While watching (well, more listening) and contemplating the very recent sad, senseless, and tragic murder of my cousin, I tuned into this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PUscmv4YqMU
In the video it is suggested to see if we can observe where a thought begins and ends, and the space before and after the thought–where it begins and ends.
Thus, I have been observing the thoughts and messages coming INTO me:
Contemplating a recent tragic event (jumble of thoughts)
Sitting here, as I breathe and focus on my breath, I notice
I can forgive
So, it’s a Choice if I don’t (forgive)
I can cry
That too, is a Choice
Ugh, there’s a gnat
This gnat is bothersome
I can swat the gnat away
I can let it go on its way (it may not stay in my face for long anyway)
I can Choose to do nothing
I can accept the thoughts that come and go
I can accept the Energy that moves through me, stimulated (or caused) by my thoughts
Accepting that Energy is what causes my emotions (Energy in motion)
I Choose better feelings thoughts
I welcome better feelings thoughts
More than just “looking for the silver linings”
I can find the lessons in the experience
By observing the lessons learned, I feel some Gratitude
I can simply take one step at a time
I will be gentle with myself
By being gentle with myself, I can be gentle and kind to others
I don’t have to use the “bad” or negative experience (no matter how tragic it is) as justification for treating anyone else negatively (huge Aha for me!)
I can let the gnat live
I no longer see the gnat
I am grateful
Found the gnat later
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This is the way I’ll remember my cousin, Josh Wilson. This was to be the last time I saw Josh (August 2017) when I’d went home for a Memorial service for my mom.
Josh outside of our uncles home (that our grandparents built)
I love this picture of my kids (from way back) with our cousin, Josh Wilson:
My son, Matt is on the left, my daughter in the middle, and Josh on the right. Oh, the sweetness of childhood innocence!
Before I left town, the last evening of my visit of August 2017, Josh came up to his brother’s house and Staci snapped a picture:
Greg on the left, his brother Josh in the middle, and me on the right – Aug 2017 at Greg and Susan’s house
Our mothers were sisters. Greg was 6 months younger than me and Josh was 6 weeks younger than my son.
Mom always told me that the day her sister called her to tell her she was pregnant (for Josh) was one of the most shocking phone calls she’d ever received!
You see, I’d just told my mom that I was pregnant (again–for my son), and mom couldn’t believe she was going to be a grandmother again AND an aunt again, all within a matter of a few weeks! (Her sister was over 40 at the time and Josh was to be her 5th child.)
My aunt Alberdia with newborn Josh – July 1982Before we moved to Florida: Alberdia is holding Joshua and my son is crawling, my daughter smiling.June 1983 – Alberdia holding Joshua and my son is going to stand, my daughter smiling.
My aunt Alberdia and my uncle Bob loved being parents again.
In many ways, uncle Bob was a better dad to Josh, even than he’d been to Greg (purely my observation). Children are all different, so it’s hard to say why, and also, as a parent myself I know we grow and change and desire to “do things differently” as time goes on. (I certainly feel I’m a better grandmother than I was a mother–of course, they don’t live with me!)
In those early days, we visited often. We all lived about 20 miles apart, but when we could, we would go to church together and share a meal at Alberdia and Bob’s home after church.
Dad always had a soft spot in his heart for Josh since my dad was close to Josh’s dad, my uncle Bob. And uncle Bob died when Josh was only 7 years of age.
My dad used to take my son and Josh hunting and camping when the boys were young (many times), where my dad grew up near Sutton WV.
I don’t have any pictures from those hunting trips, but I’d say it was probably when Josh was about 7 until his was a teenager. (I’d be guessing at that though.)
Since I moved to Florida when I was 22, my children and Josh only got to see each other when we would go back to WV on vacation (typically centered around weddings, funerals, or in later years, my high school reunions).
Here’s a picture of Josh at his one of his sisters’ wedding shortly after their dad’s passing:
Joshua as ring bearer for his sister’s wedding
My ex-husband and I had driven us from Florida to WV (with my children) to attend the wedding and like most things, my ex spoiled most of the event for me. Ugh! So, I don’t have many pictures from that trip and what I do have are pictures of Josh’s sister and her husband (as one might also expect from a wedding).
Not every trip home allowed us all to see each other either, because of work schedules, and the like (which suck) and people really need to consider—take a day off work or school etc. when you have family in town!
Josh with his nephew
Another trip back home, I got to see Josh for about a minute and meet his new nephew (from the sister whom we’d attended her wedding years before). I was thrilled to meet him and to see the love Josh had for him.
I am also thankful that on one of my later trips back home, my husband of nearly 20 years, Richard, got to meet my aunt Alberdia and Josh. We sat and listened as Josh told us all of the hometown news that had been going on, new companies, additions onto the college that was near to my aunts house, and so forth. He was very industrious and had been in landscaping with his brother-in-law for years. Josh loved being outdoors!
As often happens in life, we had drifted apart… though the love remained. We chatted after Greg’s passing and at one point he had considered moving to Florida. I had always thought he’d become a shaman. He really had a gift with people!
Thus, I never thought I’d be writing this or posting a memorial for Josh, especially a few months after writing one for Greg!!! (Link to my post about Greg.)
It isn’t right!!!
I know Life isn’t fair, but no one deserves to be chased and gunned down while driving away in your car!!!
As I wrote a few days ago, the way in which my cousin was murdered has had me upset and going through the stages of grief for days (even believing as I do and practicing what I preach).
It’s hard to make sense of something so senseless!!!
Every time we learn more of the story, my emotions spin again. Ugh!
All I can do is think about the good times and send love and support to our family.
Tragedy has a way of finding us no matter who we are, how enlightened we are, or where we are. I have put myself in dire straits in years past and experienced close calls (like when my ex-husband fired a gun in my direction)! I understand “wrong place, wrong time.” I understand “mistaken identity.” I know we may never know every nuance surrounding Josh’s murder.
I get sad. I cry. I get mad and angry. I am thankful a suspect was quickly apprehended. But mostly I am bewildered. I will probably always have more questions than answers because only Omniscience God can see ALL perspectives and intentions of the players in this cruel tragedy.
If I can raise my consciousness to see the scene from a higher place, I believe there’s a reason… but at this time, I am a limited human being unable to muster my highest and best. But I will remain open to receive. I am open to accept prayers, healing, love, and peace—even in the midst of the confounding mystery. Life is mysterious–even unfathomable at times (like during this emotionally disturbing time), yet worth living.
It could go without saying, but since someone might be wondering… I refuse to get caught up in the “hate” aspect of this or in the gun debate. People who lose their senses do hateful things. And at the extreme end of that spectrum they hurt people. As the saying goes, “Hurt people, hurt people.” One day I hope to release the anger I feel today. I know I will. But right now, it’s all still too raw.
Josh was shot at 7 times. One gunshot hit him in the bottom part of his heart and another gunshot hit his upper left thigh (passing through his leg). The shooter unloaded his weapon leaning out the passenger window while driving and also driving in the wrong lane.
I send love and hugs to our family who are mourning this senseless tragedy—see links to news articles and video:
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You say you love me but hardly have 5 minutes for me after driving 1000 miles for all of us to be together. ((UPDATE: I got my 5 minutes!!! And yes, no drama, no “stuffing” of emotions, and no MANIPULATION! I simply worked through my emotions, wrote this article—turning my “pain” into Art—and then breathed and “Allowed” ALL to simply, BE. And it worked out even better than I could have asked for, with MORE time and much more hugs and happy faces all around.))
Or maybe it’s more about your friends?
And that’s okay. As I know friends are family who we have chosen.
But why did you feel the need to point out the things I did that didn’t suit you?
I didn’t hear something you said, I moved towels in the bag you had expertly folded (which I apologized for), while trying to find something for someone else (being helpful) in the bag? Later, you said you spent time putting the towels in the bag in an orderly fashion, so I knew my action triggered you. Again, I am sorry I didn’t consider that.
You poke the bear. Nit-picking at me. Not appreciating me. I have improved and can “take” a lot, but eventually I break too. We are both “sensitive.”
Don’t you know your words matter to me?
Sunrise. Daytona Beach Shores
You have made comments to me which seem to be “put downs.” Maybe unintentionally.
I don’t think you have complimented me in any way. I don’t need you to lavish me with compliments (I’m not a narcissist). But once in a while it is nice to be appreciated. ((UPDATE: Thank you for telling me “Thank you so much” as we hugged goodbye. I love you too!!))
I can’t seem to be trusted or able to do anything right.
Can you give me credit for doing the best that I can?
I had been working my processes and letting the comments pass over me without tears, until the last one (yesterday). That I should have kept my mouth shut. It triggered me. It embarrassed me (though it shouldn’t have, as we don’t need to people-please). I don’t think you meant to be hurtful, but it sounded quite rude to me. So, I wanted to leave (the outing) and not return.
It seems your friends matter more to you, than me. And I love that you love your friends. But I would also like to matter. Otherwise, I don’t feel wanted.
I may be gone before your friends are (though I think we all know now, life is short).
I spent a fortune to come see you, but I don’t know if you know that.
And supposedly you love me more.
I haven’t felt very respected or wanted. (Again because we have not spent even 5 uninterrupted minutes together in 5 days, and when I did come to sit and talk with you at the beach, you seemed to need to relax and not talk). And that’s okay. I didn’t want to force anything.
But I would have simply loved to have had a talk (without being made to feel I couldn’t say or do something right).
I guess this is why people spend more time at work.
Because we aren’t celebrated when we do take time to be with family.
Why is it the ones we love and the ones who say they love us, act unkind when (they say) kindness is important to them?
No wonder people spend more time at work.
They want to go where they are celebrated, not tolerated.
I did my EFT Tapping and realized why I got upset (finally, after about the 5th time something you said felt disrespectful), to become aware of these things.
I don’t expect you’ll read this. That’s not the point anyway.
The point is, my emotions are not your responsibility.
Though I am sad, I will mind my Energy and make different decisions.
I am glad you are your own person. And it isn’t my Ego that is hurt. I know I am not perfect, nor have I ever needed to be perfect. And I don’t expect you to be perfect either.
I will extend you that kindness.
I am still learning. Working my processes. Thank you for giving me more to chew on. Heal more layers. I love you! We are each fractals of Omniscience.
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it does affect us ALL because We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
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Grace is the Space that I give myself and my others when “in the moment” of fussy, grouchy, hormonal, hangry, or sad, we react snappy, or name it what you will, from an irritated, aggravated, or irrational place.
Now, when I notice the upset, I simply observe and give my loved one SPACE.
Breathe. Peace. Ignore or not add to their moment of upset by feeding it either positive or negative Energy.
I don’t have to correct anyone. Just breathe and observe. Witness.
Let them have the space to feel their feelings. Often, they will correct or adjust themselves given the space to do so. (And maybe not, but we all learn at differing rates of speed.)
I’m meditating and realizing the best I can do is forgive MYSELF for any time in my life where I have been snappy, fussy, grouchy, or short.
I don’t think I have ever been mean, maybe I have, or I’ve acted rudely or responded in some otherwise negative way (or way which could be perceived of as negative, for my own self preservation). But I didn’t intend to be. Perhaps I was protecting or affirming my boundaries. Or projecting from my Ego.
So with my hands together, I forgive myself.
Tapping on my K27 points and all along my collarbone I say, “I’m okay. It’s okay. It’s ALL okay.” And I taught our granddaughters this earlier tonight—they loved it and grasped it sooo quickly!! Oh! My heart!!
I bring my mind to a neutral point and breathe.
Allow a thought to drop in.
Recall others who gave me GRACE.
The others in my life who simply OBSERVED me. And let me BE.
For today, I am verygrateful.
Yes, I am in the attitude of Gratitude for my husband, adult children, and granddaughters. And my eternal and ancestral family.
I am sooo grateful to have had the mom and dad I had.
Do you want to live in that place of gratitude every day?
Everything Resolves to Gratitude. Sheila Murrey
Fractals of Omniscience
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it does affect us ALL because We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.
The following wraps up our example session and my previous post, where we used the Integrated Spiral™ DE-Program as a method of organizing our handwritten notes (which had previously been an unorganized, chaotic pile of note cards): https://sheilamurrey.net/2022/06/04/going-deep-with-integrated-spiral/.
Integrated Spiral session wrap
Hello everybody, my name is Sheila Murrey and I run a DE-Program called, Integrated Spiral™. This DE-Program can be used in a multitude of ways, as it’s a way of getting thoughts out of our heads (easing anxious thoughts), feeling heard and supported (by sharing in an intimate group), and putting our ideas into action (be it writing a book, creating a course, or preparing a business plan)! And now, this article wraps up the example we worked through on June 4th, 2022.
At this point, we have the pieces of information organized. Our example was to take a lot of disparate notes and create one large task, like writing a book, or developing a program or a course, or even starting a business (because we have acquired a LOT of information over our years on the earth). Haha!
We took physical action and moved our information from the 3.5 x 5 cards to whatever computing application or tool we had available. Or if we didn’t have the app or tool that we thought we might need, we downloaded and installed that.
In my previous example, we had moved all of our information to a mind map, as shown:
Mind Map software tool to organize your digital notes, references, etc.
How the Spiral process helps
Whenever you’re interrupted or distracted from working on your project, the spiral holds space for you to stop (with different topics in play) and restart without any need to work on a schedule. You can always interweave any rabbit holes you’ve gone down as well, into the spiral pattern.
Spirals carved into ancient stones of Sacred Site: Newgrange (Boyne Valley, County Meath, Ireland)
When I started working on a new course within Integrated Spiral™, I used this process and found it most effective and satisfying Indeed, the process eased the pressure off.
Copying and pasting
From the mind map, copy and paste headings and text content into whatever format needed to complete your project. For blog posts (like this one), I usually skip the mind map and move my text directly into an app on my phone, such as the WordPress app when the outcome I desire is a blog article. But for anything else, I either copy and paste into an email and send it to myself, or any kind of notes app on my phone.
Note: I quit using the Notes app on my iPhone this year because I found it was auto-saving each and every note I opened in the app and creating a gmail message, which was filling up my gmail account and I didn’t want 1000 versions of notes in my gmail account. I have been emailing myself snippets of content and using my unread emails as a way to prompt me to complete each task, whether it be adding that content to a draft version of something on my computer or creating a social media post, etc.
Here’s a quick list of applications and tools you may consider using (even for simply one part of your project) depending upon the outcome desired:
WordPress app (I use the app on my phone to begin a draft, then complete each blog article from the browser WordPress app on my laptop)
Word (on a PC), Pages (on a Mac), or Docs (Google Docs) for any written text
Excel (on a PC), Numbers (on a Mac), or Sheets (found within Google Docs) application for any kind of accounting or sorting project, like a budget or list of titles you want to alphabetize
PowerPoint (on a PC), Keynote (on a Mac), or Slides (Google Docs) for any kind of course or presentation
Forms (on a PC), Forms (Google Docs) for any kind of online forms creation software, such as: 123FormBuilder, Cognito Forms, Form.io, Form Tools, JotForm, Ninja Forms, TellForm, Typeform, or Wufoo.
Facebook “Story” builder (can create and not publish a story and screen capture to use their backgrounds) for building social media memes
SurveyMonkey for online surveys
Create a draft version
Weave all of your parts or chapters together to form the draft version. You might consider sharing the draft with several beta testers (those friends or family, even other WordPress readers) who will read your work and spot any details you may have missed, such as spelling, grammar, or overall readability.
Make any changes to the draft that are necessary.
If you are creating a book or course, you may want to copy and paste your content into specific proprietary systems such as WordPress or Smashwords for self-publishing. Or at this point, you could send your edited manuscript to an editor or publisher.
FEELING check point
One of the big benefits of this process is the feelings of ease that are built into it.
How are you feeling now?
You’ve had to search and find a few tools perhaps. Did that grow your curiosity? Good!
You’ve had to stop to take care of anything else pressing. When you returned to this task, did you find it easier? You could find your place to begin again, with ease?
Now, that you’re nearing completion, are you feeling the accomplishment in this? And yes, mental ease? If so, brilliant! That’s a big benefit of this DE-Program philosophy and loose framework.
Integrated Spiral™ Daily Gratitude F-L-O-W
Let’s do this main process WITHIN Integrated Spiral™. (As before, I’m letting you ALL in on a bit of a secret! Shhhh… haha!)
Perform the DAILY Gratitude F-L-O-W consisting of the following movements:
Bow flow, sweep hands together – from the outside in
From the inside tap or pat, hug and swipe the body
Think/Consider: Ancestors. Breath. Water. Spiral blood flow. Foods that nourish.
This is the morning gratitude ritual we can do before we begin work (on anything) and at the end to honor and release our time.
Breathe with the movements. From and with an open heart in all directions. Movement starts from the inside. Turn, turn turn in the image of the spiral. Food starts from the outside. Gratitude for all inside and outside. “We can choose the thoughts we dwell on” Les Brown. That’s a quote. Think: Listen to what I tell myself. How am I doing? Scale radius units human ratios universe. Observational units unified physics, energy mass surface to volume, ratio relationships, effects (Nassim Haramein) and the division of space and space memory. Electromagnetism diverging opposite of gravity, converging one attracts, one repels. Divergent and convergent.
Rest in the spaces between and the thoughts grow larger with practice, mind my own energy or manage my own energy. We are each a fractal of Omniscience.
We work, honor, rest, and meditate while playing in the space of the Integrated Spiral™.
Spiral summary list
In summary, the main ideas are to:
Use the Integrated Spiral™ process to ease your mind and move thoughts to index cards, talking through the cards and recording using Otter to transcribe
Organize the cards in a spiral fashion to bring order and a feeling of space in and leave room to add, as well as hold space for when you are distracted
Stack (by turning each category of cards a quarter turn and placing on top of each other) if you have to stop the process at any point and clear the table, bed, or floor space where you’ve been working
Mind map for additional clarity, as needed (and if desired) especially helpful if you’ll reuse chunks of content for additional projects
Copy and paste from the mind map (or Otter file if you skipped the mind mapping) to whichever phone app or computing tool you think will work best depending up the outcome you desire
Create a draft version
Find willing victims (hehe) readers to beta test the project, read the book, take the course, or join the program
Edit and polish (before copying and pasting into final a proprietary system, especially if you’re using something like Smashwords to self-publish a book)
Send the manuscript to an editor or publisher, or choose to self-publish
Everything happens for a reason and purpose. So, our purpose here is to “connect the dots” as we bridge Heaven to Earth. See my previous blog dedicated to we’re all connected, you may wish to read.
We are complete
Did you enjoy (IN Joy) these two articles?
Did the spiral process intrigue you?
Would you like to get to give it a try? If so join us here.
And remember, everything is a suggestion. (Wink!)
Everything is a suggestion.
Many blessings to you in ALL ways. Amen. Namaste. OM
Fractal of Omniscience
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on ALL of my books, visit my Amazon Author page.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice, Energy of Receiving, and author of the captivating Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection as well as the incredibly helpful 2nd edition of Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it does affect us ALL because We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
For more about this blog, how I create digital designs, why I wrote a holistic health book, and more, find me on Facebook, Twitter, and LinkedIn.