It’s multidimensional
Time
Time
Good and Bad are LABELS
Why do we always label things good or bad?
Why do we judge so much, or at all? What a waste of time and energy. (Unless you’re a judge or sitting in a jury box, don’t each of us have enough to do without all the judging and condemning of our bother and sister humans?
Don’t we each have enough to do everyday to take care of what’s real?
Light and dark, hot and cold, wet and dry. These aspects of reality are real.
In traditions dating back millennia, the dark, wet/moist, and cool aspects were associated with the feminine. and light, heat, and dry aligned with the masculine. This is why the earth was said to be our mother and the sun our father. The dark soil of the earth accepts the light of the sun and nurtures plant life to grow.
We don’t say the earth is bad and the sun is good. Sometimes too much sunlight can burn our skin (so that could be bad). And when something is extremely cold it can feel hot, or if something is extremely hot it can feel cold. So, again, our senses can be fooled. Definitely calling something good or bad can vary depending on who’s judging what.
Let’s, for now, consider issues we view as bad, to simply be INFORMATION. Yes, even criminals. At some point we have to take a good hard look at our innards, shadow, guts, and admit that in some way, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, we ourselves have been the criminal, even if only in our thoughts!
To walk the path of the shaman, we must dig in the dirt of ourselves and lift up the dark to clear it. Indeed, to heal ourselves.
Why do people need some threat (police, judge, jury, prison, or damnation), held over their heads to inspire or coerce them to live a righteous life? Why do we need a supreme Diety or Divine to live rightly?
Are we innately good? Kind? Obviously we get it if someone is hurt, abandoned, or abused they might consequently hurt other people (the whole “hurt people, hurt people” thing). But not everyone abuses others because they were abused. It is more than likely that when we’re hurt we fall out of alignment with our true selves, our Divinely guided inner being.
Some of us simply walk uprightly because it feels so good to do so! We tell the truth because it feels good (and we can’t sleep at night if we don’t).
So, I’m here to challenge and call out the whole idea of good vs. evil. The yin and yang tradition doesn’t specify a preference between them, yin is not bad while yang is good for instance. In the Asian wisdom traditions it’s all a question of Balance. Keeping things on an even keel. Working towards the middle. Staying neutral. When I practice Reiki, I am a neutral channel of pure loving Reiki Energy.
But Balance isn’t strived for in the good/evil traditions.
Let’s do this little exercise, as suggested by Nick Polizzi of the Sacred Science — here’s a link but watch it quickly as I don’t know how long it will be available: https://inneralchemy.thesacredscience.com/day-3-ist/
Write for 3 minutes of a recent “bad” situation that you’ve experienced. Not what someone else experienced as that’s none of your business.
Then write it again but use the terms light/dark or yin/yang to reframe and describe the situation to see how much emotional, spiritual, intellectual we can stretch, open, expand and change our language around the experience. This assumes it was our experience and not someone else’s we have no business in viewing/judging.
What have you learned? What new awareness has surfaced? Do you feel a bit lighter after reframing the situation and releasing the need to write bad/good judgements in the story?
For your upliftment
I hope so! Because the aim of this work is to uplift you.
We are each a bright shining fractal of Ever-Living, LIMITLESS Source Energy! Creation never ceases!
I am love-and-in my spirit and heart: I love unconditionally–that means without conditions, such as: I don’t care how much money you have or don’t have. I don’t care what ancestry you have, what skin tone, what ailments, what religion-or not, and certainly not what gender or sexual orientation you are-think you are or want to be!
Underneath the outer layer of our skin, we are all pink! Our blood is blue until exposed to oxygen and then, it’s red!
I think we care about each other because we are human. We are ALL human beings. I don’t want to exclude ANYONE. I want to be known for Inclusivity.
Because We Are ALL Connected. Because I believe each of us matter. I believe each of our voices matter. ❤️🦋🌀〰️
And, yes, I want you to yell FIRE in a theater, IF it’s on freaking FIRE!
Speaking your truth is healing!
No labels
I am all for NO LABELS!
I could care less what people do (or with whom) in the privacy of their homes, cars, RVs, motel rooms, tents, bathrooms, etc. and I don’t even mind public reasonable shows of affection (it doesn’t have to be vulgar—yes I know I am still judging). And between consenting adults, please. (My mind cannot abide with people taking advantage of children—see my previous post about that.)
Yes, I accept all for who they are. (But I don’t have to live with them.) I have had way too many experiences on different levels than to judge—more than I just did.
❤️🦋🌀〰️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon.
Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here.
Be the best version of who you want to be.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
Finally! My book is done!
Since I met Patricia McGivern and had a one-on-one hypnotherapy session with her on my birthday in 2016, I have been keeping notes about observations in nature, dreams, visions, and surreal experiences (nighttime visitations) from my mom and dad since they have crossed over to the Other Side of The Veil, transitioned to the Grand Beyond, or had their “Celebration Day.”
My new book draws from these experiences. I named the book, Blues Eyes, a metaphysical novel because it’s centered around things my one day old sister, Christina has shown me.
I’ll write more and put out some videos soon about what the writing process has been like, but for now, I want to highlight some important lessons and concepts:
Note from March 18th, 2016
“And birth is only the beginning. It is overwhelming sometimes to ponder how courageous and brave it is of each soul to agree to this carnal ride.
Oh, how bumpy and bizarre this ride! How curious this journey of becoming human. How mysterious and magical to be in a living, changing, growing, wonderful body!
As an adult, we think we’re big enough, strong, and tough enough to survive, but we know the body and mind are fragile too.
Imagine when we are in the womb, how fragile, delicate, and vulnerable we are. Oh, how indescribable it must be!
So, let us all pray and meditate daily about how grateful we are to have been born–to be here!
We are able to live, move, and have our being, while not every soul who desires and strives to be here, makes it.
And lets be kind to our bodies, our children, and each other. For we are all blessed to be here, and IN Joy relish the time we have on this magnificent planet.
Note from March 18th, 2021
An Aha moment! While reading the preceding paragraphs, held within about 500 writing “Notes” in my iPhone, I realized (seeing with REAL EYES), that I’d written that 3 years to the day BEFORE the DATE dad had set with me to visit each other—due to me always being “busy, busy, busy” (dad’s words).
Overarching Takeaways
Sitting in this “complete and fulfilling state of GRATITUDE and GRACE” I Am humbled.
When anything disturbs me (including myself), when my expectations aren’t met, I will choose to let it go as best I can to Limitless Omniscience God, and forgive myself and others as we can never see the whole picture, or know the whole story—much less control anything.
Cherish nothing else except each moment of Presence.
Know that you yourself are essential to this world. Understand both the blessing and the burden of that. You yourself are desperately needed to save the soul of this world.
In a Sacred Hoop of Life, there is no beginning and no ending. To everything, turn, turn, turn. There is a reason.
Each of us is important and have a mission. Much love and multitudinous blessings to each of you in ALL ways. ❤️🦋🌀〰️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon.
Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here.
Be the best version of who you want to be.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
The children make differences
Silver Birch was a spirit guide who spoke through Maurice Barbanell
The children make differences
Book Review: Dancing with The Field: Bringing Joy, Passion and Play into Everyday Life
Book Review: Dancing with The Field: Bringing Joy, Passion and Play into Everyday Life
An energetic, illuminating, and enlightening read.
Kris Kelkar’s book, Dancing with The Field: Bringing Joy, Passion and Play into Everyday Life, was a JOY to read! I sped through this book within a month (quite unusual for me)! It just sucked me IN! (Or perhaps, I sucked this book IN because of my extreme interest in the subject and eagerness to PULL this knowledge into ME! Haha!)
Interconnections and Vibrations
Throughout Dancing with The Field, Kris offers us deeply engaging, easy-to-follow, information on the Science of vibrational interconnections and how The Field underpins EVERYTHING!
As an Observer of Nature, I teach others how to shift our eyes to see things differently, so we might view multiple sides of a story or the various aspects of ANYTHING. And Kris adds a beautiful explanation, in the quote I share above, for why I do what I do! Reading that one page helped crystalize (for me) what I’ve been yearning to explain, simply.
Waves of Energy
Kris writes about the waves of Energy, yes. And of magic, mystery, and coherence. He dives into Spirituality and metaphysical teachings, as he explains frameworks. And touches on Tibetan Buddhism too!
Kris and I are on the same wavelength it seems. Similar to things I teach, Kris sees spiritual practices as training wheels too, like guidance or guard rails to living life. But, not so necessarily needed that we have become enmeshed with these particular dogmas such that they become an end to our means–in other words, we don’t have to worship the framework! (Even Jesus was teaching us a WAY we could live, not that we were supposed to WORSHIP Him!)
As well, and to build on this for a moment, we can take the profound words of Alan Watts, Terence McKenna, John Lennon, George Harrison, and Russell Brand and codify them into a religion (Oh, wait! “New Age” probably has already done that! LOL), but we don’t have to do that, nor do I think any of them would want us to do that! I know (from speaking with him) Neale Donald Walsch doesn’t want us to worship him! (Wink to Neale!) Of course, bowing is okay and gently honoring and humbling. To BOTH parties! As each of us are fractals of Omniscience. OMG I’m on a roll! ROFL!
Okay, Sheila. Calm down. Ha! Breathe. Ground. Center. OM
Kris does emphasize the value and healing of GROUP PRAYER though, as that creates coherence in the WAVE! And I believe that too, especially after experiencing the power I felt during a recent group OM chant, led by Dr. Shamini Jain! There were about 1000 people in the room and as am empath, I could FEEL the resonance and palpable Energy during that blissful coherent chant! I could FEEL the resonance in my soul as the blood in my body produced GodBumps!!!
I’ve been teaching certain classes and practices, methods and processes within my larger Integrated Spiral™ DE-Program (link here; and example of the process here) for over a year. But Kris summed it all up so nicely in this quote:
“We never see anything in its totality because everything is made up of layer upon layer of vibration that is constantly changing and exchanging information with the field. Our thinking minds create separation in an effort to understand, but that separation stops us from seeing the whole-that everything is connected to the one vibratory source, which is the Field. The Field does not only exist around us, but it also exists in us, through us, and as us.”
Kris Kelkar, author Dancing with The Field: Bringing Joy, Passion and Play into Everyday Life
Favorite chapters
My favorite chapters, which I plan to read again and again, are:
- Our Bodies are Doorways to the Field
- Balanced, Attuned, and Aligned (as I’ve been doing the balancing and integrating, but with less focus on tuning. And why we read books like this–to remind us!)
- The Field in Relationship (as my husband and I practice this a LOT!)
- The Nutrient of Attention (as I struggle from having suffered “low self esteem” when I was young, to now, a few calling ME (ha!) “arrogant”!)
- Breathing in The Field
- Ecstatic Breathing
- Conscious Slow Breathing
- Breathing Bypasses Programming
Notice all the chapters having to do with BREATHING are favorites.
Why?
Ready?
Because I’m a BREATHER! Haha!
Sorry, sorry… but that’s a twist on a favorite movie line of mine from Something about Mary, “We got a bleeder!” – and if you haven’t seen it or don’t remember, here’s a clip: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBwTeyZDRos
In summary
I’ve been a student of Nassim Haramein for several years, so I “get” what The Field is (and is no doubt why I was drawn to buy this book). BUT, I had not read any other book where someone from Kris’ background and education could explain certain things in a language that more matched my own, without all the scientific terms. (I do consider myself a scientist, but only in the natural sense of the word, as I observe, measure, research, test/experiment, and document.)
I love that Kris has also learned from the work of Dr. Joe Dispenza. Love Dr. Joe! Now, I’m wondering if I’ll bump into Kris at any event with Wim Hof, Dr. Bruce Lipton, or Gregg Braden?!? Ha! I bet we’ll meet one day!
For me, after finishing this book yesterday… and once again I resoundingly state that, Everything Resolves to Gratitude.
Pick up a copy
Buy Dancing with The Field: Bringing Joy, Passion and Play into Everyday Life here. It is available as a paperback and on Kindle (so you can read it on your smartphone like I did).
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, natural health foods store, art fair, music or yoga festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. I’m an Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. Visit my author’s page here.
Plus, I documented how I naturally reversed 30+ years of chronic asthma in my holistic health book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, that’s available on Barnes and Noble: here.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it really does affect us ALL. We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/takeonyourself/
Book Review: New Perspectives, Past Lives
Book Review: New Perspectives, Past Lives
A beautiful soul-reaching, inspiring, reverent, vulnerable, and enlightening read!
Shari Hinkle’s book, New Perspectives, Past Lives is a book that I spent quite a while reading as it touched me deeply. Knowing Shari personally, having traveled with her (and a group) to Ireland, England, and Scotland in the summer of 2019 helped too, as I could hear her voice in my head as I read, and put a frame around some things she’s told me.
Meet Shari
Massage therapist, Pilates instructor, and new author, Shari Hinkle, Connects with me on so many levels! And we can talk for hours, even while she’s massaging this body that I inhabit! LOL (then again, I am always intrigued and asking questions of most of my massage therapist (LMT) friends! Go figure!)
Shari and I seek and observe (and then share) many of the synchronicities that we each experience. And we both love talking about anything that’s vibrational in nature, Energy Medicine, personal responsibility and choices, as well as, how We Are All Connected (and interconnections that are ALL around us)!
After having many profound past life regression sessions with Patricia McGivern and writing this book, Shari also offers past life regression sessions to clients. And if you’re interested, continue reading and consider connecting with Shari for your own session.
Interconnections and Vibrations
Throughout New Perspectives, Past Lives, Shari offers us more about how everything is interconnected through Vibration. She explains why we use phrases like, “feeling blue,” “out of the blue,” and “green with envy.” (Remember, color is a vibration).
Shari also explores how our soul can draw us to a physical place and location, such as how we were drawn to the Sacred Sites of visit Ireland, England, and Scotland. She calls this kind of draw an “energy of connectedness.”
Layers of Energy
Shari writes about the layers of Energy and lessons she learned from re-experiencing her past lives through her hypnosis past life regressions sessions with Patricia McGivern.
Shari was re-introduced to characters as she made her way through a series of past life regressions with Patricia, and some of those persons (or personages) were people she’s met in THIS life! Baffling and thrilling, right? I won’t spoil it for you, but when you read it, look closely at the character, Gilda.
In one past life, Shari learned that “There is Power in the Pause.” (capitals mine) I meditated on that sentence for some time. (And as you may remember I love the book, Power over Force, and as a writer the word Power tends to always leap off a page!)
I found that Shari’s way of explaining bodily sensations were unique in this book, and I believe that’s because of the training in massage and Pilates she’s had. She puts a special spin on things that I’ve felt but had a hard time describing! Here’s one quick example,
The “imprint” of energy began to magnify up to my brow bone and then around my head.”
From New Perspectives, Past Lives by Shari Hinkle
Loving reminders
In New Perspectives, Past Lives, Shari touched on something one of my grandfathers always used to say, “Stop and smell the flowers.” Statements such as these, as I read them, make me feel as though my family on the other side of The Veil are sitting beside me! Ah! Love it.
Some layers of stuck energy actually hinder us from living up to our highest potential, or keep us from “shining bring” as Shari says. I know after our trip to the Sacred Sites on our Sacred Celtic Journey in July 2019, I began writing emails–even business emails–starting with the words, “Hello bright shining ones.” I had never done that before!
If you think re-living a past life experience might be painful, know that a hypnotherapist can bring you back to reality very quickly. And that immediately, or within some short time period following the session, you’ll probably feel relief (either physical, mental, or emotional) from having gone through the process and released something that had been bound in that former life. That’s certainly been my experience, as well as gain broader, deeper, and a much more intimately personal understanding of spirit, Omniscience God, sense of Compassion for others, and ALL.
In summary
New Perspectives, Past Lives is soul-expanding, and mesmerizing. It is relevant (especially if you have unexplained body pain), enlightening, and curious–in the mystical way.
For me, the new perspective I gained confirmed once again that, Everything Resolves to Gratitude.
Pick up a copy
Buy New Perspectives, Past Lives here. It is available as a paperback and on Kindle (so you can read it on your smartphone like I did).
Connect with Shari Hinkle at: http://newperspectivesmassage.com/about
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”🌀Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer.❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🙏🔥☯️
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, natural health foods store, art fair, music or yoga festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. I’m an Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. Visit my author’s page here.
Plus, I documented how I naturally reversed 30+ years of chronic asthma in my holistic health book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, that’s available on Barnes and Noble: here.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it really does affect us ALL. We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/takeonyourself/
Your own beloved are there
Silver Birch was a spirit guide who spoke through Maurice Barbanell
Your own beloved are there
From Secrets to Pyramids
As long as there are secret societies (or events) like the Bohemian Grove, Jekyll Island, and Epstein Island (if you haven’t heard about this, you can go to YouTube or favorite search engine to learn about it), there will be elitist rulers over slaves. And if we are not allowed to be privy to this information, don’t kid yourself, we are slaves. We are Controlled. ❤️🦋🌀〰️🔥🙏☯️
I woke up today to read of the 17 day Bohemian Grove event, and my mind immediately drifted to the slaves who built the pyramids. (Pyramids in Egypt and in South America).
Many of us (born after World War II), were raised with the saying, “Loose lips sink ships.” In regard to necessary National Security (which is the secrecy to protect our nation). Interesting how close the word, Security, is to the word, Secret. No?
As long as there are nations to protect, there will be borders to protect. Thus, national security issues.
Pyramid Schemes
Most people think pyramid schemes are Ponzi schemes.
The less knowledgeable accuse multi-level and network marketing companies of being pyramid schemes. They are not. They are one of the easiest ways for people with hardly any up front cash, to actually get rich—maybe not quickly, but nonetheless I have seen it happen.
What’s absurd is that these MLM and network marketing companies model their businesses after other companies who legally “get away with” fraud—yes, the fraud that most people think they’re guilty of committing!
However, I find it very interesting that there are many ways for governments (think lobbyists), and multinational corporations (think stock trading and currency exchanges), to behave in ways quite similar to pyramid and Ponzi schemes, yet no one is being prosecuted.
Banks and insurance companies seem to skip happily along, all the while, taking advantage of the “little guy.” Present day raping and pillaging.
Want a real shocker? Watch this: https://youtu.be/ghP7kImI9WM
Ancient Pyramids
A few years ago, I was told by two different friends to watch a documentary called, Pyramid Code. Here’s the extended trailer for that intriguing movie: https://youtu.be/04j7rksyRzQ
Even before I laid my hands on the neolithic stones at Knowth and Newgrange in Ireland, and Avebury in England, and dropped quickly into meditation seated near a bluestone inside the stone circle of Stonehenge, I believed “The Powers that Be” were holding things back from us. Concealing secrets that could shift our world view.
Knowth and Newgrange are now thought to be the oldest astronomically oriented structures known to exist, predating Stonehenge in England and the great pyramids of Egypt. But for whatever reasons, they haven’t been romanticized as much. Perhaps, there are political reasons.
I knew many years ago that secrets were kept from us. I just didn’t know how far down the rabbit hole I would have to go, or if I would want to know, how intricately Everything is Connected.
And I bet that I am only continuing to scratch the surface.
For some dance music and pyramid pictures, check out Yassine’s music mix video: https://youtu.be/vlCpLFemos0
Intrigued? We discuss these topics and more in my DE-programming groups: Integrated Spiral™.
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
Fractal of Omniscience. “Spiral Sister”Observer & Perceiver of Energy & Wisdom from Nature. Empath|Author|Connector|Speaker|Singer. ❤️🦋🌀〰️🔥🙏☯️
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, natural health foods store, art fair, music or yoga festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. I’m an Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. Visit my author’s page here.
Plus, I documented how I naturally reversed 30+ years of chronic asthma in my holistic health book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, that’s available on Barnes and Noble: here.
Be the best version of who you want to be. As it really does affect us ALL. We Are All Connected.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
Follow me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/takeonyourself/
Lifestyle and sexual LABELS
Why should we care about anyone’s lifestyle choices?
Why should you care about whether my husband and I have sex or not? Or why should we care who sleeps with who? (Consent implied.)
Why are other people’s personal lifestyle choices any of our business? Why do we judge?
I get that you may care about my well-being because:
I am a human;
I’m a woman, mom, and grandmother;
I am kind;
I am an empath;
I am sensitive.
And that’s all well and good.
I care about you too! Because We Are All Connected.
We are each a bright shining fractal of Ever-Living, LIMITLESS Source Energy! Creation never ceases!
I am love-and-in my spirit and heart: I love unconditionally–that means without conditions, such as: I don’t care how much money you have or don’t have. I don’t care what ancestry you have, what skin tone, what ailments, what religion-or not, and certainly not what gender or sexual orientation you are-think you are or want to be!
Underneath the outer layer of our skin, we are all pink! Our blood is blue until exposed to oxygen and then, it’s red!
I think we care about each other because we are human. We are ALL human beings.
Sex life – must it be out in the open?
There, I said it.
Where are my BISEXUAL friends?
Men, women, non-binaries?
Are you willing to speak up?
And why is it important to authentically speak our truth?
I don’t want to exclude ANYONE. I want to be known for Inclusivity.
Because We Are ALL Connected. Because I believe each of us matter. I believe each of our voices matter. ❤️🦋🌀〰️
And, yes, I want you to yell FIRE in a theater, IF it’s on freaking FIRE!
Speaking your truth is healing!
Family secrets
For many years of my life my mother didn’t trust my dad. She loved him dearly, but he had committed infidelities. She trusted me and told me when I was young of his indescretions. Probably not the best thing to do, but my mother was very close to me. For years, she called me her miracle child, her angel. And I don’t think she ever meant to turn me against my dad, but she needed someone she could trust and so, she confided in me.
Many years later, after her passing, my adult son, found pages and pages of her diary. And many of the things he read were disturbing.
He’d not heard all of the “bad” stories about my dad before and he was getting the uncut version from mom’s writing.
Since my son was very close to my dad, these revelations from the pages of mom’s diary threw my son into a tailspin, literally! (In fact, he had an accident one night after learning all that and it nearly killed him!)
In one letter my mom even accused my dad of “running around with men.”
I had seen a similar note she had written too, and she had used the word, “camp.” Since they did call their northern home “the camp” and since we all went camping, I didn’t think much of it, until I mentioned it to a gay friend. He asked me, “don’t you know why men use the word, “camp”? And I didn’t—though I had heard some references to certain movies being “camp,” like the Rocky Horror Picture Show, which was pretty gay.
Anyway, I will never know if my mom’s suspicions were founded on anything true or not, other than I know my dad was a lady’s man. And my whole point here is to ponder why I should care anyway.
When a friend of mine posted the following one day on Facebook, it brought up all these memories and I started taking down some notes on the subject:
Post from a friend
Jan 31, 2019 S.S. a friend of mine posted the following on Facebook:
Who are my BISEXUAL friends out there?!
Men, women, non-binaries?
Are you willing to speak up?
I’ve been reflecting on the invisibility of our kind… LOL. It’s funny, but not funny. Sometimes it’s really damaging or just plain frustrating.
Are we now willing to admit it to it?
When maybe it’s been safer not to.
It’s been a long road for me to talk about it publicly. But then, how do we find and know each other?
For support, for connection, for community… It’s a unique and often lonely path seeking to be understood by our families, our culture, even our friends… even WITHIN Pride community.
Can we find better ways to be included?
To support one another. To be seen and heard.
How does being bisexual affect our relationships? Our choices? Our mental health?
How do we self-determine or craft our personal narrative outside the lines of “moderate” culture? How do we get better at articulating our truths in this world?… Thoughts?
Love you ALL for your courage to live authentically! ❤❤❤ #BeProudOfWhoYouAre #RadicalAuthenticity
(As a disclaimer, bisexual is just the term I identify with most strongly. Of course, this is meant to be inclusive of those who consider themselves pansexual, omnisexual and heteroflexible. 😊)
Jan 31, 2019 S.S. posted on Facebook
I humbly applaud my friend for her transparency to share. I felt the courage and conviction of her words. Yet, I sat on several drafts of THIS post for YEARS.
No labels
I am all for NO LABELS!
I could care less what people do (or with whom) in the privacy of their homes, cars, RVs, motel rooms, tents, bathrooms, etc. and I don’t even mind public reasonable shows of affection (it doesn’t have to be vulgar—yes I know I am still judging). And between consenting adults, please. (My mind cannot abide with people taking advantage of children—see my previous post about that.)
Yes, I accept all for who they are. (But I don’t have to live with them.) I have had way too many experiences on different levels than to judge—more than I just did.
We were given a brain and free will though. We do NOT have to remain in abusive situations!
My adult kids and I have talked about this issue a ton of times, and I love our open communications about it all. (We have talked more since my son found mom’s diary pages.)
Neither of my kids judge others either, and as a parent, that’s something I am exceedingly happy about. (Because I feel it’s the one thing I did right as a parent)! 😉🥰❤️
But secrets can still be disturbing when they are revealed.
Putting all this out here, on my public blog? Well, it sort of feels like I am in that dream where you go to school naked!
It is far easier for me to tell you what Heaven (what I call the Grand Beyond) looks like than talk about sex here.
Isn’t that weird?
Are you ready to bare your soul? Free your soul?
❤️🦋🌀〰️
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon.
Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here.
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The house that Sheila built
House of lives
The house that Sheila built is not a house in the physical sense, but a house of Connected Persons. Persons who are Connected to me spiritually and soulfully. These are people who are of the utmost importance to me. The VIPs of my life!
Perhaps this is a sort of moral inventory I am making here, but as a store has inventory, my “house” is made up of all the dear people I have had the immense pleasure to know.
As an only child, I am humbled and surprised at the number of incredible people who have and continue to walk the road of life with me. Hmm, what a thought!
Husband
I’ve heard it said that as we age, friendship with our spouse, or significant other, is more important than physical attraction (or sex). I agree.
If you are lucky enough to meet and marry your soulmate, then there’s that. And it’s really beautiful if you can bring as much happiness to this person as you do for yourself.
My husband, Richard, is truly my soulmate and “love of my life.” ❤️🙏😘
My first two marriages ended badly, and while I learned life lessons from both relationships, I regret the hurt and pain. I can’t turn back time. And for my part, and yes, each person owns some of the responsibility of failing in those situations (no one is really better than another when it comes right down to it), but for some, that takes years to see. Thus, I am sorry. I thought I did my best, but we can’t see what we can’t SEE.
Children and grandchildren
It takes children to make grandchildren. Thus, it seems I should speak of my own children next, but no. Reason being, I wasn’t as mindful or “aware” of the profound soul Connection I had to my children when they were young.
So, let me tell you about the deep soul Connection I have with my eldest granddaughter, Jennifer Ann. My relationship with her best represents how nuanced and intricately interlaced ALL of our Connections are (though for the most part, unacknowledged).
My story with Jennifer goes back 10 years…
I was working in Boca Raton, Florida. I still remember taking my cell phone outside and walking up and down the hall while breathing with my daughter while she was in labor with Jennifer. I missed Jennifer’s actual birth, but treasure my memories of helping my daughter with her childbirth breathwork (eventually, Jennifer had to be born via C-section).
Anyway, as soon as I could, I took a few days off and flew to Connecticut, so I could comfort my daughter and meet my new granddaughter. Oh, she was an indescribable JOY to hold!
Throughout my visit, I observed (and felt) the spiritual Connection between Jennifer and myself. I explained the experience in my book as follows:
When I held Jennifer, I felt an immense resonance – truly representative of “Unconditional Love and LIMITLESS Source Energy.”
I spoke these words to Jennifer, “I know who you are. You are pure positive Source Energy.” At the precise moment the word “energy” left my lips, Jennifer whipped her head around – so much so that it surprised me – and looked me straight in the eye! The look she gave me as our eyes met seemed to ask, “How did you know”?
Excerpt from:
Murrey, Sheila. “Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life!” Apple Books.
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Years later, when my twin granddaughters were born, I flew to New Hampshire, but this trip north challenged me to drive in the snow and ice over an hour from the airport to the hospital. I’d do it all over again though, as to stay in the hospital with my daughter and her girls the first 3 days of their lives was a priceless experience!
While holding my twin granddaughters those first days, I felt the nearly indescribable love and soul Connection with each of them that I’d felt (and continue to feel), with Jennifer.
At the end of one of my visits, I had instinctively swirled my fingers towards both girls in an energetic spiral manner, and both Jaclyn and Jewel had loved it. (Later I realized my dad had done this, so my spinning my index finger in circles wasn’t “instinct,” it was learned and fixed in my subconscious!)
On a subsequent visit, one of the twins, Jewel, had began twisting and twirling a lock of her hair. At that moment, however subconsciously, I believe Integrated Spiral was birthed.
I didn’t acknowledge or realize my previous spiral energy actions had made any influence on the girls until Jewel began twirling her hair.
I thought about the times when my two children were babies and my dad had swirled his finger towards their bellies and said, “bory bory” (we still don’t know why or what it means), and they would gleefully coo! Children are sooo easily mesmerized!
Coming back around full circle to my children, I love my daughter and son dearly. I cannot imagine who I’d be, or even if I would still be alive at this point, had they not come into my life when they did. I grew up in multitudinous ways with them. ❤️
Extended family
We don’t pick these folks, but love them or not, they can teach you invaluable life lessons if you are open to receive. So, judge not.
We all seem to switch places as the years go on, and you really don’t know who will come through for you when you least expect it and need them most.
Mentors
I’ve written a previous blog (here), some years ago about the exquisite mentors I have had the privilege to know, work for, and befriend. I do not believe I could have progressed in my life and career without their brilliant advice, support, and friendship.
Everyone should have a mentor and in turn, mentor someone. It is a rich relationship, that reaps lifelong benefits, well beyond money. A mentor can bring balance and stability, by bringing new awareness and offering you different perspectives.
Often the old saying is true, it’s not what you know, it’s who you know.
Friends
When I was young, I always befriended those who were not immediately or easily acknowledged, accepted or liked by others.
I have always stood up for the underdog. And I have been bullied for it.
When the first black family moved to our town, I befriended the children. They were sooo friendly and we got along famously! I didn’t see color or ever think to treat anyone any differently because of their skin tone, or any different feature, but other kids did and I was curious as to why that was the case.
I went home and mentioned to my folks how much I enjoyed my new friends company (and how not many others seemed to) and my mom was fine with me inviting them over. But my dad cautioned me saying, “you can be friends, but nothing more.” Later, my mom clarified that dad would never want me to date anyone of a different race or nationality.
It was the first I knew of racism, and it really perplexed and bewildered me! I felt the emotional pain of conflicting thoughts.
Thankfully, dad changed (or softened) many of his views before he left this earth, but the memory of that emotional hurt still lingers. My mom was much more open to discussing race with me because of our Cherokee Native American ancestry. (I am of mixed ethnicity.)
Though my complexion is light, I consider ALL my brothers and sisters. It is also why I wrote this:
“Dancing with the Energy,
In the pinpoint center of the spiral,
She came alone with no siblings.
But as she unwound herself, the spiral emerged.
Then, she harmonized with many, and THEY became her siblings.” ❤️🦋🌀
To this day, I hold my true friends near and dear to my heart. I love that my circle of friends include beautiful hearts and souls of every race, creed, religion, sexual orientation, political affiliation, etc.
I choose friends based on their heart, and the soul Connection I feel when I am with them (even if only by voice).
Yes, interestingly, some of my dearest friends I haven’t even met in person. We’ve only met by phone on Clubhouse or on Zoom. Soul Connections do not rely on the physical. Isn’t that intriguing?
Colleagues
After having spent 30 plus years in Information Technology, I have gotten to know and spent many days, weeks, months, and years working with many excellent colleagues. And I do mean, incredible people. I am thrilled to have formed lasting friendships with many.
Several former colleagues continue to Connect with me (even if initiated for a reference—but always to chat about a bit more than superficial things). I am always happy to hear from them. Giving out professional references is one way I can “give back” in honor of the help and advice my mentors always graciously gave me.
In particular, I want to thank the many “scary smart” folks I had the pleasure of getting to know, and working with at:
- The Veterans Administration on the VETSNET team (4 years, 4 months) of employees and contractors from Liberty, Booz Allen Hamilton, Halfaker, and others, while employed by Advanced Systems Design (ASD).
- Emerson Process Management (3 years)
- Jabil Circuit
- AT&T Mobility
- Walt Disney World, Parks & Resorts Operations
- Campus Management
- Florida Virtual School
- US Air Force Space Wing (2)
- NASA, Space Gateway Support, and InDyne Inc. at Kennedy Space Center (5)
- Lone Star College
- OnSource Consulting, Inc.
- Ellucian (4)
- Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University (10)
Acquaintances
Smile. Be nice or at least kind to everyone you meet. You really never know when or where people will pop back into your life.
I have had some people show back up in my life (from seemingly unimportant encounters), that have utterly astonished me.
Some individuals have shown up again in my life “out of the blue” providing me evidence that metaphysical or supernatural powers are indeed at work—often. There’s simply been too many bizarre and uncanny encounters occur (incredibly timed) for me to simply chalk these kinds of experiences up as “coincidences.”
In closing
I believe (because I’ve witnessed it), that everyone moves along at differing rates of speed. And thinking that thought helps me when I don’t understand another’s perspective. As well, my mantra of Everything Resolves to Gratitude helps me a lot too!
I choose to hang with uplifting souls to help mySelf! It simply FEELS great! ❤️🦋🌀〰️
The more things change, the more they seem to circle back (and stay the same).
So, I would like to offer the main intention I bring into each relationship, and yes, at the start of each day and in any difficult moment:
To offer a way to open your mind to receive the Connected nature of it ALL.
Excerpt from:
Murrey, Sheila. “Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life!” Apple Books.
This material may be protected by copyright.
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.
An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon.
Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here.
Be the best version of who you want to be.
Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.
Follow me on Twitter at: TakeOnYourself
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