Future humans take note: 5 critical things to watch

The Holy Bible says “Fear not” or some equivalent of that idea between 300-365 times, depending on the translation. And as well, “I am with you.” So, I give you this, not out of fear, but out of acknowledgment that I consider us ALL brothers and sisters. And I desire that you rise above the “programming” should you so choose, study and research the following. For there are those in power who attempt to control us, and I want you to take note of some important indicators to watch and increase your awareness, and perhaps even, prepare.

Fear Not.
Fear Not.

It may be a good time to know a “prepper.” I know you’ve made fun of your prepper friends before, but even if you don’t want to prep, it may be wise and it may ease any fear you already have, to make a plan.

We all know knowledge brings Power and great power comes great responsibility. The 1% know a lot they’re not going to share. I’m not in the 1%, but I read a lot, watch movies, and analyze.

Thus, here are the 5 things I think are of great importance for you to watch for (stay Aware of) in the coming weeks, months, and years–if it all lasts that long, not to be all doom and gloom, but it all hinges on Movement/Staying Put and Money/Resources.

  • You can’t control the prices of commodities or their availability: water, gas/fuel, perishables, and it should go without saying but I’ll add it anyway for those so “programmed,” paper products such as toilet paper. Rising fuel costs may hamper travel and shipment of goods.
  • You can’t work at certain companies (yes, already) without having the certain vaccine (I’m sure I don’t have to name them). Look at the job listings, many companies say you must comply with their vaccine policy. Keep watch on what social programs (aka food stamps, social security checks, and more) get tied to a vaccine policy. This may limit your income.
  • Watch what’s going on with Money. Do you notice what the large financial institutions and insurance companies are doing? Will they cover (pay or reimburse you) for your loved ones funeral expenses? Will your family receive your life insurance if you die of something they deem you could have prevented by taking a vaccine? What’s the deal with crypto currencies? Why is the US dollar losing its value? (Internet search “US dollar losing value”, “Central banks”, and Forex). You can’t borrow money on credit, buy a house, or even get a bank account without a good credit score and that’s been a topic (who controls the major credit bureaus) that I’ve been talking about with friends and family for YEARS. Watch what the credit bureaus are doing.
  • You can’t do whatever you want on your own land. We all know about imminent domain, property taxes, Home Owner Association and deed restrictions, and city/county ordinances. Just because you buy something, doesn’t mean you actually “own” it and can do whatever you like. You can’t just dig anywhere to bury a 55 gallon drum or bury a body. Even if you don’t add public utilities to your land, you must pay taxes and adhere to various ordinances.
  • In regard to Movement, (and circling back to fuel prices) one is now becoming very limited on where they can go. What countries are allowing you in or out? Where can you enter without some kind of documentation? Some friends have told us they couldn’t enter a restaurant in a city without showing some sort of medical “proof.” Another friend can’t sell their house because they can’t buy another with skyrocketing housing prices (in Florida USA). I say, stay put in the home you’ve been paying for all these years and never got to spend as much time in, as you were always leaving it to “go to work.” But some feel they need to travel. Then the question becomes, what price will you pay to travel, even up to and including sacrificing yourSelf to an injection? I said not to the Zika virus vaccine when I had the opportunity to hike through the jungle in Mexico a few years back to see a particular ruin that was important to me. Everyone has to draw the line somewhere for themselves.

Obviously, if you’ve reached my blog site, you know above all else I teach (and preach) personal responsibility and choice. So, if you are able (not hospitalized or otherwise institutionalized) you have the supreme choice over what is and is NOT injected into your body. I didn’t add injections to the list because of all the debate that exists on that topic. But it stands to reason that the only real control you have over anything is what you allow to be put into your body.

You are the only one who can control how you feel, and when you take back that power, then you become FREE! --Nathan Crane
You are the only one who can control how you feel, and when you take back that power, then you become FREE! –Nathan Crane

I know it can seem fairly bleak. I didn’t intend to go too far down the rabbit hole. But I wanted to put something out to offer the flip side of all the programming that’s been going on. I’m just one educated person who pays attention. And if I can see through the narrative, maybe you can too.

Good luck. (And that’s when preparation meets opportunity, you know that, right?)

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer. ❤️🦋🌀〰️🔥🙏☯️

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, natural health foods store, art fair, music or yoga festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. I’m an Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. Visit my author’s page here. 

Plus, I documented how I naturally reversed 30+ years of chronic asthma in my holistic health book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, that’s available on Barnes and Noble: here

Be the best version of who you want to be. As it really does affect us ALL. We Are All Connected.

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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If you want to feel good, don’t read this!

If you want to feel good, don’t read this!

Well, sort of. I mean, I can do click bait too, right?

Here’s some feeling good Aha moments that came to me after performing in a “Breakthrough” transformational performance program a few years ago:

  • Don’t ever believe it when someone tells you to “get off your high horse”!
  • I CAN “get on my high horse”!! Ha!!
  • I don’t have to lose my “humble and giving” nature to be all I can be!
  • I know what is good for me!
  • I am worthy!
  • I am loved!
  • I don’t have to hide the real me from anyone.
  • I learned a quick standing method to clear my chakras and I use it every day! Thanks Tess!
  • I still love and take care of my family and friends. I do not have to put “others first.”
  • I am never to old to have fun!
  • I don’t have to have a perfect body to be a singer/performer (Adele, Oprah, Chaka Kahn, several others were curvy ladies, yet still did what they love!)
  • I love the song we all sang together called, “Free to be me” which later in the year, during my Sedona trip, our group of 15 ladies sang!!! 

Karma

Watching karma happen to people who betrayed or hurt you.

Sometimes that feels good huh?

Karma. What comes around, goes around.

Watching someone get what’s coming to them, somehow justifies the truth you felt about them when they were acting (for a day, week, month, or year) like an a$$h0le. Yes? No? Haha!

Well, hear this.

As you justify yourself about that person or specific situation, you are MISSING something right NOW! A moment of relaxation. The pleasant blow of the warm breeze that’s just the perfect temperature for you. A person walking by whom you could have spoken to (that you will never have that unique opportunity again). A kiss from your loved one (who will not always be there).

So, be aware.

Aware more and more.

Awake and aware to all kinds of pleasing potentiality in your moments. The moments that life shows you, presents to you, all kinds of opportunities to be happy, or opportunities to be pissed off.It is YOUR choice, which way you want to feel. Every. Single. Day.

Know that each person or situation to appears to cause you pain or conflict, is in your experience to teach you something. When you analytically search for the source of pain in your body you will not find any independent inherent existance of it. Difficulties are a dillusion. Pain is not solid or real. It is like a mirage in the desert.

A benefit of knowing that We Are All Connected (really see the interrelatedness of all) is that we can release our mind of anger.

Here are some example scenarios:

Karma #1

A certain particular person I knew years ago, lost her job. When a friend told me, I felt ecstatic! Why?

I usually don’t feel good about another’s misfortune. I went back through my notes and found the reason. This person had been a stumbling block in my career–but, there’s no point in digging back into the details or the Energy of it now.

Thankfully, my career rebounded, and as readers of my book know, I took it upon myself to get well by natural means–and since 2005, have been able to travel as much as I want. Ha!

Karma #2

A guy that dumped me years ago, (after a relatively short relationship) told a friend of mine, that his wife is crazy. (I don’t know why my friend felt the need to share this with me, but I’m using it as an example.) This “man” is upset because his wife doesn’t want to have children and apparently, he married her in order to HAVE children. Oh my! People DO change their minds, after all. Things like this happen all the time.

So, did he have a relationship with me (years ago) because he couldn’t be with my friend back then? Or, is he feeding my friend a “line” to lure her into an affair? Perhaps, he’s simply an a$$h0le?

What comes around, goes around.

I realize it sounds like I’m jealous. But, I’m not. (I am so NOT a jealous person.) Yet, I feel sad for my friend and hope she sees through this guy– Then again, it’s HER life!! And NONE of this is any of MY business anyway.

In fact, everything I lived in the past has brought me to the place that I’m at NOW, with so much awareness, and appreciation, and awe that ALL has turned out the way it has. And that my life, now, is GRAND! In fact, from my vantage point today, I’d say that I am living my BEST LIFE!

I am the evidence of my well being.

When I feel great, resonating with and IN all that the Universe is providing, in that moment, it’s AMAZING! However, some others shrink back from it. Why? Why must some shrink to feel comfortable around others? Or why must others need to feel important to make others feel less? It’s an interesting conundrum, but one that I believe is answered in the yin and yang of it ALL.

Do you “get” why things are changing?

Think about the 1960s.

I am a child of the sixties. Born in the very early sixties, I remember watching president John F. Kennedy’s funeral procession (probably from the many replays).

The first transatlantic satellite transmission occured during the year I was born, so is it any wonder I believe We Are All Connected?

I remember the hellish Vietnam war and how many people seemed to snub their noses toward the courageous troops when they returned home to the U.S.A.

I grew up as an only child during a time when television was young and exciting, and could often be used as a co-parenting device. Big stereos, stuffed toy transistor radios, and Citizen Band (CB) radios were fairly common and certainly found in our household–as I’ve written about before, my dad ran an electronics business on the side for many years.

Dad could “talk skip” with people across the ocean on a clear late night. And that would always fascinate me. I would fall asleep listening to the ping from his Browning Golden Eagle and Linear and the jokes of Johnny Carson.

I would dream of where electricity came from! I would follow the wires as we drove somewhere and then ask my mom (who was dumbfounded) that her 6 year old would ask such thought provoking questions! Then again, she knew I was smart.

It’s really very simple, people in pain cause other people pain. You can only then resolve to suffer with your pain or resolve to do whatever it takes to relieve your pain. Setting boundaries work for me, and believe me, I’m much better at setting boundaries, now.

Many blessings to you in ALL ways. ❤️🦋🌀〰️

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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Never alone. ALLways Connected.

Never alone

You are never alone. We are ALLways Connected.

Everyday life causes certain connections to occur.

Listen to this beautiful song by my friends Shelley Morningsong and Fabian Fontenelle.

We are always (ALLways) Connected. Yes, in ALL ways. Nothing is ever lost. Everything and everyone is interdependent and interrelated though we do not have keen enough senses to know it.

ALLWAYS Connected.

Intersecting points

The neighbor who may or may not smile at me and say “good morning” while I am walking my dog first thing, before I’ve gotten ready for work, or maybe before I’ve even had my shower (if it’s on the weekend).

The office clerk I may run into when I go to check our mail.

The woman in a mad rush in traffic that cut me off and nearly caused an accident.

The store cashier who takes, or accepts graciously, the money for purchases.

The bag boy or girl who usually offers to help me out to the car with my purchases.

The customer service agent who handled my issue perfectly or perhaps, being new on the job got her so stressed out that she couldn’t think clearly to remember how to resolve the issue, leaving me on hold for what seemed like an eternity.

The restaurant service worker who makes a living serving food to others.

The farmer who is under an immense responsibility to feed millions.

The entrepreneur who works tirelessly to bring about the next big thing into our lives.

The masterful health practitioner who cares more about helping, encouraging, and educating people on how to get and stay well, versus pushing pharmaceuticals.

The television or movie producer who spent countless sleepless nights worrying if anyone would watch their show, only for it to impact millions in an emotional and positive way.

The songwriter (like my husband) who longs for the world to hear the heart and care put into their words and music.

The soldier (police, firefighter, teacher, or other public servant) who does the right thing to keep us safe, even if it means questioning authority.

Take a step outside

Step a foot outside and see.

Everything can change in an instant.

We are all connected in so many direct and subtle ways. How can anyone deny it?

See my previous post.

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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Expanding Consciousness

Expanding Consciousness

What kinds of things do you do to challenge or stretch your consciousness?

I guess Consciousness, as a topic, interests me because of my mother’s demise from Alzheimer’s dis-ease. Because I am forward thinking. And I am so into the whole mind-body-spirit thing–Holistic Health–as well as, coming to understand the “Interconnection of ALL.”

Expanding Consciousness
Expanding Consciousness

Intriguing ideas

Shirley MacLaine has said she believes the reason why we’re here (in this life) is curiosity. And I feel there are myriad topics we can be curious about, only one of which is Consciousness.

Science has yet to provide us much solid evidence on where our consciousness resides. Much research is ongoing about that. And it intrigues me.

Many fictional TV and film creations, such as Fringe the X-Men movies, brought noetic concepts into mainstream awareness.

Noetic Science

Since the 1970s, the term, “noetics” (“how beliefs, thoughts, and intentions affect the physical world”), has been used by several authors. The books Deep Spirit: Cracking the Noetic Code (2008) by Christian de Quincey and The Lost Symbol (2009) by Dan Brown, reveal a plethora of interesting information on the topics of consciousness and spirituality. Visit the Institute of Noetic Sciences, for more.

When I learned about the noetic sciences and began attending IONS group meetings, that led me to discover the Pachamama Alliance (to be discussed in another post).

Now, such terms as, conscious businesses and socially responsible corporations are becoming well known.

Seat of Consciousness

I’ve heard that Consciousness, more than simply being in our mind or brain, is actually a grand field of interconnected waves that we plug into, as we would turn on a TV to watch a transmitted program. Perhaps the great masters knew of this.

I’ve studied a series of books called, Life and teachings of the masters of the Far East by Baird T. Spalding, which expands upon the belief in the Christ Consciousness and the Buddha Consciousness. Yet, my favorite book that continues to expand my consciousness with every reading is Christ in You, by Anonymous.

About making changes

It has been said that nobody will change anything in their life until the perceived fear of the unknown is less than the pain of remaining the same.

Tony Robbins has talked about how people will violate their own values in order to meet one or more of their perceived needs.

I find moral ambiguities intriguing. I find the shadows we create (as we block the light), interesting.

Conscious change

I read a lot about how in order to actually make changes of habits that actually stick, one must make conscious changes in day-to-day routines.

This means one must consciously choose to drop one task / habit in exchange for another. Willingly. With focus. And we have to be operating in or near the vibration/frequency range (resonance) before we can begin to understand anything new too. 😉

Because I focus on incorporating new ideas, tactics, and tips into my life, I read (or listen to many of the following advanced teachers):

  • Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith
  • Gregg Braden
  • Chris Cade
  • Dr. Joe Dispenza
  • Tim Ferriss
  • MIT biochemist, Raymond Francis
  • Nassim Haramein
  • Dr. Bruce Lipton
  • Dan McDonald, “The Life Regenerator”
  • Lama Nicholas Packard
  • Dr. Linus Pauling – Nobel Prize Winner
  • Joseph Pilates
  • Sadhguru
  • Dr. Albert Schweitzer
  • Alania Starhawk
  • Eckhart Tolle
  • Neale Donald Walsch

Further reading

It never ends. And we never want it to end. The universe continues to expand.

Here are more books to check out on the subject of expanding consciousness:
Wayne Dyer recommended, Psych Cybernetics by Dr Maltz. (It is about belief too.)
Books by Bruce Moen:

https://www.amazon.com/s?k=books+bruce+moen&ref=is_s

Global Shift and Conscious Evolution
Global Shift and Conscious Evolution
Supernormal and The Way of the Explorer
Supernormal and The Way of the Explorer
Consciousness & Healing and The Conscious Activist
Consciousness & Healing and The Conscious Activist
Global Mind Change and Entangled Minds
Global Mind Change and Entangled Minds
The Living Universe and Living Deeply
The Living Universe and Living Deeply
The Global Brain Awakens and The Conscious Universe
The Global Brain Awakens and The Conscious Universe

Happy expanding!

Books on healing with Ayurveda

Thank Omniscience ALLways. OM

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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Who Am I?

Who Am I?

I AM my ancestors (who continue to live in my DNA and blood), and Everything I’ve experienced up to this point since the moment of my physical birth–and perhaps from Beyond it too!

Who Am I?
Who Am I?

My physical body consists of “star stuff”: dirt and water, the elements of the earth and stars. I breathe, because our Creator Source once breathed a soul essence into a human being. No human has ever created another living breathing life from nothing. We make babies from a male and a female human BE-ing. Our breath originated somewhere. WE human BE-ings can only share breath. Our essence came from some ONE. That is logic.

Let me present some definitions to you, as you may need some context around this article before you can really “get it.”

  • Ancestors – anyone who shares my DNA and/or blood. I see this as a line, past, present, and future. What I experience today (in the Now), ah yes, is driven, or built upon, the foundation that all my previous living relations have experienced. This line allows me to affect change in the lives of those I am currently related to, as well as who will come down in the future–my legacy).
  • Blood – the viscous liquid coursing through my veins. It is a well established fact, and proven by my mother, that when a mother and father’s blood is incompatible a baby cannot naturally come forth from them. Yes, of course today it is known that with medical intervention a baby can be saved–but at times, there are still complications from the blood mismatch).
  • DNA – The biological, scientific explanation of the genetic carrier of information (deoxyribonucleic acid) that exists inside of each of us–not seen by the naked eye–which allows each of us to self-replicate. This substance is claimed to exist in “nearly all living organisms as the main constituent of chromosomes.”
  • Aware / Awake person – One who has an open mind to acknowledge that there’s a lot more information around us than what our established five senses interprets on a daily basis.
  • Everything – All of one’s vibrations, energy, thoughts, ways of interpreting, and actions.

Why does it matter?

If I know who I am, then it gives me many clues as to why I’m here, and my purpose for living. Also, I feel it matters to my family, both past, present, and future.

Why now?

To ease feelings associated with loneliness and loss, both for myself and others. And my hope is that the more we research and discuss our Connections, the better we can use our experiences to heal ourselves, and loved ones.

Background

I’ve been interested in my genealogy for many years, and in particular my Native American roots since I love and am drawn to so many things said, and made by Native Americans. However, after my mom passed away (transitioned to the other side), I began experiencing stupefying co-incidences. Actually, I began experiencing incredible synchronicities even before, mama crossed over. And as an “aware” person, I began noting these occurrences and writing them down.

Before my mom passed, but after dad had called me to tell me she wasn’t doing so well, I had decided that I needed to find a piece of jewelry mom had given me years ago. In looking for the item though, I didn’t find it. Instead, I found a beautiful old watch of hers and a pocket watch, which I think had belonged to my grandfather (though I’m not sure).

It’s time

I placed both items on our coffee table and felt better having these pieces near me. Call it a vibration thing, I don’t know. But I felt a bit better.

It was only a day or two until I got the call from dad that mom was unresponsive. My mind still wasn’t sure that meant she had passed though, so I’d reached out to my nurse friend to ask. I had kept busy for several hours that morning, pacing, and waiting on a confirmation from dad. I knew I wanted to get to where they were and be with dad–it was a “pull” that I’d not quite felt before. While preparing for the multi-state drive, at some point the thought came to me, “It was my time.” And bingo. That’s when it hit me. The synchronicity of the items I’d found was mom’s spirit telling me that it was her time to go, and for me to be okay with it–since she’d confirmed it by having me find not just one, but two, TIME PIECES!

She used to tell me as a teen that I was thick headed. So, I laughed out loud because I knew this was her way of reminding me of that also! That if I didn’t “get it” from finding her watch, then she’d make SURE that I understood that it was her time by having me find that second time piece! Aha! Mom was with me. I had even told someone a week or so prior that mom’s dementia sort of had her “one foot in this world, and one in the other.”

Going home

When my husband and I arrived in West Virginia, my dad was outside of the local hotel to greet us! No time was wasted! And as the Universe would have it, as we walked into the lobby of the hotel and conference center, a lone man was sitting there softly playing his guitar and singing. The song? One of mom and dad’s favorites, “Unchained Melody.” There was also, at this same time, a taxidermist convention going on–and my paternal grandfather was a taxidermist! It caused me to ponder, is mama (in the Great Beyond) hanging out with my grandparents? What a comforting and cool thought.

We spent several days with dad, but then it was time to go home. Before we could get out of the state however, my uncle would not take no for an answer that we needed to come to his home because he had something of mom’s for me. My aunt even got on the phone to tell me there was a mink coat amongst the things mom had put in their cedar closet. I couldn’t imagine my mother having a mink coat, so yes, the curiosity got the best of me and I did one of the purely selfish things I’ve ever done. I decided we’d drive a 3 to 4 hours out of our way, and go see my aunt and uncle and pick up whatever mom had packed away. My uncle also surprised us by calling my cousins and had them come to the house to visit us–something I’d never imagined would happen, but oh, how joyous that reunion was!

Finding mom’s wedding suit, and many special coats that I remembered mom wearing, along with other clothing she’d put aside, was all so very comforting for me. And as I spent weeks looking at old photos and seeing mama wearing these clothes, totally made me feel as though she was guiding my efforts. I poured through many photos in order to put together mom’s eulogy and photo slideshow.

Afterward

In the weeks that followed, we would all discuss what kind of service to have for mom. My dad, so overcome with grief, would call me almost daily, and often I could hear the shakiness of his voice on the other end of the line. I tried my best to reassure him that he had more to live for, a purpose yet to fulfill.

Eventually, we’d agreed to honor my mama by having my uncle, mom’s brother, facilitate a memorial service for mom. I wasn’t going to go, but when I learned that my dad’s sister (who lives in California) would be there for her reunion during the same week, and wanted to also attend mom’s service, I began looking for a flight up. Initially, the airline I normally use, didn’t have any direct flights in. I tried to console myself that I’d just have to miss the service. But, out of the blue, the thought came to check ALL airlines, and I was able then, quite easily actually, to book a flight up with one airline into one city, and the return flight home with another airline out of a neighboring state–in the same town as one of my cousins also, whom I’d always wanted to visit with at her home!

More synchroncities

As if, the audacity of the synchronicity of finding two of mom’s time pieces wasn’t enough, don’t you know that when I got to West Virginia for mom’s memorial service, my dad presented me with another time piece of mom’s, her favorite, “footprints in the sand” wrist watch!

Also, what really knocked my socks off, was that as soon as dad and I arrived at my uncle and aunt’s home for the service, I saw my uncle and he was wearing an indigo blue long sleeved dress shirt! If you haven’t read one of my previous posts called, “That Tiny Blue Dot” then you won’t understand the significance of this synchronicity, but the importance of it was not lost on me!

As well, the tables set up to be used for mom’s memorial service all had indigo blue plastic table cloths on them! I couldn’t have been more wrapped in love during that day, knowing mom was with me.

Nature chimes in

At  one point during the service an eagle or hawk flew directly over head! And after the service, I learned that the beautiful blooming tree (that can be seen in the videos I took of the service) is a crepe myrtle, and more than that, it had been brought back by my grandparents after a trip they’d taken years ago to Florida! I’d never known them to take a vacation in their lives, especially not all the way to Florida! I was astounded!

After the service, dad and I checked into the hotel. Quite purposely I had booked us a room at the same hotel where my dad’s sister was staying so we could visit more with her.

As it turned out though, it seemed mom had a hand in this from the other side, as while dad and I walked into the hotel restaurant area, he is looking around and tells me that he hasn’t been there in years—since he had picked up mom and one of her friends when they had imbibed and didn’t want to drive home! I was stunned! I had heard mom say she used to sell Avon at one of the hotel restaurant lounges during a particular span of time (when I had moved away and was busy raising my kids), but I had never gone there with her, and all these years later the hotel’s name had changed. Turns out we were right where we needed to be, as the friend dad mentioned, joined us for a cocktail and a beautiful conversation later that evening after my aunt left to attend a reunion function.

The morning after we’d returned home, I had awoken with a song in my head. It was an old song. Gilbert O’Sullivan’s, “Alone Again” would play over and over in my mind, and with it came the feeling that mom was giving it to me, to help me cry and release the grief.

I continue to notice and enjoy the many synchronicites that mom’s provides me. Most recently, it was meeting an artist friend who paints using a lot of indigo blue, that she herself had not realized she was using!

Writing it down

Historically, the church I was raised in kept intricately detailed genealogical records. They are publicly known for this. Because of this, and since it was always the church’s practice to offer their members something called a patriarchal blessing, mom had learned that she was from the tribe of Manasseh.

I also know, but as of yet have been unable to prove, that my mother, and her mother, carried the blood of their Native American (Cherokee) relatives. Since the Native American lineage is traced via the mother, and recorded on tribal rolls, I’ve bought many books on the Cherokee tribes and have found my grandmother’s maiden last name, but not her mother’s maiden last name. So many of the tribal rolls don’t even show a first name, or only first initials, making proving my Indian heritage nearly impossible. Please reach out to me if you have any suggestions. My great grandmother’s name was Hannah McGill Calhoun of West Virginia and her mother’s name was Louisa McDonald McGill.

Since I’d give anything to find some handwritten family history by my ancestors, I began writing, and later, blogging, so my granddaughters will have something to be able to know and understand a bit about their grandmother–me.

The importance of learning and continued growth

You know, while writing my mother’s eulogy these words came to me, “I could burn a lot of people.”But I felt, based upon everything I’ve learned and accepted up to this point in my life, that it would be better to honor mom’s memory, life, and who she raised me to be, by choosing instead to elevate, and take the high road so to speak, because I am not angry anymore. I’m not.
For three weeks I poured through pictures of mom and my relatives. I cried. I got angry. But, I employed tools and tactics that I’ve learned over the last 10 years or so, to press on, release, and let go. By the end of the time I spent preparing my loving mother’s eulogy, I got to the point where I could just say, “Thank You.” Not just to my mother, but to many relatives and friends who, over the years, came and went, and taught us all many lessons.
I thank each of the people who have touched my life, for good or bad, for my personal growth. I believe the word “lessons” and the word “blessings” have a lot in common. And that either by the sins of commission or the sins of omission each of us can learn, if we are open to learning. Oh, we could bury ourselves in the dirt of these so called sins. But I make a conscious choice to learn from what’s happened to me. And now, I believe after we cross over in the ALL, that we then are able to see all of the intricate Connections, and come to know of the Why things had to happen in every circumstance, the way that they did.  All learning produces strength of character and more importantly, strength of spirit.
Do I still get mad sometimes? Yes.
Do I want to get revenge? Yes.
Would it change anything? No.
So, this is why I practice self-help, self-care, prayer, meditation, and other mind-body-spirit modalities. And slowly, I let go of the anger–and I get another side benefit from all of this work too, the resentments vanish.
You know, it’s ironic that mom’s remains are in her old bedroom of the house she was born in.
The place she would attempt to come back to once, and my grandmother (according to what mom told me) said, “You are welcome, but not with Sheila.” Either because she said this, or my mother interpreted her words to mean that because I was a part of my father, my grandmother did not want me to live in her house. My grandmother (at least at that time) did not like my dad, and I guess, that was the reason for her answer to my mother’s request.
These are the kinds of things I can’t seem to forget.
I believe the reason some memories nag us, is not to heap guilt (which is just another kind of thought) on us, but to remind us that we’ve missed a legacy lesson.
Mom always taught me to turn a thought about a problem, “over and over in my head” until a solution presented itself. Well, I sat with this for some time until a new thought came to me, “Let go of my hurt feelings, angst, even anger towards my granddaughter’s father. As I mentally released him from the prison I’d constructed in my mind for him, I’d break the spell (so to speak) of my grandmother’s words about me! Thus freeing my grandmother, my mom, myself, my daughter, my granddaughter, and so on! This is one small, or huge, example of the lesson I needed to learn. Perhaps I could apply it similarly in other situations?
Have I made mistakes too? You betcha.
Once, I talked with mom and dad about somehow helping them to buy them a new double-wide or other kind of trailer on their property, and they said, “No.” I replied something to the effect of, “Then, you can stay here in this place and let it fall down around you.” Ugh! My words came out the way that they did based upon the helpless feelings I felt at the time. I almost found it hard to live comfortably wherever I was living at the time, while watching my parents live in what I deemed was substandard housing. Plus, I had felt so much sadness that I couldn’t somehow free my mother from the trappings of her then painful life. But I realized later, there was nothing for me to feel guilt about since I did offer, and my offer was met with much resistance. Because I haven’t worked on freeing myself of these particular thoughts (resistance), you guessed it, my son is now going through this very same “clean up the property” experience with my dad.
You see? We each have a choice. We can accept offers of love and help, or we can choose to turn our backs and do it all ourselves.
Of course, now my mother is free. Free at last. And me? I will continue to seek solace in God and every living creature. Not in ashes. Not in trying to change the past.
While visiting Marie and my beautiful granddaughters over July 4th week, I said that perhaps mom’s strong faith, returned to her as her dementia progressed. She lived in utter gratitude daily for papa caring for her and any and all things my son, Matt, and his then wife, did for her. Total gratitude.
I believe the gratitude my mother displayed taught me to place great importance upon healing (with love and conscious awareness) those who carry her blood. All of her love beats within my spiritually open heart.
I Am Free.
Blessed be. OM

Check out this original song, Forever. It’s one of my favorites as my love will go on for my husband and my family forever. It was lovingly written by my husband and performed and recorded in a Nashville, TN studio. You can download it (it’s Track 11) from this link: https://store.cdbaby.com/cd/chevyfordband

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