. They along with his religion, and an alarmed conscience should form an inseparable whole he’s concerned about the hard times he sees coming and how the family will have to live in that world. We want to prepare them to get through without physical discomfort. And with his fundamental Judeo-Christian values intact, working very hard to see that sound principles of ethics, morality, and economics are passed on to his offspring because when he trains his children, he’s also going to be training grandchildren. Everything I write is in the final analysis, his legacy to them.
Yeah, and I believe that’s the same thing. That motivates me. Because after I had my first granddaughter, I thought I wanted to I sat with that for a long time about how I wish so much that I had some writings from my grandparents on both sides, but in particular migrant my mother’s mother, my maternal grandmother because she was Native American and I wanted so much to understand her background. And, it was a really hard thing to kind of prove to there’s my spiral thought going into the Native American Tribal roles and trying to prove which tribe I’m from and connected to and all that sort of thing. So back to the book, he talks about that he explains how we can panic-proof our life, get our debts under control, how to make certain investments to be the inflationary spiral, interesting, he’s got the spiral there too. And all the things that will make for social and financial stability and keep the world kind safer for your family. He explains why he thinks we’re reading the book and then offers some conventional wisdom in economic forecasting and financial planning. Sacred Cows are outdated, inaccurate, Pollyanna-ish, and unrealistic. I agree.
Another full book, not this old but one I also highly recommend is, Sacred Cows Make the Best Burgers by Kriegel and Brandt. That was an excellent book as well and used a lot of sports references. So for the guys of course or anybody that loves sports–it’s a really good book. I’m not a sports fan, but I still got through it and I learned a lot and wrote a paper about it during time spent working one of my first corporate jobs. Our whole team was supposed to read it, but I took it on like it was a college class.
So let’s see, he ends this introduction with his point of view that he had written for the economic ecologist which was about the study of interrelationships of living organisms and their environment. So I thought that was very interesting too and something that I would like to explore further. And that’s how we come to know to see about the Hippocratic Oath, to which every physician subscribes to, which is to “Do Thy Patient, No Harm.” That’s his objective for everything he’s advising us to do.
He’s says he lives within the limits of his financial resources and is comfortably well-off but not wealthy. Those who will gain the most benefit from this book are those who have some savings or some assets small or large, such as equity in a home . Well, I don’t have that and never did because even of all the three homes that I’ve owned or, or partially owned with a partner, the equity I made on one got lost on the other two.
One home I sold did turn a profit but then I ended up putting that into the next home and ended up losing my shirt so I can’t say that I came out ahead. But he goes on to say you can start your personal and financial survival program with as little as $50 a month for a few months. I’m doing that right now. But it’s more than that.
Everybody can do something even if it’s only to vote fools out of office, and I don’t know what this word means “mount of banks.” So when I get to look up, those who keep digging our hole deeper, surely would not be thrilled about what our national debt is now in the US all these some 40 years later, right?
Throughout the book, you find references to books, publication services, and products with some candid consumer guides, type comments and to assist you in searching for them. He’s listed all of these at the end of the book giving addresses phone numbers and prices where appropriate. When and where appropriate. Each product is listed so refer to the text in the appendix. He will make commercial recommendations but receives no financial rewards from those recommendations.
I’m pretty much on the same while though I do have in my Being Wholly Vibrant blog. That’s my review blog and there are ads that WordPress puts in as well as some of the products I may make a small commission on. I’m in two companies right now but I’m only promoting one because I enjoy and love those products so much. And all the rest of them are like with Instacart–there’s a coupon so you can save money and I’ll save money too on my next order things like that, but nothing that’s you know, gonna make me wealthy from sharing about but there are the honest reviews on stuff I try.
I’ve worked hard over the years to stay brand independent, and the information that I share, because I feel that helps keep me honest. And I learned a long time ago not to use that phrase “in all honesty,” blah, blah blah because that means that you’re not honest about other stuff. You’re only honest about the stuff right after you say “in all honesty.”. Across the board I’m honest. I just think that staying brand independent helps me not present conflicting information or not make anyone feel pressured in any way; not to sway someone to think brand A is better than brand B or whatever. I will give you my opinion as when something tastes terrible. But again, you know, it’s just to me your taste buds are completely different from mine. And so and our taste buds change over time. So that’s just one example of I can tell you that something tastes terrible, but you might buy it and use it and love it. I just do my best to stay brand independent unless I’m truly in love with a product or a philosophy or teaching or such. All right, I will end this for now.
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We must! We pay good money to go to the movies or watch TV (via cable, streaming, or such) and all actors lie. They memorize the words writers wrote for them!
In this comprehensive article, we will delve into the world of Acting and Entertainment Writing.
Supposedly, actors are sooo good at what they do, lying and pretending, for a short time—they embody the character they are playing.
Effectively, actors trick themselves into believing they are the character while crafting a performance. They immerse themselves into their character as to believe they are the character. They believe the lie and sell it to us.
Yet, without any expressive words of a script, without a fully rendered explanation of the story, could they bodily craft such a scene?
Acting. Credit: Pexels
Spiral thoughts: My dad, way before he met my mom, went to Hollywood because a teacher he had in school said he had the looks and abilities to be a good actor. But when dad got there he said all they did was teach him to lie. He wanted no part of it and came back home.
Interestingly, dad met mom not long after and when he brought her home to meet his family they all thought she was a movie star! She was beautiful but never saw herself that way.
Let me entertain you
Ah, those words alone bring the famous song to my mind! Who can forget? Haha! There are a great many now too young to even know what I’m referring to! So, here ya go:
I used to watch a lot of old movies with my mom while I was growing up. We both loved the musicals. I loved the dancing. Mom loved the romance.
I do think movies and TV shows set us up to fail in a way. To be in love with love. And almost nobody has those movie-like fairytale love affairs. If they do they don’t last.
Give that man an award
Jerry Seinfeld, still one of the funniest comedians alive, does this routine about giving a guy an award because he stood on the right spot and spoke a rehearsed line with some sort of feined emotion or feeling.
Real people, us living actual lives (like teachers, firefighters, and police) do this too, nearly everyday but no one gives them an award.
When I use my mirrorball and play with my thoughts I can see a lot of things more clearly. And I love teaching that process. There really are multiple sides to every story, not simply two.
About us
My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to all of his songs at: http://listen4music.com
In and beyond this magnificent Universe, Omniscience knows ALL. Omniscience is always with you because you are a fractal part of Omniscience. You are truly never alone in this ever-expanding Universe. We are each fractals of Omniscience akin to glints of sunlight on the surface of a large body of water or the rays of sunshine shining upon us.
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Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT)
Quite simply, Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) cured my addiction/habit of finger skin-picking/chewing. And I believe my story might help others, so I feel compelled to share it. You might wonder what I mean by “picking my fingers.” Years ago I quit biting my fingernails, but I only traded that habit for something less. The main cause of the “picking” had not been addressed.
I bought a book called, Tapping the Healer Within because my acupuncture doctor had told me about it, and because I had tried everything else. I found that book a bit convoluted and besides, it mostly dealt with phobias and anxieties – neither of which I thought I had. More importantly, it was difficult for me to hold the book and try to tap on my body with my other hand. Or maybe that was only my excuse – but the book, though interesting to me, wasn’t enough to help me.
A few weeks before my personal EFT visit with a local therapist, my encouraging hubby and I watched a mind-expanding show on TLC called, I Can Make You Thin. One of the episodes showed the host using EFT to help people overcome their food cravings. Because I had also tried everything to lose weight, I decided that I really needed some one-on-one personal guidance with that, as well as my finger skin-picking habit.
At about that time, I met an EFT practitioner named, Janice Cunningham (Health Quest Titusville, Florida). I was eager to get in for an appointment. During a 2.5-hour session (on a Saturday) with Janice, I described both of my issues fully. By the time we’d wrapped up our session, I found a total resolution to some deep-seated wrong mental programming, and amazingly, I had the best night’s sleep that I’d had in years that night! I guess I had not even realized that my sleep pattern had also been an issue.
My appointment with Janice also greatly helped me to release the finger skin-picking addiction. Janice and I spent nearly two hours going back into my past, into my former marriage, teenage years, and finally, childhood years. I realized that I had picked up my habit of fingernail-biting at the same time asthma began – when I was six years of age. My mom had always been a terrible nail-biter, biting right down into the quick, so I knew I’d picked up the habit from mom, I simply had not realized how much of a connection there was between that habit, my asthma, and my mom.
Example of finger picking on side of my ring fingernail. Yes, sometimes it still occurs when I watch something too intense in a TV show/movie–so perhaps I am not 100% “cured” but I have a LOT more awareness around it and do not continue to pick once I become aware that I’m doing it.
I realized fully during my session that when my mom’s father died, my grandfather, the sadness surrounding his death deeply affected me. When I was six years of age, coincidently, I received an asthma diagnosis. You’ll recall I had explained earlier that my grandfather had died at home after being in the hospital for cancer surgery. They sent him home with the understanding that the doctors had done all they could do. At least my grandfather died at home.
As an aside, one of the things my mother always said was to stay away from hospitals if possible. I think she had heard about people who went to the hospital and died from some infection (like Sepsis) or had the wrong procedure done! My mother’s fear of the hospital was not lost on me. The important thing about that experience for me though, was that even though I was a child, I had a deep connection to my grandfather’s passing, mostly due to how upset my mom was during that time. And because I was thoroughly connected to my mother emotionally.
My mama was very upset about losing her father. She and I, at that time, felt that death was the end. And though our religious belief was that we would see him again in the afterlife, we suffered greatly at the time of his death and for weeks after. I vividly recall believing if she could lose him, I could lose her. And there was no way I could live – I wouldn’t be able to breathe, in fact – without my mom. Knowing what I know now, I hard-wired that grief right into my lungs, because of the emotional charge involved in that event, due to my vivid recall of it.
My EFT session felt like counseling and hypnosis (though I was awake and totally aware of what was happening) as though Janice was talking to me on a deep level. During the session, Janice recommended I take some notes, both of the things I was becoming aware of and how to run through this process again on my own. The following is an account of the written notes I made:
I couldn’t breathe without my mom.
I always had tried to “save my mom.”
I am not my thoughts.
My perception influenced my thoughts but my perceptions were wrong.
The genie is out of the bottle.
I do not need the old thoughts.
Am I the thought or the awareness?
Am I “this” thought, or am I the awareness of “this” thought?
Who sent “this” thought? (My pain body)
Examine “this” thought. It will probably be a limiting thought, a no-win thought, and one that would eventually bring pain.
To let go of “this” thought: 1) focus on the feeling of my breath in and out, 2) be the observing presence.
When I only observe, I suspend space.
Inspiration = In spirit, and inspiration fills me, lights me up from the inside – the same as when someone is in creative mode you feel the creative energy inside, in your heart/chest not in the head area.
The Aha moment is when the head agrees to the inner knowing.
My habit of biting my fingernails = my fear and anxiety linked to my feeling of not being able to fix/help/save my mom.
Something that can trigger asthma in my body is when I face something I can’t do anything about; when I feel a sense of powerlessness.
Through this experience and the many more that followed, I learned we tend to hold fear as a sort of security blanket. I don’t know why, as I think that is the root cause of most of our suffering. And the Buddhists and Taoists believe and teach that also.
This is also a reason I bring up the topic of God and spiritual things in this book. Our beliefs—whether we have hope or not and if we believe this Universe is friendly or not—have a lot to do with how each of us feels bodily.
You may not think fear is the same as a person who is negative all the time, but I would wager that a person who is consistently afraid of this thing or the other, is a person who puts a lot of emphasis on protecting what they think belongs to them. Some might call that kind of person a control freak. They may be a person who lives for “things” and is a pack rat or hoarder. They may also be the kind of person who suffers because of all the things and people to whom they are attached. There’s a lot of healing in letting go, of people, places, and things. And you can’t take any of it with you when you transition (or pass away) from this life to whatever comes next.
The Bible in the book of Philippians has a verse that instructs us to think about whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, excellent, or praiseworthy. And the author of those words, Paul, said that as we think these thoughts the God of peace will be with us. I used to encourage my mother to focus on these things—and during her last two or three years, if not more, she did, because she was always in gratitude during our last visits.
Janice used EFT in a compassionate and caring way. The end result of the two hours for my fingers was every difficulty my mom had ever had, in her marriage, health, etc. I felt as though I needed to help her, or ‘SAVE’ her. Though mom had a very strong faith in Jesus, it was always something I had felt – that I needed to save her. Once we broke this down and got to this deep-seated REASON for my habit, so many other things lifted within my mind and body as well. I can’t say enough wonderful things about EFT. If you think you’ve tried everything to find relief from anxiety, depression, weight issues, nerve problems, etc. I implore you to seek out an EFT therapist in your area. You do not need to “believe in it” for it to work for you. And what do you have to lose?
Over the years, I took the words attributed to Jesus in the Bible about “saving people” to mean, “love people.” For I am not responsible for saving anyone else or even making them happy. However, the cells of my body hold me accountable for making myself happy (it feels good when I align with my Soul) to keep my Temple (Mind and Body), healthy. I can love my enemies, but I don’t have to live with them!
Thus, because I am a super responsible person – I’m supposed to do something. (This is the conflict that causes the habitual negative behavior). And because I have an analytical mind, I often find my thoughts at odds with the evidence-based medicine that is predominantly used in hospitals, as I believe the evidence of healing I’ve experienced is true too—anecdotal experience is real and is true!
I relied on prayer, EFT, breath work, reflexology, and all kinds of alternative methods to calm and help myself think clearly when my husband was in the hospital in October 2022. I was dumbstruck how little the hospital staff communicated with each other, even though they wheeled a computer into the room with them each time! I found myself telling each doctor, intern, resident, specialist, and nurse who came into the room to see my husband most all of the same things because they did not relay the information to each other. Since I am a business analyst in Information Technology by trade the lack of appropriate information handoffs I witnessed was alarming!
p.s. I used to teach EFT at a Wellness clinic in St. Petersburg, Florida and I have lectured on the benefits of EFT at several events. I am planning on offering some general introductory EFT sessions via Zoom if anyone is interested in participating–let me know in the comments.
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About us
My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to all of his songs at: http://listen4music.com
In and beyond this magnificent Universe, Omniscience knows ALL. Omniscience is always with you because you are a fractal part of Omniscience. You are truly never alone in this ever-expanding Universe. We are each fractals of Omniscience akin to glints of sunlight on the surface of a large body of water or the rays of sunshine shining upon us.
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be–who your soul beckons you to be. It’s important because who you are in this world affects us ALL. We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
I’m singing along with The Greens. Singing Mercy Found Room For Me. Mercy found room for me. That’s right. Mercy is how I describe, when I was so emotional, I just felt like it was my dad talking to me and mercy found room for me. Mercy found room for my dad and mercy will find room for each of you.
I had to stop and pick up my nettle tea which is fantastic for any breathing kind of issues that you have going on. Or even if you have a cold or something or allergies, and the other one I love is Pau D’Arco. This is for you, Mama. I love you so much. My mom was drinking Pau D’Arco tea years and years before she passed. She had found it so detoxifying and cleansing for the body and helpful. It wasn’t until a couple years ago, maybe even in within this last year, I found it to be so helpful though.
Oh! I’m always open to receive; I’m open to see from mom, dad, and my ancestors whose blood runs through my veins. I hug myself and I honor you. I thank you for all the gifts that you’ve given me and continue to give me and some of you I’ll see you soon. So, I love you. Love, love, love, love is what it’s all about. Let’s not spend a moment more in sadness or grief or arguing or disagreeing. Okay?
Love is everywhere. Love is where it’s at. From what I’ve seen in my experiences, when our human body dies, we meet our creator. And in that moment the only words I’ll want to say is, Thank YOU!
I’ve seen it in my visions. Those two words are ALL I say! Thank YOU! I’ve told you this before. But they mean so much. We say them so flippantly and so easily to people and we say this phrase without meaning it but when we face our Creator and when I face my Creator I know what I’m gonna say. Those two words. Thank you. Thank you Thank you for EVERYTHING.
Omniscience knows ALL. Omniscience is always with you. You are never alone.
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be–who your soul beckons you to be. It’s important because who you are in this world affects us ALL. We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.
All right, here we go. There are many topics that we could discuss. There are many topics indeed. We could discuss my new book, Blue Eyes, which is a collection or diary of messages from the Grand beyond. Messages from my ethereal sister, Christina. Messages to bring hope and uplift, ease loneliness is depression or depressive thoughts. Lots we could talk about, in spiritual journeying to find out who we are, who our soul is, and then we can talk about religion and we can talk about the Queen’s passing. (I didn’t want to do this right at the time of her passing out of respect).
The Queen
I have a lot of English ancestry. So, the Queen’s passing is somewhat of a titillating subject for me, as my daughter asked me (when it happened), “What do you think about the Queen’s passing”? And I said, “Well, my first thought was that ding dong, the witch is dead.” Okay, I’m just being honest. In my head I heard the accompanying Wizard of Oz song.
Ding Dong
That was my first thought probably because my mom would have been very happy as she waited YEARS for that woman to die. She really had NO love for her. My mom was very distraught over the situation with Princess Di, Diana, Princess of Wales. My mom really believed that we had Welsh ancestry. And so, she followed closely the life of Princess Diana from the time she learned Di would marry Prince Charles.
Spiral thought: I cannot believe England is going to have a king Chuck now. Sounds like a slab of beef.
Anyway, my mom would be very happy to know the Queen finally left this earth. I hope my mom has a chance on the other side in the Grand Beyond to speak with the Queen. But when I told my husband that, he remarked they won’t be in the same place. I guess that tells you his feelings too.
Not that the Queen didn’t have some redeeming qualities. I’m sure! Like her learning how to be a truck driver. And a mechanic when she was a teenager to give her a little taste of how the little people live.
I know I sound bitter. But as I told my daughter when I listened to Piers Morgan have his little spiel about Queen Elizabeth II. He said something that got under my skin a bit. He used the words that she wasn’t in it for herself.
To Piers, the Queen was born into the royal family. So in that regard, I guess she wasn’t in it for herself. She didn’t seek out to become a queen, right? But she certainly was in it for herself. Monetarily speaking, Piers. She was worth over $500 million. She sat around eating bonbons with her feet up–investing. I don’t know anybody who’s an investor who doesn’t work a job that isn’t in it for themselves. So, that really pissed me off when he said that. Otherwise I like Piers Morgan. Alright. Enough of that.
Thank you, Russell
The best and most eloquent and compassionate speech that I’ve heard yet (about the Queens’ passing) was from Russell Brand, who can be the most vulgar comedian going but he actually seemed to care about the people who cared about the queen. So I appreciated what he had to say and I got through his soliloquy just fine without something rubbing me the wrong way. But let me remind folks, we fought a war in America against England. We fought against everything they stood for. The whole Church of England and the Anglican Protestant stuff. We did. We fought that and we gained our independence. India also sought, by the way, to gain their independence from England.
England is a monarchy
England is a monarchy that rules more than 10 countries. I don’t know if people are aware of that. In this day and age, I would have thought that we’re not living in a Game of Thrones scenario anymore, and we wouldn’t have kings and queens and rulers. When you say the word “subjects” it harkens “slavery” to my mind. So no, I’m not a big fan of the royal family. I never was. But especially not after my mother said the Queen probably put a hit out on Princess Diana because of her affair with Dodi El-Fayed.
The Queen wasn’t pleased about Diana and Dodi’s affair. I’m sure my mother wasn’t the only one to come up with that little plausible scenario. I mean, you just don’t piss off a queen. Right? So, Diana kind of made her own bed in that regard. And perhaps literally, but this king Chuck guy was no saint. Come on. He was doing Camilla for how many years? And why didn’t he marry her? Who knows? You know, it’s all screwed up and screwy with that family.
No tears
I didn’t shed a tear when I found out QEII passed. She loved to get along in life and she was the monarch for 70 freakin years. So most people can’t hold the job or maintain family relationships for 70 years, though, you know, again, she she has a few redeeming qualities. But I’m not so apt to pick up a tissue over her passing.
I watched that ridiculous pageant of a funeral for about five minutes. I preferred to spend my time going to a spiritually uplifting and enlightening day (part of what was going to be a weekend retreat). But, I didn’t want to leave my husband for the weekend. (And after he suffered a stroke two days after hurricane Ian passed our area, now I know why!)
Day retreat
I went for one day of a two-day retreat with Gloria Grace Rand, and some kindred spirits. And like minds, yeah, they may not feel anything like me about the queen, but that’s okay. You know, I’ve said enough about her anyway.
Change the subject
Speaking of spiritually uplifting things, subjects topics. Let’s work now to get myself back into a peaceful and calm state after I could feel it in my body that tension and anxiousness. I wouldn’t even call it anxiety. But yes, I get a little tense when I get in a bit of a bend over something and there’s only a few subjects, thankfully, that I get in a bend over anymore. Most of my readers know what those subjects are. Subjects in the other sense of the word.
To make myself feel better, I shift the subject, change the subject, because once a thought builds momentum and spirals out some emotion, it doesn’t just fizzle out. You know, when you get on what I call a bend, or event, or upset over, over something. So, to feel better, I changed the subject to one of the best subjects I can think to switch to, Spirituality. Now again, spirituality is a whole vast myriad, huge subject, huge topic because we can talk about it endlessly because spirit is there no, there’s no way to quantify or even qualify spirits.
My book, Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection
In my book, Blue Eyes, I do talk about the vastness. I didn’t talk about the expansiveness, I talk about how spirit can communicate with us Beyond the Veil. Spirit can communicate with us in many ways, all of our human senses are able to differentiate, decipher identify, pick up tune in to spirit. Oh, we need to do this to be in alignment. All we need to do is tune in sitting and meditating and if one doesn’t meditate, you can pray and then just while you’re praying, just focus on your breathing and quit asking anything. Just stop talking. See how far that gets you. If you’re mentally praying, like I think most do, while you’re praying mentally, you’re speaking those mental words to some theory or divinity or source.
Meditation
Just stop asking and wait and focus on your breathing. Focus on how your breath feels in your nose in your mouth, down your throat through the different parts of your body. Sit and do that for a few minutes. And you’re meditating. You’re waiting on an answer. If you go into prayer with a question or or with a concern or worry about someone or something, when you get to this point of just sitting and waiting and not asking anymore, you make it a thought. If the thought is unrelated to what you were just thinking about writing it out. Just let that go. Did I leave the iron on? or isthe bathwater running? or is the stove on or the lights on our side of the car? Any of those kinds of parent thoughts that creep in? Just let that go.
Meditation teaches us to watch those thoughts float by on a white fluffy cloud or some something of the sort. If you get a thought drop in to your mind that is something new that you’ve never thought of before directly related to what you were asking about. That is an answer. And you can fairly be fairly certain that it is directly applicable to your question in a way in which you may be able to take action upon it or tell someone else or ask someone else to take action on it. And at that point, you can simply get up and say thank you put your hands up.
I’m assuming you’ve had your hands together if you’ve been praying but if not, that should have been what I offered you first put your hands together say a prayer. Stop your mental talking. Pay attention to the thoughts that drop in not something that you were thinking about before you sat down to just let all that stuff go. But anything new then you can make a note of it something you need to take action on. And then of course you you take pull your hands apart, write down the note and you’re done. Say thank you.
Prayer
The greatest prayer you can ever pray is simply, “Thank you.” because honestly, when you die and you meet your Creator and you look at your creator in the face, whether near or far however you picture that meeting occurring, if you can even utter the words, “Thank you” in that amazingly glorious, stupendous, spectacular, outrageous blessing, beautiful experience that the lusciousness the depth of that experience. If you can even other two words, I will be surprised. I would be amazed.
Gratitude
If you can say thank you for everything, all of this journey of life, the ups the downs, the roller coasters, the fights, the arguments, disagreements, the hurt, the hurtful feelings, the abuse that being cussed at, whatever, you know, whatever. If you can say thank you to your Creator for everything for your life. That’s it. I mean, that is the pinnacle, the highest that you’re gonna get, and the most just incredible, exhilarating experience. Because God simply wants to be acknowledged now God would love it if we would acknowledge God and I use the word Omniscience for God (now, as of the last 15 years or so), because that’s what was given to me during meditation, prayer and meditation Omniscience. If you’re standing in front of or laying prone in front of Omniscient God or God Omniscience your very breath, your very essence, came from God. And God just wants you to keep connected with God in always every day in all capital all ways.
So, while you’re doing anything, you’re washing the dishes you’re scrubbing the floor, you’re cleaning the toilet, you’re raising your children, you’re working your job, you’re shopping in a store. That’s why lying or stealing, or coveting someone else’s wife or belongings, that kind of thing. That’s why those 10 commandments are Commandments. Not because he just set up rules of the house to say don’t do these things. I don’t like it. It was because when you’re doing those things, you’re out of communion with God. You’re not including the presence of the holy, magnificent immeasurable experience of God that’s why God is Omniscient, right? God sees everything, hears everything knows everything is everywhere all the time. You know, look up the meaning of Omniscience. That’s God. If you do anything that is outside of God, then God’s not in it. Right.
God in ALL
Yeah, the mystery of it is is that God is in everything. So even when the man is beating his wife, God is in the middle of that. Those people aren’t aware of that or they wouldn’t be taking that action. That’s the whole issue with works. And when people say faith without works is dead. There’s truth in that. Yeah. When people say all you need is faith, there’s truth in that as well. I am here to wake people up to that. I am here to simply help you become aware of the fact that you can live in gratitude and Grace every single day of your life and in every single moment and every single action when somebody pisses you off when somebody says something to you don’t like when some driver acts a fool on the road cuts you off. Any any of that. I’m I’m driving as I’m speaking, as this is being transcribed by otter. So yes, I’ve seen people act a fool and drive radically. And I mean, I may not approve of it because they’re putting themselves at risk and other drivers on the road. They’re usually someone who’s not mature enough to know that if they lost a tire or a part of their car, that they could have an accident and they could kill themselves or other people. Maybe they kill the people in the car with them and they live themselves what kind of guilt are they gonna live with the rest of their life? Because they needed to get somewhere two minutes before 1000 other cars on the road.
That’s the kind of thing so we can look around we have eyes we can look around and we can see a lot of people doing foolish things around us and we can judge them just like I judge the Queen, right? What was she supposed to do? Give up her crown? Well, she could have said listen, the days of this royal family. This shit is over. We don’t need this anymore. Who’s gonna walk away? The royal family has 88 billion with a B assets, who walks away from that? You know, so it’s a lineage thing. That has gone on for millennia. And so people just don’t walk away from that. Okay, I’ll end there.
We’ve had a nice circular discussion, and I’m going to continue to pray and meditate perhaps come to some different ideas and completions. And be able to be in a more relaxed state when I reach my destination. I love you ALL. Peace to you ALL. Put your hands together when you pray. Ask your question. Stop asking. Wait for the answer. Breathe. Focus on your breath. And when the new thought that you never thought of before drops and say thank you, get up, write it down. Take action. Go about your day with God with knowing Omniscience is always with you. You are never alone. You are never alone.
My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to all of his songs at: http://listen4music.com
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be–who your soul beckons you to be. It’s important because who you are in this world affects us ALL. We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.
Since I met Patricia McGivern and had a one-on-one hypnotherapy session with her on my birthday in 2016, I have been keeping notes about observations in nature, dreams, visions, and surreal experiences (nighttime visitations) from my mom and dad since they have crossed over to the Other Side of The Veil, transitioned to the Grand Beyond, or had their “Celebration Day.”
My new book draws from these experiences. I named the book, Blues Eyes, a metaphysical novel because it’s centered around things my one day old sister, Christina has shown me.
Book cover: Blue Eyes: A metaphysical novel
I’ll write more and put out some videos soon about what the writing process has been like, but for now, I want to highlight some important lessons and concepts:
Note from March 18th, 2016
“And birth is only the beginning. It is overwhelming sometimes to ponder how courageous and brave it is of each soul to agree to this carnal ride.
Oh, how bumpy and bizarre this ride! How curious this journey of becoming human. How mysterious and magical to be in a living, changing, growing, wonderful body!
As an adult, we think we’re big enough, strong, and tough enough to survive, but we know the body and mind are fragile too.
Imagine when we are in the womb, how fragile, delicate, and vulnerable we are. Oh, how indescribable it must be!
So, let us all pray and meditate daily about how grateful we are to have been born–to be here!
We are able to live, move, and have our being, while not every soul who desires and strives to be here, makes it.
And lets be kind to our bodies, our children, and each other. For we are all blessed to be here, and IN Joy relish the time we have on this magnificent planet.
Note from March 18th, 2021
An Aha moment! While reading the preceding paragraphs, held within about 500 writing “Notes” in my iPhone, I realized (seeing with REAL EYES), that I’d written that 3 years to the day BEFORE the DATE dad had set with me to visit each other—due to me always being “busy, busy, busy” (dad’s words).
Overarching Takeaways
Sitting in this “complete and fulfilling state of GRATITUDE and GRACE” I Am humbled.
When anything disturbs me (including myself), when my expectations aren’t met, I will choose to let it go as best I can to Limitless Omniscience God, and forgive myself and others as we can never see the whole picture, or know the whole story—much less control anything.
Cherish nothing else except each moment of Presence.
Know that you yourself are essential to this world. Understand both the blessing and the burden of that. You yourself are desperately needed to save the soul of this world.
In a Sacred Hoop of Life, there is no beginning and no ending. To everything, turn, turn, turn. There is a reason.
Each of us is important and have a mission. Much love and multitudinous blessings to each of you in ALL ways. ❤️🦋🌀〰️
Fractals of Omniscience
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it does affect us ALL because We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.
How I stay in gratitude every day since embarking on the citrus diet where I’ve been eating a grapefruit and oranges tangelos tangerines every day for 30 days.
Now, I’m beyond the 30 day period.
I’ve noticed that while I peel the grapefruit and I peel the orange by scoring them and then hand peeling them over the trashcan, I remembered that my dad is the one that taught me how to peel an orange. And the memory of that brings me to a place of gratitude.
Also, when I wash the knife that I scored the orange with when I wash out my bowl, the one particular stoneware bowl that I tend to use every day multiple times a day that’s the rewashing before each serving of food or each preparation to serve the bowl of food. I have to wash it and I do this over the sink. I wash it by hand and as I’m washing I’m meditating I’m bringing my my mind to a neutral point and breathing and then a thought will drop in. And typically, at least today, it was the thought of my mom, when she would wash dishes. She would talk she would talk to herself and she did this for many years.
In fact, most of my life I remember my mother standing at the kitchen sink, washing dishes and talking to herself sometimes it was imperceptible, the volume of her speech was so low. Dad and I used to joke and poke fun at her (for which I am soooo sorry about now), and she would kind of make a gesture. I can only describe her gesture as as a mixture of blowing off what we would say and frustration that we didn’t understand her. She did tell me in later years that she would was praying or talking with those that had gone before. I didn’t ever really connect that mom may have been talking to spirits, but I did sense that she was putting her doubts or worries emotions out there for God or the angels or whomever was listening.
Certainly, dad and I were not listening to mom’s murmurings. And now, where gratitude comes in from that thought is that (crying) mom had the words then… she was able to articulate and communicate her thoughts and feelings and ideas! Ugh! Because (whether you know this or not), later in mom’s life, she lost her ability to speak, or say much anyway. Mom lost the ability to formulate the words and move her mouth in such a way to be able to make words would come out.
Mom would try to speak. So, she had some mind left. And I watched this. I watched my mother decline and her vocal ability deteriorate over the last two to three years of her life. And in particular the last visit with her before she passed. But I will never know how much of mom’s mind was still alive and functioning, or how much wasn’t.
The few months before mom crossed over she was down to only having the use of about 10 words. Mom would use the same 10 words over and over and over to describe a variety of things. She would point to things and use the word thing or baby and that was it. Or baby was the name (noun) for everything. But mom remembered the words beautiful, wonderful and such, as her descriptions or descriptors (adjectives). I had always offered that instead of worrying, mom could think on all the lovely, beautiful, and wonderful things. And I believe what thoughts she had were on those kinds of things.
Thus, when I had these thoughts while washing dishes I became verygrateful. Yes, Gratitude enveloped me. I am sooo grateful to have had the mom I had. The mother who loved and cared for me all the days of my life while she lived.
I am so grateful for all the things my parents taught me.
Do you want to live in that place of gratitude every day?
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it does affect us ALL because We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.
My mother and I had been visiting. I had been talking with her and fitting her with a dress for some special occasion. My daughter/granddaughter was asleep in the next room.
At some point my mother’s acute hearing turned to the bedroom and she quickly made her way to the door, opened it, and caught my daughter/granddaughter quietly playing on the floor, next to the nightlight.
My daughter ran across the bed, to the adjacent bathroom, all the while screaming at the top of her lungs because mom was going to whip her.
From my now vantage point, it was terrorizing! I wanted to intervene, but I was frozen in stillness.
After I woke up, I had to analyze the dream, and write it down because in an instant I became the clockmaker. The clockmaker god of my own Westworld.
We can love someone, yet not like them.
We can love someone and not always like them. ❤️🦋🌀〰️
Why?
How is that possible?
Love is always unconditional if it’s truly love.
Liking someone, it seems to follow, is about Control.
In the case of my daughter, she had not went to sleep when my mother put her to bed. She disobeyed.
Mom’s need to control her led to a whipping which meant none of us would fall asleep naturally happy or at ease.
All my daughter had wanted was to listen to mom and I talk, and would have fallen asleep on the floor, not really hurting anything. However, my mom had a different expectation.
Thus, when my daughter didn’t adhere to my mother’s expectation, mom viewed it as disobedience and the thrashing ensued. Oh, my poor daughter! “Mom don’t”—I wanted to yell.
In the series, Westworld, Creator god makes each person with a bit of him in them, or in his image.
How are we making ourselves, and our children?
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.
While my son and I helped dad pack things up, after my dad was mentally and emotionally able to sell the property and mobile home in south Florida where we’d first landed after relocating in 1985 from West Virginia, I found several things that answered some questions I’d had for many years.
Diary pages
Along with several diary pages that mom had written in the 1960s and 1970s, I found an unsigned letter to her that made me question which is more important taking advice from family or from friends.
The statement in the letter that got me was, “I’m disappointed in you that you feel that your friends understand you better than your family (and me).”
Old typed letter
Who wrote it?
I have an idea of who the letter is from, but I am not sure. It was typed, single spaced on one sheet of paper.
As of this moment, it doesn’t matter to me who wrote the letter.
I will say that it ended on what I would consider to be a positive note, though still preachy.
“Don’t continually think about what is in your past. Let’s live for the future.”
Now, as for me, “I’ve had my share of sad kicks in my face, but I have come through” (to quote from one of my favorite Queen songs, We Are The Champions).
I haven’t cried much in the last year since mom passed, mostly because I still communicate with her in subtle ways, and I am keenly aware of her continuation in my life by occurring synchronicities.
Yet, today, I cried.
I had meditated and upon coming out of meditation, I was filled with emotion. I cried and spoke the following aloud:
Family reflect who we were; friends reflect who we are.
Family reflect who we once were, or who we were in the past. But, our friends reflect who we are now, who we’ve become, and how much we’ve grown (or not). That’s why we sometimes tend to love our friends more than our family. Yet, some of us (like me), who are very blessed, have family we are also friends with and who we want to spend eternity with. Time limits us, but thankfully (Thank you, God), that eternity is not limited.
Here’s something that’s true for most of us. We’re stuck in a box, or bottle. Even if its clear.
The box or bottle I’m referring to? The fences (rules) of religion—even when religion supposedly isn’t involved.
From a dream
Dream: Mom was reminding me about all the notations she had made in her Bible about “No gossip”, and “not to gossip.”
And that’s because all learning must be Experiential learning—coming from direct experience, which is also why Jesus said let thy speech be yay or nay. He knew that we can never really know the truth of another.
Someone may try to warn you of another. But we all experience each other differently because who we are in any given moment, elicits something different from the person. Many times we’ve experienced this. It’s the situation when one divorced person marries another and they get along gloriously. The “bad” partner may get along with another just fine.
Each of us experience life differently. We just can never fully know someone. People lie. People pretend.
I think most of us want to put our best self forward—but, for most this involves wearing a kind of mask. Call it the mask of pretense. It’s the face of kindness, compassion, peace, or love, while inside ourselves we feel anger, resentment, sadness, jealousy, or regret.
Best lesson
Be a loyal friend and keep people’s confidences. Mama taught me by example and reminded me often to be the best friend I could to my friends.
Now, I find I have a splendid variety of the most trusting loyal friends—all unique in their beliefs, but who each hold a strong core of integrity.
❤️🦋🌀☀️🌱
Thank you.
I miss you mama. Thank you. Thank you for teaching me everything I needed to know (when you could barely talk anymore), by looking in my eyes and placing your hand on the side of my face. And for always living in utter GRATITUDE the last years of your life (though your surroundings were not as you once would have wanted). You came to a place of not knowing or of acceptance, it doesn’t matter which, because you were grateful. You became Grace.
I only cry because I never got to tell you how much I got that lesson, how deeply I learned that last lesson from you. I continue forward, with understanding.
Nothing really matters, or everything matters. Each of us get to choose. Who do you love?
We Are All Connected. OM
Many blessings to you in ALL ways.
UPDATE: I found the rest of the letter, and it was NOT from whom I had thought! And the rest of it brought the earlier statements into balance with love and grace, so I have learned another lesson. I continue to feel Gratitude. Tears! 😭
UPDATE 7-Jun-2019: As I was washing the Lifetime brand (which apparently, does last a lifetime) of pots and pans (that dad gave me years ago), it hit me why mom always LOVED to clean house–it put her in a meditative state! Ah! Yes, my aha moment today. And it brought tears to my eyes. OM
After that, I was looking through pictures of a book I’d bought my granddaughter last year (yes, I save things like that), and it highlighted my new found awareness:
CREDIT: Buddha Doodles, by Molly Hahn
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