The house that Sheila built

House of lives

The house that Sheila built is not a house in the physical sense, but a house of Connected Persons. Persons who are Connected to me spiritually and soulfully. These are people who are of the utmost importance to me. The VIPs of my life!

Perhaps this is a sort of moral inventory I am making here, but as a store has inventory, my “house” is made up of all the dear people I have had the immense pleasure to know (and have known). As an only child, I am humbled and surprised at the number of incredible people who have and continue to walk the road of life with me. Hmm, what a thought!

Husband

I’ve heard it said that as we age friendship with our spouse, or significant other, is more important than physical attraction (or sex). I agree.

If you are lucky enough to meet and marry your soulmate, then there’s that. And it’s really beautiful if you can bring as much happiness to this person as you do for yourself.

My husband, Richard, is truly my soulmate and “love of my life.” ❤️🙏😘

My first two marriages ended badly, and while I learned life lessons from both relationships, I regret the hurt and pain. I can’t turn back time. And for my part, and yes, each person owns some of the responsibility of failing in those situations (no one is really better than another when it comes right down to it), but for some, that takes years to see. Thus, I am sorry. I thought I did my best, but we can’t see what we can’t SEE.

Children and grandchildren

It takes children to make grandchildren. Thus, it seems I should speak of my own children next, but no. Reason being, I wasn’t as soulfully “aware” of the profound Connection I had to my children when they were young.

So, let me tell you about the deep soul Connection I have with my eldest granddaughter, Jennifer Ann. My relationship with her best represents how nuanced and intricately interlaced ALL of our Connections are (though for the most part, unacknowledged).

My story with Jennifer goes back 10 years…

I was working in Boca Raton, Florida. I still remember taking my cell phone outside and walking up and down the hall while breathing with my daughter while she was in labor with Jennifer. I missed Jennifer’s actual birth, but treasure my memories of helping my daughter with her childbirth breathwork (it turned out that Jennifer had to be born via C-section anyway).

Anyway, as soon as I could, I took a few days off and flew to New Hampshire, so I could comfort my daughter and meet my new granddaughter. Oh, she was an indescribable JOY to hold!

Throughout my visit, I observed (and felt) the spiritual Connection between Jennifer and myself. I explained the experience in my book as follows:

When I held Jennifer, I felt an immense resonance – truly representative of “Unconditional Love and LIMITLESS Source Energy.”

I spoke these words to Jennifer, “I know who you are. You are pure positive Source Energy”, and at the precise moment the word “energy” left my lips, Jennifer whipped her head around – so much so that it surprised me – and looked me straight in the eye! The look she gave me as our eyes met seemed to ask, “How did you know”?

Excerpt from:
Murrey, Sheila. “Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life!” Apple Books.
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Next, when my twin granddaughters were born, I flew to New Hampshire again, but this time I had to challenge myself to drive in the snow and ice over an hour from the airport to the hospital. I’d do it all over again though, as to stay in the hospital with my daughter and her girls the first 3 days of their lives was a priceless experience!

While holding my twin granddaughters those first days, I felt the nearly indescribable love and soul Connection with each of them that I’d felt (and continue to feel), with Jennifer.

At the end of one of my visits, I had instinctively swirled my fingers towards both girls in an energetic spiral manner, and both Jaclyn and Jewel had loved it.

On a subsequent visit, one of the twins, Jewel, had began twisting and twirling a lock of her hair. At that moment, however subconsciously, Integrated Spiral was birthed in me.

I didn’t acknowledge or realize my previous spiral energy actions had made any influence on the girls until Jewel began twirling her hair.

I thought about the times when my two children were babies and my dad had swirled his finger towards their bellies and said, “bory bory” (we still don’t know why or what it means), and they would coo! Children are sooo easily mesmerized!

Coming back around full circle to my children, I love my daughter and son dearly. I cannot imagine who I’d be, or even if I would still be alive at this point, had they not come into my life when they did. I grew up in multitudinous ways with them. ❤️

Extended family

We don’t pick these folks, but love them or not, they can teach you invaluable life lessons if you are open to receive. So, judge not.

We all seem to switch places as the years go on, and you really don’t know who will come through for you when you least expect it and need them most.

Mentors

I’ve written a previous blog (here), some years ago about the exquisite mentors I have had the privilege to know, work for, and befriend. I do not believe I could have progressed in my life and career without their brilliant advice, support, and friendship.

Everyone should have a mentor and in turn, mentor someone. It is a rich relationship, that reaps lifelong benefits, well beyond money. A mentor can bring balance and stability, by bringing new awareness and offering you different perspectives.

Often the old saying is true, it’s not what you know, it’s who you know.

Friends

When I was young, I always befriended those who were not immediately accepted by others.

I have always stood up for the underdog. And I have been bullied for it.

When the first black family moved to our town, I befriended the children. They were sooo friendly and we got along famously!

I went home and mentioned to my folks how much I enjoyed their company and my mom was fine with me inviting them over, then my dad said, “you can be friends, but nothing more (like dating).”

It was the first I knew of racism, and it really perplexed and bewildered me! I felt the pain of conflicted thoughts, emotionally.

Thankfully, dad changed many of his views before he left this earth, but the memory of that emotional hurt still lingers. My mom was much more open to discussing race with me because of our native American ancestry. (I am of mixed ethnicity.)

Though my complexion is light, I consider ALL my brothers and sisters. It is also why I wrote this:

“Dancing with the Energy,

In the pinpoint center of the spiral,

She came alone with no siblings.

But as she unwound herself, the spiral emerged.

Then, she harmonized with many, and THEY became her siblings.” ❤️🦋🌀

To this day, I hold my true friends near and dear to my heart. I love that my circle of friends include beautiful hearts and souls of every race, creed, religion, sexual orientation, political affiliation, etc.

Sheila’s poem, “Dancing with the Energy” – screen capture from her Clubhouse bio.

I choose friends based on their heart, and the soul Connection I feel when I am with them (even if only by voice).

Yes, interestingly, some of my dearest friends I haven’t even met in person. We’ve only met by phone on Clubhouse or on Zoom. Soul Connections do not rely on the physical. Isn’t that intriguing?

Colleagues

After having spent 30 plus years in Information Technology, I have gotten to know and spent many days, weeks, months, and years working with many excellent colleagues. And I do mean, excellent people. I am thrilled to have formed lasting friendships with several.

Many continue to Connect with me (even if initiated for a reference—but always to chat about a bit more than superficial things). I am always happy to hear from them. Giving out professional references is one way I can “give back” in honor of the help and advice my mentors always graciously gave me.

In particular, I want to thank the many “scary smart” folks I had the pleasure of getting to know, and working with at:

  • The Veterans Administration on the VETSNET team (4 years, 4 months) of employees and contractors from Liberty, Booz Allen Hamilton, Halfaker, and others, while employed by Advanced Systems Design (ASD).
  • Emerson Process Management (3 years)
  • Jabil Circuit
  • AT&T Mobility
  • Walt Disney World, Parks & Resorts Operations
  • Campus Management
  • Florida Virtual School
  • US Air Force Space Wing (2)
  • NASA, Space Gateway Support, and InDyne Inc. at Kennedy Space Center (5)
  • Lone Star College
  • OnSource Consulting, Inc.
  • Ellucian (4)
  • Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University (10)

Acquaintances

Smile. Be nice or at least kind to everyone you meet. You really never know when or where people will pop back into your life.

I have had some people show back up in my life (from seemingly unimportant encounters), that have utterly astonished me. People coming back into my life that proved to me that metaphysical, magic or supernatural powers are indeed at work—often. There’s simply been too many bizarre and uncanny incredibly timed encounters for me to simply chalk these kinds of experiences up as “coincidences.”

In closing

I believe (because I’ve witnessed it), that everyone moves along at differing rates of speed. And thinking that thought helps me when I don’t understand another’s perspective. As well, my mantra of Everything Resolves to Gratitude helps me a lot too!

I choose to hang with uplifting souls to help mySelf! It simply FEELS great! ❤️🦋🌀〰️

The more things change, the more they seem to circle back (and stay the same).

So, I would like to offer the main intention I bring into each relationship, and yes, at the start of each day and in any difficult moment:

To offer a way to open your mind to receive the Connected nature of it ALL.

Excerpt from:
Murrey, Sheila. “Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life!” Apple Books.
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Times I nearly died

Ran over

Was run over by dad’s car when I was a toddler!

Yes, I was playing in the driveway and the car rolled over me, while mom watched in horror from the porch. She said I ducked as the “pumpkin” of the car went over my head. Mom said dad turned white as a sheet! I didn’t get a scratch.

Almost fell out of a moving car

Another car incident happened when mom set the clothes basket between her and I. I think she was tired or annoyed with me over something.

I opened the car door and nearly fell out! but mom was quickly able to reach over and grab my winter coat, which saved me! When she retold that story, she said she’d been upset with me and put the basket in between us! She never did that again.

Forced field landing

In the late 1980s, I had began working for a very prestigious private aeronautical university. One of our instructor pilots, offered to let me ride along while she took a student pilot on a “prog check,” which is a progress check on their flying. Flight students go through a lot of these kinds of “checks” during their years of training.

Anyway, on this particular prog check, we all wore headsets (and this is key), and the student puts the plane through a series of maneuvers. At one point during our flight, I heard my friend ask the student to sight a field large enough to land because we had lost an engine.

The student found a field and the instructor, my friend, said it was appropriate. I was beginning to sweat.

When my friend announced that we had lost our second engine, and that the student was to start his steps to initiate a forced field landing, I literally said my prayers, and thanks for all my family, children, etc.

My first granddaughter and I holding hands

Something in that moment told me to lift one side of my headset though.

Thankfully, what I heard shocked and surprised me! The plane’s engines were running!!

And that’s the story I always tell to new hires or those that I train on a job, to make sure WE personally check our projects progress, before we panic and believe some external indication that there’s a problem. Usually, there’s no real problem, it’s only one perception.

I’m sure glad we actually didn’t have to land that plane in a field though!

Funny what we think about when we think we might die. ❤️🦋🌀〰️🔥🙏☯️

Spinning out

When my daughter was 16 or so, I had let her drive us back from Orlando on I-4 in Florida. It was raining and the tires on my car were nearing time to be replaced. She was going about 70mph and had the cruise control on.

Seemingly, for no reason, the car started to spin out of control! We literally turned 360 degrees, in the middle of the highway!

We ended up inches from a tree on the side of the road. My daughter was overcome with emotion when she looked over and saw I had not had my seatbelt on. And I felt like it was a miracle we had not hit the tree. We were able to get back on the road and I drove us home. But we learned never to drive using the cruise control when it’s raining!

Flu in 2005

The summer of 2005, I was sooo sick that my husband insisted on taking me to the Emergency Room (ER) of our local hospital. It was there that the two nurses who attended to me told me, “You can’t get the flu in the summer.” But, I tell you, I had the worst flu I had ever had in my life!

I felt so bad, I thought I would die! I coughed so hard and so much, I peed blood, and was given an antibiotic for a urinary tract infection (UTI), though I had no other symptoms of that (and I have had plenty in my life to know what they feel like.

I detail all of this in my book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life!

Flu in 2019

Just after arriving home from Ireland, December 19, 2019, I experienced some weird kind of flu.

My husband teased me a bit, that I had picked up some sickness from that neolithic tomb I had been in! Ugh. (But he really did take good nursing care of me while I was ill.)

I carried a fever for a whole weekend and couldn’t taste my food. But because I do Qigong and Breathwork, I never felt I had to gasp for air.

My back hurt from whatever coughing I had done though, and that was different for me. That was the part I thought was strange about the whole situation.

A friend, who’s now an herbalist, brought me over her special blend of tea. I was to steep it in a boiling pot of water, drape a towel over my head and stand over the pot, head hanging over, to inhale the vapor. I’m sure grateful for caring friends! (If you haven’t yet, now is a good time to build strong relationships!)

I also took Mullein (which is excellent to ease coughs, and people don’t talk about it enough!), vitamin C, and zinc. And drank my water from a copper mug. I rinsed my nostrils and sinuses out daily with a bit of buffered salt and neti pot. And I doubled up on the redox molecules we take.

Something worked, because within about 10 days began feeling better. I can’t tell you what I had or my process, as the doc (yes, I eventually got checked at a walk-in clinic), never tested me, and the public didn’t know about Coronavirus at that time.

Suffice to say, our cabinets are stocked, and have been all through 2020-2021, but gratefully acknowledging we have been fine.

I often wonder about that old saying, “When your time is up, it’s up”!

Many blessings to you in ALL ways. 

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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Dying thoughts

Final thoughts

No, I’m not dying. Not yet anyway.

But I will one day.

So will you.

Dying thoughts

I’ve never been afraid of death.

It’s wild though because death and public speaking are supposed to be the two main, or top fears of people.

What’s important to say is, before, or as I take my last breath on this earth, I will be thinking of my family.

I woke up in the middle of the night tonight thinking how amazing it was that I got to fly in a jet airliner twice in 2019, to England, Ireland, and Scotland! The sheer magnitude of it! Of traveling that way!

And how my ancestors from “across the pond” (England, Ireland, Denmark, and Germany), had to deal with months on a ship and high seas to reach America—a far away land they could only dream of before they came here.

I go back in my mind—to my travels abroad of 2019–and give deepest thanks for every moment!

I whisper “I love you” to my ancestors, most of whom I never knew in this life.

And then, I whisper, “I love you” and blow air kisses to my daughter, son, and granddaughters!

I touch my husband (sleeping beside me) and feel incredible gratitude for his love and our years together. Especially since there was a person, unbeknownst to me at the time, who attempted to keep us apart.

Spiral thought: A recurring theme in my life, people jacking me around, trying to keep me from getting a job, or such. And without my knowing, sometimes for YEARS! Suffice to say, I hold no grudges, nor do I wish any ill on those certain individuals. And yes, I know who they are, though I sincerely doubt I will ever know their intentions or reasons for their behavior.

In the grand scheme of things, I have been shown that “Everything happens for a reason.” And more importantly, “Everything Resolves to Gratitude.”

I breathe easy and sleep well. I know the love of family, forward and back.

I know, “Love truly does conquer ALL.“

And I know, in multitudinous ways, “We Are Not Alone.” We Are ALL Connected.

❤️🦋🌀〰️🔥🙏☯️

Learn more about my Integrated Spiral program here, where we connect spiritual types more fully with their bodies and connect body conscious types with Spirituality.

Integrated Spiral transformational coaching 

Many blessings to you in ALL ways. 

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

Follow me on Twitter at: TakeOnYourself

What LIGHTS me up? Divine Flame

What is it that lights me up? What’s the Divine Flame?

My purpose is what lights me up.

I sit and look at my PEACE board that I drew for my Integrated Spiral™ program. And what I see, what I know is that I AbSOULutely love to talk and share from my Soul about holistic health, healing, transformation, and of course, Omniscience God and Spirit! ❤️🦋🌀

Per my body graph:When I feel resistance, or frustrated, it is because I made a decision by mental reasoning. My strategy is to respond until I feel satisfied. Unless I am a subtype of Manifestor, my job was never to be the Peacemaker I felt forced to be.

Yesterday, I let go…

Divine Flame

I let go of a 3 year friendship and wellness community (of which I had been a vocal and very visible part of—both on social media and blogging). Done.

Pain pushes until vision pulls.

I walked barefoot in the hot Florida sand.

I cried cleansing tears for less than 5 minutes.

My grief turned to compassion easily. —That’s because I do my Byron Katie “turnarounds.” And “go general” as Abraham-Hicks say. I am very adept at finding my next better feeling thought.

I worked my program of Spiral mechanics on my feelings. —I go deep to rise above, remembering what I have learned from my teachers (Dispenza, Lipton, Hof, Beckwith, Sadhguru, Lama Nicholas, Terrence McKenna, etc) so I can integrate and embody MORE.

What happened? WHY end a friendship?

NO ONE seems suspicious of the mainstream narrative. And while I am not necessarily suspicious, I do question and push back when I feel the need to take care of myself. I still Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life! Yes, I do! I read my own book over and over to remind mySelf.

Until now, for most of my life of 59 years, I have been a peacemaker. I would most naturally choose to back down from a confrontation.

But I am becoming more discerning.

I used to walk away from a fight because when one walks away, the fight ends. I learned that from the years I watched my parents argue, yell, and bicker. It’s the path of least resistance for me. Call it a coping skill. Whatever. It worked for me. It allowed me to give myself compassion. To love mySelf.

So, I don’t judge mySelf for that.

Yes, I have burned bridges in the past. It was necessary and I have no regrets. It kept me “safe.” Whatever that really means.

But NOW?

Now, I want to stand my sacred ground.

I don’t want to back down.

My Irish ire is up. Haha!

I have grown a backbone.

I know I’m a good person. But it’s more than that, (and because I know we are Energy beings, and that it’s ALL ENERGY), I am a multidimensional WHOLE person, who is worthy of being heard, at least, if not respected or honored. Those are all just labels anyway.

Yes, I am worthy to BE HERE NOW. Bless it!

I love to listen to Russell Brand, Brian Rose, Dr Joe Dispenza, Sadhguru and those leaders who can look and value ALL perspectives.

I teach Integrated Spiral™ courses because they have grown me into WHOLENESS!

🌀 Energy Tuning

🔵 Mirror ball: Valuing ALL perspectives

🌱 Growing & F-L-O-W-I-N-G (Everything Resolves to Gratitude)

☯️ Kaleidoscope: Finding value in Everything, Interconnectedness (We Are All Connected)

Yesterday. I was triggered by certain personal messages and responses, that differed from past conversations on the particular triggering topic, which I totally had not expected. Yep, I was blind-sided.

In the online community, of which we are both a part of many are supportive of each other. And I was often told what a wonderful person I was when introductions were made. We were supposed to be uplifting, inclusive, spreading love & light, ETC.

Well, I’m apparently not so wonderful anymore! Make one perceived misstep and it’s judgment city! Ha!

I simply brought an issue to light that a simple, “okay” would have been all the communication I needed. If that had happened, everyone would have easily moved on with their day. But, noooo!

Thus today, I witness the power of the Divine Flame 🔥 to burn away what isn’t necessary in my life and clear another path forward. We’re off to see the wizard, as the song says! ❤️🦋🌀🎼〰️🔥🙏☯️

Themes that runs through my life

  • Airwaves
  • Connection
  • CB Radio
  • Voice (Human Design speaks to this too, i.e. Throat – useful in getting attention)
  • Tone
  • Singing
  • Ego / Not being heard/acknowledged. My Spirit knows it doesn’t really matter. And that what does matter is ALIGNMENT
  • Healing: colitis/asthma all seeking peace from stress, hostility, fear, self preservation because I felt suffocated
  • Loved church (learning about God)
  • Loved chiropractic and how good it made my body feel, breathe easier
  • Loved to play not fight – why did others break my toys?
  • Loved the little old family cemetery—though little scary that was behind our neighbors house
  • Loved horses, cats, dogs
  • Loved driving, riding motorbikes
  • Deep thinker from talking more with adults than children when I was growing up
  • Loved to go down the street (escape home)*
  • Loved to play on the tracks / golf course, both opposite ends of my street*

*Wrote about this in First Friends

My Mission is unfolding

I’m noticing that a person’s mission can be different throughout life. I desire my mission to fulfill my purpose.

How?

Perhaps by doing all of the following:

  • Blogging
  • Writing books
  • Creating courses
  • Public speaking
  • Vlogging
  • Podcasting
  • Singing
  • Emceeing events

What’s a crazy thing I could do?

Put on a huge event showcasing ENERGY (Resonance Academy types, solar and off grid types, original music / songwriters, hand crafting artisans, storytellers, alchemists, holistic wellness practitioners, yogis, etc.)

What’s in my way?

What actions am I not taking?
What are my excuses?
What’s the real reason, belief that is holding me back?

Fear of Failure Fear of Success (I’ll have to quit my job, and my struggle is hugely tied to my education and career)

Fear of being told to “just get over yourself” (which I’ve already heard twice since starting to share my unapologetic truths), so guess I should just go BIG

Fear I don’t have a thick enough skin (because I’m so raw, empath)

Too old and not have enough energy

Fear of uncontrolled outcomes (like shock of spider, snake appearing on me)I can’t handle it (At the bottom of every fear)

Fear of upsetting those I love or who love me

What are the turnarounds?

Now, to TURN those around.

I have been successful in life.

I have failed, been scared, and risen from the ashes!

I have survived much worse than somebody’s judgement

I am continually growing my skin and participate in Empath Evolution and Women’s Soul Journey.

I’m wise and age is just a number. Look at all those older than me doing amazing things!

I don’t have to know how to handle every shocking event! Yet, I can handle it.

I will manage it (step by step).

We’re meant to do hard things.

Being unapologetic is freeing.

Who DO I think I am?

Look at what your ancestors struggled through to bring YOU into the world!! I acknowledge my ancestors DAILY

Don’t keep writing your future from your past. Write about the feelings of it, and then the details.

Lesson to grandchildren: I am
Let go of limiting beliefs Know power, strengths, Fears.

Who implanted these fears in me?

Stop fixing it – pop the DOING “bubbles“

Don’t sweat the small stuff

You and I are worthy

What’s bugging me?

Do something about it

Hang out with positive people!

Hang out with children

Hang out with older people

Ask them what they think, and listen! ❤️🦋🌀😘

What’s your vision?

Your core message to the world lights you up!

Transformation-hope-don’t give up

What do you think is stopping you?

Keynotes are different than aspiring free talks

What’s my vision?

My transferrable skills, credentials, spill over to this arena because I am a detective, scientist, tester, credible.

The vision of my future that fits in a picture frame.

Before accepting new commitments, look at my board and see if new opportunities align!!! Big one!! Especially after yesterday 6/14/21

What are my business commitments?

  • JOB (M-F 8am-4pm eastern)
  • Integrated Spiral: self-coaching program
  • Murrey Creations: Marketing our original music
  • Blogging
  • Primal Life Organics product tester reviewer

What are my personal commitments?

  • To myself, self care and spiritual growth/soul expansion
  • To my husband, without whom my life would lack richness
  • Video chats with granddaughters
  • Adult children and neighbors
  • Calls to family and friends
  • Community- herb garden and fruit trees

What are my Spiritual/Soul commitments?

To continue learning from and conversing with: Omniscience, Richard, Jennifer, Resonance Academy, Dr Joe Dispenza, Mindvalley, Abraham-Hicks, Neale Donald Walsch, Stephen Simon, Jerry, Alania, Patricia, Beverly, Doris, Amber, Michelle, Heatherhoney, Shelley, Patti, Elasa, Omaji, Queen-Kimmie, Sharon, Joanne, Jade, Alana, Guvinder, and more!

Hey, if you’d LOVE to talk about this, let’s open a popup room in my club on CLUBHOUSE!

Join me on Clubhouse! @SpiralSister

Link to the CLUBHOUSE club:

http://www.joinclubhouse.com/club/integrated-spiral

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

Follow me on Twitter at: TakeOnYourself

Time and Saying Goodbye

These are the kind of things many of us experience. I just happen to keep a diary of notes.

In my pages regarding, TIME I found these:

Time, time, TIME

May 26th, 2015

I said goodbye to my granddaughter, Jennie.

It was in this moment that I uncovered one of my first limiting beliefs.

I’d said, “grandma has to work” as I kissed Jennie’s face, arm and leg and said I will see you in two months when mommy brings you to WV.

But Jennie looked me in the eyes with such intent and said, “Come with us grand-ma” (yes, grand ma in two words). And it broke my heart because I also wanted to go with them. And as I said “Grandma has to work” it resonated deep within my body. Ugh!I I don’t want to have to work AND I never want to shut the car door for her and let her leave like that.

I wanted to tell her, “Jennie, you have more places to go and other people to see on your adventure!”

That was six years ago (as of this writing), and Jennie has called herself, Jennifer for several years. As well, I’ve only seen her a few times since then (with the average being once a year, except last year and this year when we chose not to travel). And I also have twin granddaughters I’d love to hug and hold before they start preschool in a couple months.

March 18th, 2016

“And birth is only the beginning. It is overwhelming sometimes to ponder how courageous and brave it is of each soul to agree to this carnal ride.

Oh, how bumpy and bizarre this ride! How curious this journey of becoming human. How mysterious and magical to be in a living, changing, growing, wonderful body!As an adult, we think we’re big enough, strong, and tough enough to survive, but we know the body and mind are fragile too.

Imagine when we are in the womb, how fragile, delicate, and vulnerable we are. Oh, how indescribable it must be!

So, let us all pray and meditate daily about how grateful we are to have been born–to be here! We are able to live, move, and have our being, while not every soul who desires and strives to be here, makes it. And lets be kind to our bodies, our children, and each other. For we are all blessed to be here, and in JOY the time we have on this magnificent planet.

Amen. Namaste. OM – Sheila Murrey

5 years later, on March 18th, 2021 I had an Aha moment about the preceding paragraph when I was going through about 500 writing “Notes” that I had on my iPhone (because yes, I write a LOT, I just don’t publish often due to my job and other commitments).

The Aha was realizing (seeing with REAL EYES), that I’d written that paragraph 3 years BEFORE my dad passed/crossed over, transitioned, or had his “Celebration Day” to the Grand Beyond, and on the DATE that he and I had planned to meet each other, which is another story in and of itself.

February 20th, 2017

Oh! One of the things I hate, is wasting TIME… and I feel like a lot of time has been wasted since Feb. 2020. But, here’s a list of things I was working on to find balance / forgiveness about in 2017:

  • Liars, manipulators, narcissists
  • DuPont, Monsanto/Bayer, Big Pharma
  • Big Oil, Fracking (use solar, wind, geothermal instead!! We do!)
  • Deforestation unless you are replanting trees — use bamboo instead!!
  • Rayon (grandmother poisoned by Viscose factory – they sold out to avoid lawsuits in the 60s/70s)
  • Polyester, Nylon, Patent leather.
  • Plastic (though some BPA free kinds are helpful when camping) (Stop using / stop buying new plastic. Clean up beaches. Watch the film Sonic Sea.)

I began to daily recognize that shit is a necessary fertilizer by which we grow, though it smells and I don’t always like it.

When any of these people, places, or circumstances come my way, I let it go as best I can to Limitless God, forgive them as they know not what they do.

I hold compassion for my imperfect self, because my reactive mind sometimes feel PTSD type sensations. So, I must feel and own my feelings. And sometimes respond somewhat harshly in the moment based on the previous impressions received and I don’t always quickly access my intellect.

There is only 3 ways to resolve any problem:

Accept it, Change it, or Avoid it.

When we visit in person again

I’ll show my granddaughters Qigong forms. And I teach them how to appreciate our time together vs feeling sad or upset that our time together feels so short.

We’ll play in the clothes I took to them from my mom (that my mom had saved in my grandmother’s cedar closet), and explain how they can wear them when they are teenagers.

And we’ll go to the Chaos and Kindness store and to Art Escape.

We will paint together and make things.

We’ll bounce on their trampoline together too! And we’ll camp, snuggle, color, and make jewelry together. 😉

We will cherish each moment of Presence.

We will figure out a way to bottle the smell of their hair. Because that’s one of the things I miss the most about not being with them. ❤️🦋🌀〰️

Why are we living during this challenging time?

For anyone wondering why they are living during this time,
“Did you think the Creator would create unnecessary people in a time of such terrible danger?”

Know that you yourself are essential to this world. Understand both the blessing and the burden of that. You yourself are desperately needed to save the soul of this world.

Did you think you were put here for something less?

In a Sacred Hoop of Life, there is no beginning and no ending.

Each of us is important and have a mission. Much love! ❤️

Hey, if you’d LOVE to talk about this, let’s open a popup room in my club on CLUBHOUSE!

Join me on Clubhouse! @SpiralSister

Link to the CLUBHOUSE club:

http://www.joinclubhouse.com/club/integrated-spiral

Many blessings to you in ALL ways. ❤️🦋🌀〰️

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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Book Review: What Dreams Have Come

Book Review: What Dreams Have Come

A beautiful soul-reaching, inspiring, reverent, vulnerable, and enlightening read!

What Dreams Have Come book cover

What Dreams Have Come is an excellent book! I read it within 24 hours, as it is highly engaging, elegantly, and lovingly written!

Intimately personal

Film producer, co-founder of the Spiritual Cinema Circle, and author, Stephen Simon, with his beloved wife Lauren (who gently crossed over to the Grand Beyond in her sleep), provides us ALL the opportunity to gain a sense of the “Other Side,” while welcoming us into their personal lives (by sharing the synchronicities of how they met, including family photos, and intricate details).

Over the years of seeing Stephen host the monthly DVD Spiritual Cinema Circle, we felt we had gotten to know him, personally. And he would often speak of Lauren and all the work she did for the Circle. We also felt Connected to Stephen and Lauren through their posts on Facebook. But never did I feel as privy to their innermost thoughts as I have sensed from reading this book. If eyes are the windows to the soul, then books such as these are doors to the heart.

Intertwining honor and love

Stephen and Lauren lovingly crafted a book rich in story that graciously includes the ways they honored and cared for each other (and continue to), as well as demonstrate the ways in which they highly value inclusivity (by bringing us in and honoring their family, neighbors and friends—including my favorite spiritual author).

Emotionally stirring

I cried, laughed, and yes, had jaw-drop moments while reading, What Dreams Have Come. I resonated with much of Stephen and Lauren’s candor and playfulness. (And not to give anything away, but my husband and I often recite our favorite movie lines to each other too!)

There were the touching moments of serendipity and synchronicity built into the way Stephen and Lauren met, and noted all the way through their marriage. The way they shared their pain and triumphs were inspiring to me.

I also really loved the end of the book—totally thrilling! And of course, this is not the end of a love and life together for the Simons.

UPDATE: Please listen to Stephen Simon’s interview with Allison Dubois: Interview

In summary

This book is soul-reaching, and deeply inspiring. It is reverent, vulnerable, and enlightening. I’m in awe of what Love can do—in ALL ways.

Pick up a copy

Buy it here. It is available as a paperback and on Kindle (so you can read on your smartphone).

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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Me – 42 years later

Me – 42 years later

Rewriting my 1978 poem

My 1978 poem, “Me.”

Now, that I’ve broken free from the drama of my youth;

Having learned what it means to heal and become whole;

And written, spoken and sang many times about all of that;

Having traveled through many of the states I’d dreamed of;

I’ve found myself, and continued to be:

Steeped in history;

Fascinated by my ancestry;

Serene near the ocean;

Entranced by magical trees;

Engaged with mystical rocks;

And mesmerized by waterfalls;

Raising children at the World’s Most Famous Beach, and lastly at the Jersey shore;

Enjoying the beach sand in summer,

The endless sway of the palm trees,

More than watching the games people play;

I’ve lived in the middle of the USA in the icy winter and visited snowy New England,

To usher in new technology and witness twin granddaughters birth;

I haven’t always been true to myself,

but I’ve experienced magnificence growth in ALL.

I’ve found excitement, romance, pain, and peace;

I’ve discovered that I’ve always been me, in ALL ways—whether happy or sad;

And I am thankful.

I am content.

I was me all along.

And I put all of me into my children, the good, the bad, and the beautiful;

My soul hasn’t changed much, but my mind and heart has expanded;

Widening my perception;

Deepening my compassion;

I’ve enhanced my understanding of so many things;

And calibrated back to balance;

To continue to bloom where I am planted.

Me – 42 years later.

Words

I have a passion for WORDS and Connecting people. In particular, I love speaking and writing about spiritual and consciousness raising topics, holistic wellness and simple healthy living. I am empathic, intuitive, compassionate, and kind, with a keen and unified wisdom about life.

Passion

Conversations surrounding emotional balance, moral ambiguities, and deep spiritual truths (such as We Are All Connected, and Put Your Hands Together When You Pray), are what Sheila is most passionate about. She feels a profound empathic Connection with people and what they’re going through by merely sharing her own truth, by speaking freely about her personal struggles and the challenges she continues to overcome. Sheila strives to ease lonelines, help those exiting toxic relationships, and to remind us all that we are stronger than we think we are, and that Everything Resolves to Gratitude in the end.

Let us serve you

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he is a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (of over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to all of his songs on http://RichardMurrey.com or check out his latest 24 songs here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC53E21F-JlTW2iQmPcEIWkQ

Here’s us: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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The Watch

The Watch

When my mother passed away, or as I believe, crossed over to the other side Beyond The Veil, I felt that I needed to find something of hers to hold, to sort of self soothe or comfort myself.

I remembered mom had given me a teal color gemstone pendant many years before. And I sought to find it.

I looked for the pendant several times. We live in an RV, so it isn’t like there are that many places where it could have been stored. I searched through all of my jewelry. But, I couldn’t find it. Maybe the thought to look for it was something put in my mind to keep me busy. I don’t know.

Instead of finding the pendant, I found my mom’s wrist watch and a very old pocket watch, which I think had belonged to my maternal grandfather.

Mom’s wristwatch and grandfather’s pocket watch. Also, a photo of my my aunt and my mom when they were very young.

When I brought both watches from the bedroom to the living room and sat down, the thought dropped into my mind that mom was telling me something: It was time. And that I was given both watches in case only finding one wouldn’t get the message across—and she then impressed upon me something only she could, “because you can be thick headed.”

Understanding this message from my mom, made me laugh a little and really lift the sadness I was feeling about her death.

My mother died in West Virginia. A state she had always loved. It took some time for us to travel from our Florida home to where my parents had been camping in their motorhome.

As soon as I pulled the car into the driveway in West Virginia, my dad greeted my husband and I and handed me the thin gold chain my mom had worn everyday for the last several years of her life. We hugged. And cried. And my papa was not a man to show tears.

Gold chain

I wear the gold chain daily that my papa handed to me when my husband and I arrived in West Virginia. And yes, I eventually found the teal pendant that my mom had given me. It had been in my jewelry box all along! But it had been wrapped up in a tangle of smaller chains and until I took the time to unravel the chains, I couldn’t see it. When I discovered the pendant, I was surprised and was certain this was another lesson from my mother.

Time with dad

While we were in West Virginia, my dad and I walked, talked, and appreciated ALL.

While walking through a nearby campground, that a long time friend of dad’s had owned, Papa told me about all the different kinds of trees there, which thrilled me, as I didn’t know dad knew all of the names of the trees in that area.

I told dad about the how I’d found the watches and asked if he knew who the pocket watch had belonged to, and he wasn’t sure. But dad also wore a wristwatch and always had. I never looked at the kind of watch dad was wearing.

Awhile later, papa found another one of mom’s wristwatches and gave it to me. It was one that the face was in a heart shape and had little footprints 👣 inside. It symbolized the story of “footprints in the sand.” And I recalled mom wearing that watch for many years.

All four watches

21 months after my mom passed away, I received dad’s personal effects from the funeral home, and low and behold, dad’s watch had a blue face (when the light shines on the face the blue looks different). Looking at dad’s watch, brings my mind right back to the story I wrote as, That Little Blue Dot. I instantly tune to the knowing that, mom, dad, and my unborn siblings (in particular, Christina), are ALL together.

While driving the little car I inherited from dad and mom, I placed each of their watches on the shifter to always keep them with me, and to honor them.

I recall sitting in dad and mom’s little Hyundai (about a year later), and thinking how mom had always wanted to give me a car. She talked about that often. Mom had not wanted me to have to work at age fifteen to buy a car, or make so many car payments over the years.

So, in one clear, mystic moment, I said, “Thank you.” Thank you mama and papa for leaving me your little car. Thank you for Everything.

Growth transcends Time

I observe only growth, and note how each item of Omnipotent God’s creation grows at differing rates of speed, be it bird 🐦, bee 🐝, or me. Growth transcends Time.

Time with mom

I share spiritual moments with my mama still. When my heart is open. When I am washing pots and pans she gave me years before she died. When we use the stoneware she gave me. When I drink from the crystal glasses she left behind.

My heart is full. We are all connected. We are all one. Gratitude envelopes me. I resonate with ALL of this knowing. Eternal. No time. Everything happens as it should, and mostly for reasons that mostly only later dawn. ❤️🦋🌀🙏☀️💦🌱☮️

Read That Little Blue Dot here: https://sheilamurrey.net/2017/04/26/that-little-blue-dot/

Read Lessons here: https://sheilamurrey.net/2018/11/12/lessons-from-mom/

Read mom’s eulogy here: https://sheilamurrey.net/2017/07/03/eulogy-for-my-loving-mother-betty-ann-williams/

Read dad’s eulogy here: https://sheilamurrey.net/2019/03/21/eulogy-for-my-amazing-father-nelson-williams/

A bit about us:

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he is a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (of over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to all of his songs on http://RichardMurrey.com or check out his latest 24 songs here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC53E21F-JlTW2iQmPcEIWkQ

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

Follow me on Twitter at: TakeOnYourself

Walking in another’s shoes and waiting on the sun

Walking in another’s shoes and waiting on the sun

Is it possible to walk in another’s shoes? Really? To see and even begin to understand another’s plight or their perspective on life?

I’ve tried on used shoes before and they hurt! Physically, they can throw your spine out of alignment too. But a whole lot of us are trying to understand our brothers and sisters pain right now, because we innately know, We Are All Connected.

How can you see life through the lens of another’s experience?

We must access knowledge. How do we gain insight when we can’t trust the media or mainstream narrative? We can watch and listen to those we know. We can open our hearts and minds to those we meet. But we still may find ourselves upset and off balance.

Ethnicity

I am of English, Irish, Dutch, German, and Native American lineage (Cherokee tribe).

And my grandmother was persecuted for being Native American. But, though I remember a few of her stories, I didn’t live her life. I only got the few stories that she chose to share with me. I was 18 years old when she died, and I as only really ever interested in her stories during the last few years of her life, because I was focused on being a teenager.

We all bleed the same color.

Humanity trumps race

A friend of mine has called for all of us to check the box: Other —and write in HUMAN, whenever we have to fill in ANY form that asks us for our race and ethnicity.

Are you willing to do that?

I am.

I consider myself a mixed bag anyway, and have never thought of myself as “privileged” because I have worked (since I was 15), for everything I have ever had (even putting myself through college, putting braces on my teeth, etc.).

Brutality

As I mentioned, my maternal grandmother told me stories about how she and her Native American ancestors were persecuted—some of her elders had been forced to walk the Trail of Tears.

I have a book about the Trail of Tears and haven’t even been able to read it—yet. As I recall, I had nightmares from watching Roots when I was young.

We don’t watch TV, but I see headlines when I log into web applications for my work. And on breaks, I see stuff on Facebook. But, as an empath, I have known for several years that if I am not careful, I can easily get sucked into other’s drama, because I always feel that I can help ease their pain–somehow. (See my 2016 article: https://sheilamurrey.net/2016/03/08/walking-more-than-a-mile-in-anothers-moccasins/

Does the color of my complexion, mean my pain doesn’t matter?

Everybody hurts

I have been bullied, lied to, cheated on, yelled at, cursed at, gaslighted (way before I ever knew what that was), left alone to fend for myself and my two children (when they were young), raped twice, betrayed, abused, kicked, shot at, had my car taken away while I was at work left with no way home, had my ex sneak his way into my office screaming for me to come home, and thrown out of our house (all our belongings on the driveway)! So, I can very much relate with agony and PAIN!

Is that what you want to hear? To see?

I RISE!

With every fiber of my BEing, I take it upon myself to RISE!

I alone am personally responsible for how I feel, and how I respond. I have mastered being quiet. Now, I need to speak!

I believe we can all RISE together—if you are willing to put forth some effort (and acknowledging that your level of effort may differ from mine and that’s okay)! I am all about personal responsibility. I hold myself, thoughts, words, and actions to a higher standard. And always here in ALL ways to offer a hand UP.

Complaining and Protesting

I learned years ago, that protesting, as certain people and groups are currently doing in cities across America, would never feel good to ME because I am a peacemaker by nature and by what life has taught me to be.

Years ago, I tried to take part in a march against Monsanto. And I tell you, I was fired up and READY to march. But, I felt the Energy shift in me when I arrived on the scene. I saw some hypocrisy among the organizers. And I saw the money being made. I felt my emotions had been hijacked, so I left. I remember distinctly making a conscious choice to leave and not sew any seeds of discord. I chose to never use any chemical product of any sort again. I chose to become more connected with my food and what I put in and on my body (See my Being Wholly Vibrant blog.)

Discord

Now, I realize there is a time for Everything. I do not have my head in the sand.

I had to sit with a situation that disturbed me this week. And then, I asked the Universe why it had to happen THIS week because our generator quit, we live off grid, and only have the SUN to supply our power needs. Plus, we aren’t receiving much sunshine all week due to a tropical storm in the gulf! Frayed nerves!

I just had to sit and receive what I could learn from it. And remember to activate my faith.

Remembering lessons

  • I always have the power of choice and can choose to balance my emotions
  • Complaining adds to the discord and never makes me feel good
  • Judgment keeps me sitting and spinning in repeating patterns
  • Not my circus, not my monkeys (though this week it WAS my circus!) LOL
  • I’d rather laugh than cry!
  • We are going with the FLOW of nature, and wanted that so much!
  • No one can FIX anyone else
  • It is an inside job
  • Only I can manage my own Energy
  • I wanted to be one with the earth (now, hoping more above it than below it!)
  • I know everything happens for a reason
  • I know Everything Resolves to Gratitude

As of today, going through what I have, I now know that I am more of a Creator, than a Destroyer.

Last night was a full moon. I took some time to hold ceremony outside, though I could not see the moon for the full cloudy sky.

I remembered cutting the cords of repeating patterns three years ago, but here we go again. And it’s okay.

Energetically, I cut the cords of all of our karmic and ancestral wounds for my granddaughters and the generations to come. No curse remains.

Here and now I state, my grandchildren will not have to take any historical family burdens upon themselves. They can be self-filled. Self-motivated. They can help others as they choose. Free spirits! They can care for themselves first, without guilt. They can choose to do what they love! They do not have to repeat the sins of their parents, or of mine. They do not need to try and figure anything out. The past is the past and it is abSOULutely done.

I continue to sail on this ship of fools. And it’s ALL okay. Everything is in motion.

To find my feet upon this beautiful earth, I keep repeating: BE HERE NOW.

At some point, in the spiral of time, humanity will learn to appreciate, honor, and even revere, the CONTRAST that brings about Creation.

I am human. I am imperfect. I am empowered. I am free. I am LOVE.
❤️🦋🌀🙏☀️🌱

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

Be the best version of who you want to be

Information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

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The truth lies somewhere in between

Truth lies somewhere in between

Arguing and bickering

Some people seem to thrive on arguing. I’m thinking in particular of lawyers, couples in tumultuous relationships, and those who always stir up or fuel discord on Facebook (and other social media).

My dad would often tell my mom to, “Change the subject.” And then he would change it!

I don’t think dad really ever liked arguing with my mom, though they constantly bickered. And all of that lead to my awareness that, “The truth lies somewhere in between.” And “It takes two to fight.”

Yet, it took me decades to learn that one of the two in an argument simply needs to STOP FIGHTING (in essence, release the resistance), to end the argument.

Yes, though my parents loved each other passionately, their love was not unconditional. Through watching them, I learned all about conditional love. So, how could I know what true love was?

Observations of parts

I observed, during a Bible class I participated in a few years ago, that some attendees argued more about specifics, like healthcare and sexism as related to Trump. I had to keep pulling people up to the macro general level and why we were there.

I seemed to only see the downside to love growing up in a dysfunctional family. I never thought anyone got it right. And then later, when I fell in love (or what I thought was love), I perpetuated the toxic cycle.

Truth lies somewhere in between

Which part am I?

  • I am not my body
  • I am not my mind
  • I am more than the sum total of my collective experience

I can list my likes and attributes, but you may still have a better idea of who I am, than I will ever have.

As my adult children and I have recounted stories from their youth, they certainly saw a different side of me than I self witnessed. The same must be true of how I viewed my parents volatile relationship.

Examining my characteristics

  • I am honest
  • I am sensitive
  • I am empathic; sometimes intuitive
  • I love deeply
  • I am resilient
  • I have fought tough relationship battles that might have wrecked others
  • I am a loyal friend (and keeper of secrets)
  • I allow my feelings to be hurt (and sometimes become resentful, until I become fully aware that I allowed my feelings to be hurt).
  • I hold stuff in (I say it is to “protect” others and spare them from having to observe it or get involved—but is that really true?)
  • I have been a codependent (but does one ever really heal from codependency?)

I don’t want to hold stuff inside, but anytime I get mad or speak my mind it pisses other people off.

I struggle with people pleasing. Or people not listening to me. I never saw my mom get too far when she argued with dad or others, so I decided early to forgo the arguments. Or so I thought! Both my first and second husbands argued with me. Ugh. And my children were witnesses to so much of that—and I hate that!

Learning from the lessons

Whenever I am emotionally triggered, I read this:

I never like to be disrespected, bullied, or have my intelligence questioned, or be treated less than I am! But I know I’m not always right. As well, others, no matter how well or how long they have known me, don’t know all of my thoughts, wishes, or desires, and that I strive to always respect others and show kindness if nothing else. I know many people are hurting, sad, mad, over or under medicated, or are hungry for love. And I realize no one knows Everything—not yet.

❤️🦋🌀🙏😉

What to do?

  • I am too analytical to blindly follow
  • I am independent
  • I am curious and always seeking
  • I can focus on the positives

I have some clairsentience and clairaudience abilities, though not tuned specifically to aid others. Perhaps I will offer these senses and abilities more of my time.

Fight to feel better

…When you feel bad nothing works. You labor to get out of bed. You stub your toe on a table that has never moved and you’ve known for years where it is. You lose your car keys, glasses, or phone. Walk around with a big old frown on your face and you know it drives people away from you. You’re fighting with yourself about something. Let go of whatever you’re resisting and your day will improve.

From my book, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life!

Be as water

I love the water (but looking at it, or walking along the shore more than swimming in it–though I love to float!)

Water doesn’t fight with itself. Or does it?

Water rages. Water flows. Water falls. Water is still.

I will EXPLORE more ways to be like water!

Yes!

I will find my own balance.

I will find my own level.

I will start by reminding myself that the truth lies somewhere in between. I will not judge by what I see in the mirror, but simply point out the many facets of truth, per the mirror disco ball.

As Scott Buck, a writer on both Six Feet Under and Dexter series dramas often made a foundational point of saying, “We never really know a person.”

I like to compare our personalities to facets inside a kaleidoscope or disco ball. We reflect what we see or imagine others to be.
❤️🦋🌀

Even racists can be kind. And I am about over all the hate from the other side. ❤️🦋🌀

A bit about me, your Spiral Sister

I would love to speak at your bookstore, crystal shop, acupuncture / chiropractor office, or other holistic / natural fair or festival. I support healthy lifestyle businesses. For information on both of my books, visit my Amazon author’s page — Click here.

An Amazon bestselling author of two co-authored books: “Transform Your Life Book 2 Inspirational Stories and Expert Advice” and “Energy of Receiving”, available on Amazon. 

Plus, my holistic health book that details how I naturally reversed asthma, Take It Upon Yourself to Live a Wholly Vibrant Life, is available now. Buy it here

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