What is it that lights me up? What’s the Divine Flame?
My purpose is what lights me up.
I sit and look at my PEACE board that I drew for my Integrated Spiral™ program. And what I see, what I know is that I AbSOULutely love to talk and share from my Soul about holistic health, healing, transformation, and of course, Omniscience God and Spirit! ❤️🦋🌀
Per my body graph:When I feel resistance, or frustrated, it is because I made a decision by mental reasoning. My strategy is to respond until I feel satisfied. Unless I am a subtype of Manifestor, my job was never to be the Peacemaker I felt forced to be.
Yesterday, I let go…
I let go of a 3 year friendship and wellness community (of which I had been a vocal and very visible part of—both on social media and blogging). Done.
I walked barefoot in the hot Florida sand.
I cried cleansing tears for less than 5 minutes.
My grief turned to compassion easily. —That’s because I do my Byron Katie “turnarounds.” And “go general” as Abraham-Hicks say. I am very adept at finding my next better feeling thought.
I worked my program of Spiral mechanics on my feelings. —I go deep to rise above, remembering what I have learned from my teachers (Dispenza, Lipton, Hof, Beckwith, Sadhguru, Lama Nicholas, Terrence McKenna, etc) so I can integrate and embody MORE.
What happened? WHY end a friendship?
NO ONE seems suspicious of the mainstream narrative. And while I am not necessarily suspicious, I do question and push back when I feel the need to take care of myself. I still Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life! Yes, I do! I read my own book over and over to remind mySelf.
Until now, for most of my life of 59 years, I have been a peacemaker. I would most naturally choose to back down from a confrontation.
But I am becoming more discerning.
I used to walk away from a fight because when one walks away, the fight ends. I learned that from the years I watched my parents argue, yell, and bicker. It’s the path of least resistance for me. Call it a coping skill. Whatever. It worked for me. It allowed me to give myself compassion. To love mySelf.
So, I don’t judge mySelf for that.
Yes, I have burned bridges in the past. It was necessary and I have no regrets. It kept me “safe.” Whatever that really means.
Now, I want to stand my sacred ground.
I don’t want to back down.
My Irish ire is up. Haha!
I have grown a backbone.
I know I’m a good person. But it’s more than that, (and because I know we are Energy beings, and that it’s ALL ENERGY), I am a multidimensional WHOLE person, who is worthy of being heard, at least, if not respected or honored. Those are all just labels anyway.
Yes, I am worthy to BE HERE NOW. Bless it!
I love to listen to Russell Brand, Brian Rose, Dr Joe Dispenza, Sadhguru and those leaders who can look and value ALL perspectives.
I teach Integrated Spiral™ courses because they have grown me into WHOLENESS!
🌀 Energy Tuning
🔵 Mirror ball: Valuing ALL perspectives
🌱 Growing & F-L-O-W-I-N-G (Everything Resolves to Gratitude)
☯️ Kaleidoscope: Finding value in Everything, Interconnectedness (We Are All Connected)
Yesterday. I was triggered by certain personal messages and responses, that differed from past conversations on the particular triggering topic, which I totally had not expected. Yep, I was blind-sided.
In the online community, of which we are both a part of many are supportive of each other. And I was often told what a wonderful person I was when introductions were made. We were supposed to be uplifting, inclusive, spreading love & light, ETC.
Well, I’m apparently not so wonderful anymore! Make one perceived misstep and it’s judgment city! Ha!
I simply brought an issue to light that a simple, “okay” would have been all the communication I needed. If that had happened, everyone would have easily moved on with their day. But, noooo!
Thus today, I witness the power of the Divine Flame 🔥 to burn away what isn’t necessary in my life and clear another path forward. We’re off to see the wizard, as the song says! ❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🔥🙏☯️
Themes that runs through my life
- CB Radio
- Voice (Human Design speaks to this too, i.e. Throat – useful in getting attention)
- Ego / Not being heard/acknowledged. My Spirit knows it doesn’t really matter. And that what does matter is ALIGNMENT
- Healing: colitis/asthma all seeking peace from stress, hostility, fear, self preservation because I felt suffocated
- Loved church (learning about God)
- Loved chiropractic and how good it made my body feel, breathe easier
- Loved to play not fight – why did others break my toys?
- Loved the little old family cemetery—though little scary that was behind our neighbors house
- Loved horses, cats, dogs
- Loved driving, riding motorbikes
- Deep thinker from talking more with adults than children when I was growing up
- Loved to go down the street (escape home)*
- Loved to play on the tracks / golf course, both opposite ends of my street*
*Wrote about this in First Friends
My Mission is unfolding
I’m noticing that a person’s mission can be different throughout life. I desire my mission to fulfill my purpose.
Perhaps by doing all of the following:
- Writing books
- Creating courses
- Public speaking
- Emceeing events
What’s a crazy thing I could do?
Put on a huge event showcasing ENERGY (Resonance Academy types, solar and off grid types, original music / songwriters, hand crafting artisans, storytellers, alchemists, holistic wellness practitioners, yogis, etc.)
What’s in my way?
What actions am I not taking?
What are my excuses?
What’s the real reason, belief that is holding me back?
Fear of Failure Fear of Success (I’ll have to quit my job, and my struggle is hugely tied to my education and career)
Fear of being told to “just get over yourself” (which I’ve already heard twice since starting to share my unapologetic truths), so guess I should just go BIG
Fear I don’t have a thick enough skin (because I’m so raw, empath)
Too old and not have enough energy
Fear of uncontrolled outcomes (like shock of spider, snake appearing on me)I can’t handle it (At the bottom of every fear)
Fear of upsetting those I love or who love me
What are the turnarounds?
Now, to TURN those around.
I have been successful in life.
I have failed, been scared, and risen from the ashes!
I have survived much worse than somebody’s judgement
I am continually growing my skin and participate in Empath Evolution and Women’s Soul Journey.
I’m wise and age is just a number. Look at all those older than me doing amazing things!
I don’t have to know how to handle every shocking event! Yet, I can handle it.
I will manage it (step by step).
We’re meant to do hard things.
Being unapologetic is freeing.
Who DO I think I am?
Look at what your ancestors struggled through to bring YOU into the world!! I acknowledge my ancestors DAILY
Don’t keep writing your future from your past. Write about the feelings of it, and then the details.
Lesson to grandchildren: I am
Let go of limiting beliefs Know power, strengths, Fears.
Who implanted these fears in me?
Stop fixing it – pop the DOING “bubbles“
Don’t sweat the small stuff
You and I are worthy
What’s bugging me?
Do something about it
Hang out with positive people!
Hang out with children
Hang out with older people
Ask them what they think, and listen! ❤️🦋🌀😘
What’s my vision?
The vision of my future that fits in a picture frame.
Before accepting new commitments, look at my board and see if new opportunities align!!! Big one!! Especially after yesterday 6/14/21
What are my business commitments?
- JOB (M-F 8am-4pm eastern)
- Integrated Spiral: self-coaching program
- Murrey Creations: Marketing our original music
- Primal Life Organics product tester reviewer
What are my personal commitments?
- Video chats with granddaughters
- Matt & Rachael, Aaron & Abby
- Calls to family and friends
- Community- soup kitchen / garden
What are my Spiritual commitments?
To continue learning from and conversing with: Omniscience, Richard, Jennifer, Resonance Academy, Dr Joe Dispenza, Mindvalley, Abraham-Hicks, Neale Donald Walsch, Stephen Simon, Jerry, Alania, Patricia, Beverly, Doris, Amber, Michelle, Heatherhoney, Shelley, Patti, Elasa, Omaji, Queen-Kimmie, Sharon, Joanne, Jade, Alana, Guvinder, and more!
Hey, if you’d LOVE to talk about this, let’s open a popup room in my club on CLUBHOUSE!
Link to the CLUBHOUSE club:
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, both available on Amazon.
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.
After 13 years of research and work, my health book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available at: https://read.barnesandnoble.com/book/take-it-upon-yourself-to-live-a-wholly-vibrant-life/
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