Nighttime thoughts: Reflections on mortality and our Connections


As I was falling asleep a few nights ago, I caught myself pondering on a question. What happens to our atoms, molecules, and photons of light (that each of us are made of) after we die? Do we dissipate or dissolve?

In particular I was musing on what happens to our earthly shell (if one is blown up or depart this earth in some other way where there’s not much left of the body). I thought about cremation. And I considered how our earthly bodies must slowly disintegrate when we’re buried in the earth.

I grabbed my phone, turned the Otter app on, and let it transcribe these seemingly profound thoughts for me. I’d never had thoughts quite like these before, though I did think about mortality a lot after my mom passed in 2017 and my dad passed in 2019. We even wrote a song several years ago on this topic called, The Connection.

Hear The Connection at: https://youtu.be/SqdrU8vM28s?si=ZiViQtA46ddgtHlQ

We’ve performed The Connection Live too (back when we lived off the grid and my son had shaved my head: https://vimeo.com/416782385 is the song, and this was my little intro to the song: https://vimeo.com/416781395

Perhaps, back in 2004 when I heard those words in the middle of the night, We Are All Connected, it was my body talking to me (and that every cell in my body was connected with Richard)!

That the voice I’d heard was somehow uttered back to me? Because Richard and I had been on vacation, and we had experienced such a beautiful night together. I don’t know. But I remember that I felt complete. Whole. And that night was definitely one of the best nights of our life together, yet it was only the beginning!

Continuing on the whole topic of Connection (and possibly the afterlife), Richard also wrote a song recently called, Upload me. I love it! You can hear it at: https://youtu.be/4_hnGJArchM?si=vp5jeQhjNn-hkxwv

And here’s one of my dance/music videos using this song, Upload me: https://youtu.be/ipNeeBtcY_8?si=VWb82jyIO5VE1V2m

Reason for these meandering thoughts

I’m currently editing my 5th book, We Are All Connected. I was hoping to have the manuscript done by now (mid-February 2026), but I think I need a few more weeks. I keep waking up late at night with an idea of how to explain something better, or run chapters back through AI to ensure I haven’t forgotten something. I am using AI to help me reduce the size of the book. You all know how wordy I am. Ha!

I’ve sure written a lot about our ‘connections’:


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Aspects of The Trinity: Where did God come from? (A series extra)

This is one of the best answers I’ve heard to this question,

Where did God come from?

I’m adding this as an extra to the Trinity series, as this man’s answer speaks to the Trinity.

I LOVE THIS!!! I love this so much that I’m adding this YouTube link to my book now too! Yes, I commented on the YouTube video as well!

As you know, I relate to an ever-living, infinite, limitless, Omniscience God that doesn’t need me to explain or defend its existence or Presence! Woo-hoo! OM

An extra to the series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Aspects of The Trinity: The Triangle and The Mother (A series extra)

The following is an “extra” to the 9-part series on The Trinity, while wrapping up our book study of the Theosophy book, The Masters and The Path. The answers come from Perplexity.ai –and while I typically use several different AI platforms, I used this one for these two questions solely because it is the one I use the most in my Theosophical studies and so it already “knows” the context for the questions.

Our Theosophical Society book study leader asked us to pose a couple of questions using AI to further our study. This was the first question:

What is the importance of the triangle?

The triangle is important both physically and symbolically because it is the simplest structure that creates real stability and a complete relationship of three.

In geometry and engineering

  • A triangle is the only polygon that is inherently rigid: once its three sides are fixed, its shape cannot change without changing side lengths.
  • When a load hits one corner, forces are distributed as compression along two sides and tension along the third, giving exceptional stability; this is why trusses, bridges, and roof frames are full of triangles.
  • Because of this, triangles are often called the strongest or most stable basic shape in structural design and appear everywhere from ancient pyramids to modern skyscraper frameworks.

In spirituality and symbolism

  • Across traditions, the triangle often stands for a trinity: body–mind–spirit, past–present–future, heaven–earth–human, or Father–Son–Holy Spirit in Christian thought.
  • An upward‑pointing triangle is commonly linked with fire, ascent, and masculine/active energy, while a downward‑pointing one is linked with water, descent, and feminine/receptive energy; interlaced triangles symbolize the union of these polarities.
  • In sacred geometry, the triangle expresses how three distinct points form one inseparable whole, making it a symbol of integration, transformation, and the bridge between unity (One) and multiplicity (Many).

The next question we were asked to use AI to answer was this:

Tell me about World-Mother.

“World‑Mother” is a name for the cosmic Mother principle—the feminine source of life that births, nourishes, and comforts the whole world, not just an individual or a nation.

As goddess and archetype

  • In many traditions she appears as the Great Mother / Earth Mother: Gaia, Terra, Pachamama, Demeter, Isis, and similar figures who embody the living Earth and the cycles of creation, nourishment, decay, and renewal.
  • She represents the origin and ground of life itself—both matter and spirit arise in her, are sustained by her, and eventually return to her, like all beings returning to the womb of the Earth.

In Theosophy and esoteric teachings

  • Theosophical writers use World‑Mother as a specific title for a great spiritual Being associated with the feminine aspect of the Logos, part of the “Inner Government of the World.”
  • She is described as a mighty angelic or devic presence whose work is to comfort, console, and mitigate suffering—a universal Comforter and Helper for those in pain or adversity.
  • Theosophists see her reflected in many names: Virgin Mary, Jagat‑Amba (“Mother of the World” in India), Kwan‑Yin in China, and other forms of the compassionate Divine Feminine.

As Divine Feminine / universal Mother

  • Mystical and comparative traditions speak of a World‑Mother principle rather than a single deity: the Divine Feminine as the matrix from which heaven and earth arise.
  • Taoist readings, for example, describe the Tao as “the mother of Heaven and Earth,” an impersonal yet deeply maternal source from which all things are born and to which they return.
  • Psychologically, this is the Earth Mother / Great Mother archetype—a pattern in the psyche that encodes safety, belonging, nourishment, and the awe of nature’s power to both give and take life.

For your work, you can treat “World‑Mother” as the planetary and cosmic face of the Divine Feminine—the presence that holds all beings, all ancestries, and even all worlds in one vast, living field of care.

An extra to the series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Movie Review: One Battle After Another

I’m thankful the filmmaker, Paul Thomas Anderson, wanted One Battle After Another to be a dark-comedy because I was sure laughing within the first few minutes of this flick! Oh, geez! Yes, spoiler alert (well, not too much of one), this movie is so intense!

Now, I’m a huge fan of both Leonardo DiCaprio and Benicio del Toro, so this movie has been on my ‘must see’ list since it released, but other than Wicked, I wasn’t going to go trek out to the theatre. Luckily, the family added us to their HBO account so hubby and I could see this. But wow! We were NOT ready for the ridiculous discordant jazz that ran throughout most of it! Yes, I know the soundtrack is meant to create tone and layers, tension and release, but it made me super anxious and annoyed at the same time! I want to watch it again with closed captioning and MUTE on! Seriously!

Otherwise, the rest of the songs used in the movie soundtrack were good, some even great. Use of the nostalgic songs such as, “Dirty Work” by Steely Dan (which, was my favorite and will stick with me for a long time), “Soldier Boy” from The Shirelles, “Eye of the Tiger” by Survivor, “Ready Or Not Here I Come (Can’t Hide From Love)” from The Jackson 5, and “American Girl” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers, were great additions–and certainly brought relief from that terrible jazz. Well, I could have done without “Eye of the Tiger” since it’s so over played in film. But you get the idea. Jonny Greenwood (from Radiohead) really messed up the movie in my humble opinion. And this is why music is sooo subjective! Then again, Jonny is a risk taker I suppose.

Benicio made a GREAT sensei and helper to Leo in the movie and I was happy to see the two act together. But there’s at least one scene where Leo is running and his legs are so skinny! He looks like a little girl! I laughed at that one, and felt like they shot it in a way that made him purposefully look silly. Sorry Leo! As for star power, all the acting in ‘Battle’ was impressive. Sean Penn was a surprise right from the beginning of his performance. You’ve gotta see it to get what I’m referencing here. And talk about moral ambiguity. Sean’s character certainly brought THAT! I had flashbacks while watching Sean’s colonel antics to David Walliams gun-loving instructor in the Little Britain skits! Hilarious!

Anyway, a few scenes were let down’s like when the daughter is found in the nunnery. But overall this was a funny romp and not a waste of time. It shed a bit of light on an otherwise sad tale of revolutionary types. And with what all that’s been going on in Minnesota lately, it seems timely. It may get your rebel juices flowing.

February begins

Our son-in-law (SIL) added us to their HBO family account, which is how we watched One Battle After Another. I’d hoped Don’t Look Up would be on there too, as I’d been waiting a good while to see it, but I didn’t find it there. If anyone knows where I can watch that, let me know in the comments please. I’m a huge Leonardo DiCaprio fan, so there’s that. Years ago, my daughter and I went to see Gangs of New York in the theatre because we love him so much, and that’s saying a lot because neither of us like blood and gore in movies!

Of course, I guess I got over my disdain of blood and gore because I’m finally getting to finish Stranger Things, thanks to my son sharing his Netflix account with me! Ha! I’d never seen season 4, so I’m watching it currently in order to see the final season. Season 5. It’s had me glued to my chair! I love all of the characters and all the 80s stuff… they even had a hanging glass lamp (though in a different color) as my parents had and that my son had kept and had hung in our outdoor kitchen when we lived on his off grid property in Florida a few years ago!

I’m starting to feel a little better too, thanks to some wonderful nerve tinctures a soulie-sister friend formulated for me and shipped to me from Florida. I can’t thank her enough! If she’s going to sell them on her website I’ll write a separate article on that with a link. I hope she will sell them because WOW! It was sure an answer to prayer for me! And I know my son and at least a couple friends will want to give these a try. Here’s the brief note I wrote on Substack about the tinctures:

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Finished Sons of Anarchy

Hubby and I finished watching the older TV series, Sons of Anarchy. And OMG we couldn’t believe how IT ended! Ugh. Sad. Suspense. Brutal. It will live with me for a while. I was so glad Gemma saw her dad again, but Jax!

Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Integrating the Spirals: Cognitive Biases

I happened upon this chart the other day and it got me thinking about all the ways in which, I do or do not challenge my own cognitive biases. I know I challenge my thinking often, but I see from this chart that I have more to work on. Even reading over the chart got my dander up a bit! Ha!

For example, I don’t think I have Anchoring Bias. I get too much information from too many sources, and have always been inquisitive, so maybe I was guilty of this when I was young, but certainly by the time I was in my thirties, I am pretty sure I’ve conquered this, IF it actually exists. I’ve always never heard of Sunk Cost Fallacy before, however, I have always been one to say, “I don’t want to throw away good money after bad.” Apparently my frugal mother taught me the value of dollar at a young age, so much so, that I’ve just never had an issue with continuing to waste money on things that offer no value to me. And I don’t conceptually believe we should continue going to war just because we previously lost X number of soldiers lives over a particular cause/issue.

Let me know which ones you do/don’t believe in or do/don’t take issue with in the comments. I’m curious.

How our January is wrapping up

Our son-in-law (SIL) tells us this is actually are first REAL winter in New England, because last winter was mild. We’re supposed to be in the negative (below zero) temps for our lows for about the next week to ten days, AND get up to two feet of snow, beginning this afternoon. We ARE now using our electric blanket on the bed!

As well, SIL came over yesterday and covered one of our windows (I kept feeling a breeze) that is behind our bed (where a head board would be). The insulation taped up to the window has really helped lock the cold air OUT. Whew! And the liquor store got my favorite Irish Whiskey back in stock, Paddy’s! So, yes, I’m having a 2-3oz pour in a crystal glass each night, especially since dealing with this silly compression in my shoulder blade. (And that radiates pain all the way down my right arm to my fingers! Ugh.)

My JIGGLE BUTT videos are on hold for now, until the nerve pain goes away. I can’t risk doing any dancing because it could aggravate this situation more. I didn’t fall or twist anything, this pain just hit me one day, seemingly “out of nowhere.” My chiropractor said these things add up though, until one day the smallest thing, even sleeping the wrong way, carrying in the groceries, etc. “breaks the camel’s back,” so to say.

I did post three video shorts yesterday just to update everyone after the chiropractor worked on me. Here are the links to those if you haven’t already subscribed to my YouTube channel (and why haven’t you?):

Short #1 where I show the exercise / stretch he suggested I do 4 times daily

Short #2 where I show the massager that’s helped ease the nerve pain so I could sleep

Short #3 where I show the topical joint and tendon oil that has eased some of the nerve pain

Eleven minute video where I talk about the pain and where it is, etc.

What we’re watching (real and unreal)

My daughter had told me many times how good the TV series, Sons of Anarchy, was. And since we get it now on Hulu via Disney that our son-in-law pays for, we’ve been watching it. We are on season 6 now. I don’t know how the series will end, but I have a feeling the character called, Jax (short for Jackson), will live, or at least his wife Tara and their children will live. So many characters have already died in one way or another. It’s been a very dramatic show. My husband had never wanted to watch it since it’s about biker gangs/clubs, but he’s now okay with it. He quit watching for a while in season 2 and I continued on my own, but he finally asked to watch again with me, so here we are. Ha!

I also did some research on Katy Sagal when I noticed several Sagal last names in the credits. I didn’t know that one of Katy’s sisters, Liz (who is a twin), is one of the writers of the show. And that McNally (another sister) plays the hospital administrator character. Nor did I know that Katy is married to Kurt Sutter, who is the show’s creator and executive producer! This is why it’s great to be able to deep dive into who plays which character on IMDB.com. We love Walton Goggins (from The Shield, Justified, and Fallout) and we were totally shocked to see him dress in drag in a few episodes of SoA. The body suits they can put actors in are incredibly real looking!

Speaking of what we’re watching, what is up with people taking other people’s YouTube videos and using AI make a completely NEW video of them? It feels like theft and forgery to me! And I don’t like it! My daughter says AI has ruined YouTube “Fail” videos for her because she doesn’t believe any of them are real anymore. Ugh. One of the independent journalists we follow has someone creating fake AI videos of him. They use his likeness and voice so it even fooled us for the first few minutes! Later, we saw one of his real videos and he mentioned the fake one and said he’s been trying to get YouTube to take down the fake channel. Man! That can really distract people from his real channel and impact his YouTube income, and income from the merch he sells! It’s just not right, I tell ya!

Have you experienced the deep fakes / AI image and voice videos of people you’ve followed on YouTube? Let me know what you think in the comments.

Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Nighttime thoughts: What if every one of those Trinity avatars were Jesus?


What if they were all Jesus?

The Vishnu, Buddha, etc.?

What if we don’t have to pick just one? But pick one indeed?

Reason for these meandering thoughts

Well, we very recently finished the 9-part series here on the Aspects of the Trinity: https://sheilamurrey.net/2026/01/12/aspects-of-the-trinity-the-basis-of-the-series/

And during this series, we looked at how a variety of religions (or schools of thought) looked at The Trinity or how a trinity of higher beings showed up within them.

We can always learn something more when we deeply consider divergent ideas. I just learned snow isn’t white, this morning. Yesterday, I would have said someone was lying if they told me snow wasn’t white. So, there you go. With new information comes a new way of perceiving.

Now, each of us have a choice. Who and what to believe. But what happens when life experience shows you that something you deeply believed in was wrong?

Pain.

Pain when a friend, relative, spouse, or other trusted person whom you believed in above all others, betrays or abandons you.

So, wouldn’t it be a great life skill to learn how to deal with that?

I think that’s what I’m driving at in most of my blog here. Offering us tools to live a more whole, vibrant, and resilient life. Religion is a big part of that, because the size of our God (or gods) says a lot about how powerful each of us CAN feel, whether we can create a successful and joyful life, whether we can heal our bodies, and whether we can thrive–or not.

I believe in an Omniscience God and that we can do anything we set our mind to–this empowers me. I don’t limit my abilities to heal my body. I believe I can create a successful and joyful life. I believe we can thrive–together!


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Money and Fame: Charlie Sheen (Reviewing his memoir book)

I bought the audio version of Charlie’s new book, “The Book of Sheen: A Memoir” for myself and Richard for Christmas. While the book wasn’t everything we’d hoped for (because of some of the things he left out), Charlie narrated the book and had us laughing at least a couple of times during nearly every chapter. And that’s entertainment enough from the Platoon, Wall Street, Ferris Bueller, Two and a Half Men, and Anger Management actor (and one of two famous actor sons of Martin Sheen).

Charlie offers a fairly unvarnished account of his Hollywood career, in chronilogical order by year and movie (and TV series), his drug and alcohol fueled wild lifestyle, in and out of rehab drug addiction (especially crack cocaine), and marital difficulties. But along the way, Charlie recounts his many paths to sobriety, and the by the end, the birth and love for his children. He discussed a few of his famous friends (Chris Penn, Chad Lowe, and Nicholas Cage), those stories were probably worth the read alone. And as well, we get a glimpse into the high life and personal battles a celebrity encounters when it comes to sex addiction and financial extortion that ensues. In particular I smiled when Charlie discussed how he came to know the notorious Heidi Fleiss, The Hollywood Madame.

The book was fast paced. Richard and I would listen to two to four chapters a night. Charlie read fast while providing the best narration (unless that was the editing), and he impressed us with his acumen and use of the English language (Props to his writing skills for sure). It surprised me to learn he’d ever had an issue with stuttering. I guess it goes to figure, not everyone who makes it big for speaking/acting can speak perfectly. Note: I provide a link to a recent interview of Charlie and Tucker Carlson at the end of this review, and you’ll note Charlie does stutter several times during that. To me, it just makes Charlie more human and relatable–no one should feel “less than” for stuttering.

Richard and I found Charlie’s memoir quite the entertaining read, though at times it felt more like Charlie was baring his soul than offering a book for his fans. By that I mean, I don’t think he was asking, “What would my fans want to hear from me”? I think he’d kept notes during times of his life where he wrestled with bigger questions. He certainly seems to be a deep thinker, especially on the subjects he discusses in the Tucker interview. His book recounts times of partying and yes, he names several people, though after naming them, he uses initials and one just has to keep following along.

We didn’t know Testosterone (excessive amounts) could do such things to a person. Wow, Charlie!

I didn’t need to know the names of many of the girls Charlie kept company with / slept with, but maybe he wanted to give them credit. Or perhaps Charlie was bragging a bit too, but I’m not a guy so I didn’t take it that way. Richard didn’t seem to mind Charlie’s recollections. LOL At least Charlie gave his ex-wives credit too, for all they tried to do to help him and all the help they continue to give to their shared children.

We both really appreciated all the love and care Charlie took at the beginning of the book to explain his parents’ backgrounds and even speak about his dad’s career. My mom and dad always liked Martin Sheen’s movies.

I had hoped to hear more in the book about Charlie’s performance in Major League, one of my favorite Charlie movies, especially since he was such a great baseball player and fan of the sport. Even Google has this to say about Charlie’s baseball past, “Charlie Sheen’s baseball connection involves playing high school ball, famously portraying pitcher Ricky “Wild Thing” Vaughn in Major League, his deep fandom for the Cincinnati Reds, and a notable obsession with collecting priceless MLB memorabilia, including the infamous “Mookie Ball” from the 1986 World Series, plus once buying thousands of seats at an Angels game hoping to catch a home run.”

Richard had hoped Charlie would mention driving out to Reno in his Testarossa with a stopover at Whiskey Creek in Bishop, CA. At least Richard got to meet Charlie back then. Probably in between one of many rehab visits of Charlie’s. And for the record, we’re very happy that Charlie finally got clean and has stayed clean for, as of now, 8 years.

Charlie on Tucker

Charlie had us laughing even while discussing his book with Tucker Carlson: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2T5ZNdsQrU


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

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Aspects of The Trinity: Christian View (Part 9 of a series)

Here’s Part 9 and the final post in this fascinating series on The Trinity, a journey I embarked upon while reading the Theosophy book, The Masters and The Path.

In Christian doctrine, the Trinity is one God in three distinct persons: FatherSon, and Holy Spirit, all fully and equally God yet personally distinct. The Holy Spirit is not formally identified as feminine in the Bible, but some biblical language (especially Hebrew “Spirit” as ruach) is grammatically feminine, and Christian tradition gives Mary a strong “Divine Mother” symbolism while still clearly distinguishing her from the Trinity.​

Father, Son and Holy Spirit

  • The Father: The unoriginate source within the Godhead, who “begets” the Son and, with the Son, is origin of the Spirit; associated with creating and willing the plan of salvation.​
  • The Son (Jesus Christ): Eternally begotten of the Father, consubstantial with him, who becomes incarnate as true God and true man to reveal God and accomplish redemption by his life, death, and resurrection.​
  • The Holy Spirit: The third person, proceeding from the Father (and, in Western theology, from the Father and the Son), who indwells believers, gives life, sanctifies, and guides the Church.​

Is the Holy Spirit “feminine” in Scripture?

  • In the Old Testament, the main word for “spirit” is Hebrew ruach, which is grammatically feminine, so passages about the Spirit of God sometimes use a feminine noun, though this reflects grammar rather than a defined female “person” in later doctrine.
  • In the New Testament, Greek pneuma (“Spirit”) is grammatically neuter, and mainstream Christian theology treats God as beyond human gender while still typically retaining masculine pronouns for Father and Son and a mix of images (some maternal) for God and the Spirit.​

Mary and “Divine Motherhood”

  • The Church (especially Catholic and Orthodox traditions) calls Mary Mother of God (Theotokos), not because she precedes or “creates” the divine nature, but because the one she bore is truly God the Son incarnate.
  • She is richly honored with maternal titles such as “Blessed Virgin,” “Universal Mother,” “Queen of Angels,” “Queen of Heaven,” and “Star of the Sea” (Stella Maris), expressing her spiritual motherhood of believers and her intercessory role, yet she is explicitly not counted as a fourth divine person or as a member of the Trinity.​

Marian imagery and the “Divine Feminine”

Official doctrine, however, keeps a clear boundary: the persons of the Trinity are Father, Son, and Holy Spirit alone, whereas Mary is a uniquely graced human being and Mother of Jesus, honored above all saints but always as a creature, not as a divine hypostasis.

Many Christians experience Mary as an icon of the Divine Motherhood of God: a human, creaturely reflection of the nurturing, protective, and compassionate aspects of God’s love, which some theologians also associate symbolically with the action of the Spirit.​

Part 9 and final post of a series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Aspects of The Trinity: Hindu Trimurti (Part 8 of a series)

Here’s Part 8 as I wind down this series on The Trinity, a rabbit hole I decided to explore from a Zoom book club I’m part of that’s been reading the Theosophy book, The Masters and The Path.

In Hindu thought, Shiva, Vishnu, and Brahma form the Trimurti, a threefold expression of the one ultimate reality (Brahman), but they are not a “Trinity” in the same sense as the Christian doctrine of three co‑equal persons in one God. The Trimurti instead symbolizes three cosmic functions—creation, preservation, and destruction/transforming—that work together in a single, cyclical process.​

Who Brahma Is

  • Brahma is the creator aspect: he represents the power through which the universe and living beings come into manifestation.​
  • In many traditions he is understood as one “form” or mode of Brahman, responsible for the initiating, imaginative, and knowledge‑oriented side of reality.​

Who Vishnu Is

  • Vishnu is the preserver or sustainer: he maintains cosmic order (dharma), protects the world, and restores balance when it is disturbed.​
  • His many avatars (such as Rama and Krishna) are seen as interventions of the preserving aspect of the divine within history and myth.​

Who Shiva Is

  • Shiva is the destroyer/transformer: he dissolves forms, ego, and ignorance so that new creation can arise, emphasizing transformation rather than mere annihilation.​
  • As the ascetic yogi and ecstatic dancer (Nataraja), Shiva embodies the power that ends a cycle and simultaneously opens the way for renewal.​

Trimurti and the Christian Trinity

  • The Trimurti gathers Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva as three functions or forms of one ultimate reality (Brahman), expressing a dynamic cycle of creation, preservation, and destruction.​
  • The Christian Trinity, by contrast, is three distinct, co‑equal persons (Father, Son, Spirit) sharing one essence, not three functional roles of one God acting in time, so any one‑to‑one mapping (e.g., “Brahma = Father, Vishnu = Son, Shiva = Spirit”) is a comparative analogy used in interfaith dialogue, not a native Hindu teaching.

Part 8 of a series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Aspects of The Trinity: Zoroastrian religion (Part 7 of a series)

Here’s Part 7 as I continue my search for The Trinity within many of the world’s religions or myths, as an outgrowth from a Zoom book club I’m part of that’s been reading the Theosophy book, The Masters and The Path.

In Zoroastrianism there are a few important triads of beings and principles, but they are not a “Trinity” in the Christian sense of three consubstantial persons in one God. Rather, they are either aspects of Ahura Mazda’s wisdom and goodness, or opposed powers in a cosmic dualism of good and evil.​

Key Zoroastrian figures

  • Ahura Mazda: The supreme Wise Lord, creator and source of all that is good, truth‑aligned, and life‑giving in Zoroastrianism.
  • Asha (Asha Vahishta): The principle (and also an Amesha Spenta) of truth, right order, and righteousness, the cosmic order established by Ahura Mazda; its opposite is druj (deceit, falsehood, chaos).​
  • Vohu Manah (Vohumano): “Good Mind” or “Good Purpose,” another Amesha Spenta, representing the enlightened, benevolent mentality through which humans align their thoughts with Ahura Mazda’s will.

Ahura Mazda, Asha, Vohu Manah and “trinity”

  • These three can be seen as:
    • Ahura Mazda: the highest God.
    • Asha: divine truth/order.
    • Vohu Manah: divine good mind.
  • In some modern or comparative discussions, people speak loosely of a “Zoroastrian trinity” here, but in the original theology Asha and Vohu Manah are emanations or attributes (Amesha Spentas) of Ahura Mazda, not co‑equal persons within one Godhead.​

Ahura Mazda, Mithra, Ahriman

  • Mithra: An important yazata (worthy of worship) associated with covenants, light, and justice, often invoked alongside Ahura Mazda and other deities in later Iranian practice.
  • Ahriman (Angra Mainyu): The destructive or evil spirit, the adversary of Ahura Mazda and/or the beneficent spirit (Spenta Mainyu), representing deceit, darkness, and death.​
  • When Ahura Mazda, Mithra, and Ahriman are mentioned together in modern comparisons, the pattern is usually:
    • Ahura Mazda: supreme good deity.
    • Mithra: a major helper/mediator figure on the side of good.
    • Ahriman: the evil opponent.
      But this is a cosmic dualism plus helpers, not a unified three‑in‑one deity.

Relation (and non‑relation) to the Christian Trinity

Because of this, any mapping like “Ahura Mazda = Father, Asha or Vohu Manah = Spirit, Mithra = Son, Ahriman = Satan” is a later comparative analogy, not something native to Zoroastrian doctrine. It can be spiritually suggestive, but it is historically and theologically imprecise.

Christian Trinity: three distinct, co‑equal, co‑eternal persons (Father, Son, Holy Spirit) sharing one divine essence, without an independent evil being.

Zoroastrian structures:

A single supreme God (Ahura Mazda) surrounded by emanations/aspects (Amesha Spentas such as Asha and Vohu Manah).

A real, opposing evil principle (Ahriman/Angra Mainyu) in cosmic struggle with the good.​

Part 7 of a series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Aspects of The Trinity: Jewish Kabbalah (Part 6 of a series)

Here’s Part 6 of my continued search for The Trinity, as an outgrowth from a Zoom book club I’m part of that’s been reading the Theosophy book, The Masters and The Path.

In Jewish Kabbalah, Keter, Chokhmah, and Binah are the three “supernal” sefirot at the top of the Tree of Life, often treated as a highest triad that describes how the infinite Divine first begins to emanate into creation. They are not a “trinity of persons” in the Christian sense, but three phases or aspects of Divine emanation and consciousness.​

Keter (Kether) – Crown

  • Keter means “Crown” and is the first sefirah, the closest point to the infinite Ein Sof, representing the primordial, undifferentiated Divine will or pure being before any polarity or form.​
  • It is described as a blinding, formless light or “hidden intelligence,” beyond ordinary comprehension, from which all other sefirot emanate; it is the archetypal source rather than a defined personality.​

Chokhmah (Chokma) – Wisdom

  • Chokhmah, “Wisdom,” is the second sefirah, the first dynamic outflow from Keter, often symbolized as active, masculine, expansive, pure force or energy.​
  • It is the primordial flash of insight or creative impulse, sometimes called the “All‑Father,” which pours forth limitless vitality that will later be shaped and limited by Binah.​

Binah – Understanding

  • Binah, “Understanding,” is the third sefirah, the receptive, formative principle that receives the outflow of Chokhmah and gives it structure, boundaries, and intelligible form.​
  • It is associated with the archetypal feminine, the “womb” of creation and the root of form and matter, turning raw wisdom‑energy into differentiated patterns that can unfold through the lower seven sefirot.​

The supernal triad (not a “person” Trinity)

Later esoteric systems sometimes map this triad onto “crown–father–mother” archetypes or compare it with various trinities, but in classical Kabbalah it is primarily a metaphysical schema of emanation, not three separate divine individuals.

Together, Keter, Chokhmah, and Binah are called the “three Supernals,” constituting the highest, most subtle level of the Tree: Keter as the ineffable One, Chokhmah as outflowing force, and Binah as receptive form.​

Part 6 of a series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active:

Aspects of The Trinity: Celtic Druidic traditions (Part 5 of a series)

Here’s Part 5 of my continued search to understand more about The Trinity, as an outgrowth from a Zoom book club I’m part of that’s been reading the Theosophy book, The Masters and The Path.

Taulac, Fan, and Mollac are names later writers attribute to a supposed Druidic “triune god,” but they are not securely attested deities in genuine ancient Celtic or Druidic tradition. They come from 18th–19th‑century antiquarian and occult interpretations that try to map a universal Trinity pattern onto many religions, rather than from reliable pre‑Christian Celtic sources.

Historically grounded Celtic studies generally treat this “Taulac, Fan, Mollac” triad as speculative and late rather than as authentic, well‑documented Druid belief.

Taulac, Fan, and Mollac are not native, independently attested Celtic gods; they arise from a 19th‑century speculative attempt to read a “Trinity” into Druidic religion based on a single, much‑interpreted Irish phrase. The triad is therefore an antiquarian and occult construction rather than a securely documented Druidic doctrine.​

The key Irish phrase

  • The origin is a line quoted by later writers as: “Ain treidhe Dia ainm Tau‑lac, Fan, Mollac,” glossed as “Ain, triple God, whose name is Taulac, Fan, Mollac.”​
  • This is cited second‑hand by 18th–19th‑century authors (for example in works like The Celtic Druids and The Book of God: The Apocalypse of Adam‑Oannes), not from a direct, early Druidic text, and no clear, independent tradition around these three names is preserved in early Irish literature.​

How the “triad” was constructed

  • Antiquarian writers took that single formula of invocation and reinterpreted it as evidence that the Druids worshipped a formal triune deity, explicitly comparing Taulac–Fan–Mollac to Brahma–Vishnu–Shiva in India and other cultural “trinities.”​
  • In these speculative systems, each name is allegorically assigned a function (for example, the third, Mollac, is equated with a “Destroyer” and then connected to biblical Moloch), but these functions come from the author’s comparative theology, not from preserved Druidic myth.​

Status in modern scholarship

Authentic early Irish sources mention many gods and triadic motifs, but a fixed high “Trinity” named Taulac, Fan, and Mollac is not part of that corpus; it is essentially a later esoteric reinterpretation imposed on fragmentary and ambiguous evidence.

Modern Celtic and Druidic studies generally treat “Taulac, Fan, Mollac” as a curiosity of 18th–19th‑century comparative religion and theosophical writing, not as a reliable window into pre‑Christian Celtic belief.​

Part 5 of a series on Aspects of The Trinity.

For the basis of this series, check out this post (where I will also list all the links to each part of the series in case you miss any):


Integrating the Spirals

I’m encouraging those “over 60” to open to lifelong learning (observe and gently question their pre-conceived beliefs, aka ‘Programming’), become more aware of their thoughts and emotions, consistently move their bodies (too many are stuck in their heads and physically unhealthy), become strong, and resilient in spirit, soul, mind, body. And to question EVERYTHING!

Link to my YouTube channel where you can see the videos: https://youtube.com/@spiralsister

Yours in consciousness-expansion as we evolve and revolve during our mystical awakening. All while doing-my-egoless-best, to take you on a limitless, spiraling thought ride to better health, through doing more with ease, to help us sustain the JOY in our lives! (With lots of Gratitude throughout.)

Sheila “Spiral Sister” Murrey

The information provided is for educational purposes only and is not intended to treat, diagnose or prescribe.

About us

My husband is an award-winning illustrator, plus he’s a seasoned guitarist, bass player, and songwriter (with over 400 original songs). You can view some of his artwork and listen to many of his songs at: https://www.youtube.com/user/richardmurrey

Here’s a video of us performing on Vimeo: https://vimeo.com/416711742?ref=fb-share

My books on Amazon

I have four books on Amazon. The two most recent are: Have Yourself a Wholly Vibrant Life: Reversing Asthma and Other Chronic Illness Naturally and Blue Eyes: Ethereal Messages of Connection.

Connect with us

Here are the social channels where I am most active: