My mother and I had been visiting. I had been talking with her and fitting her with a dress for some special occasion. My daughter/granddaughter was asleep in the next room.
At some point my mother’s acute hearing turned to the bedroom and she quickly made her way to the door, opened it, and caught my daughter/granddaughter quietly playing on the floor, next to the nightlight.
My daughter ran across the bed, to the adjacent bathroom, all the while screaming at the top of her lungs because mom was going to whip her.
From my now vantage point, it was terrorizing! I wanted to intervene, but I was frozen in stillness.
After I woke up, I had to analyze the dream, and write it down because in an instant I became the clockmaker. The clockmaker god of my own Westworld.
We can love someone, yet not like them.
How is that possible?
Love is always unconditional if it’s truly love.
Liking someone, it seems to follow, is about Control.
In the case of my daughter, she had not went to sleep when my mother put her to bed. She disobeyed.
Mom’s need to control her led to a whipping which meant none of us would fall asleep naturally happy or at ease.
All my daughter had wanted was to listen to mom and I talk, and would have fallen asleep on the floor, not really hurting anything. However, my mom had a different expectation.
Thus, when my daughter didn’t adhere to my mother’s expectation, mom viewed it as disobedience and the thrashing ensued. Oh, my poor daughter! “Mom don’t”—I wanted to yell.
In the series, Westworld, Creator god makes each person with a bit of him in them, or in his image.
My current environment (living off grid on private property), has afforded me the opportunity to really, thoroughly, BE in nature.
My husband and I also live in an RV. We’ve lived in our 38 foot 5th wheel home for 10 years, as of this writing. Initially, we both worked outside the home, but now, we are both home all day, everyday. (I have been working from home for the last 3 years.)
I have had to be a hermit due to COVID-19 too.
So, here’s my little breakdown of what I have learned so far and why I am exploring Shamanism:
I don’t like being bitten by bugs: yellow flies, ants, or other. Do I know they have a right to be here? Yes. Do I know they are food for other creatures? Yes. But I am aggravated when my skin itches and feet, fingers, or toes swell up from the inflammation the bites have caused!
I take a moment and BREATHE.
I try new and different salves.
I make my own salves from Comfrey I have grown. Shamans are said to learn from plants and make nature-based medicines, like balms, tonics and tinctures, and salves, and are focused on documenting and sharing beliefs about herbal remedies for various maladies. Check!
And I am getting better at remembering to apply bug repellent (I have tried many different natural and botanical pest repellents), BEFORE I go outside. Even if I am only goinglring out for 5 minutes!
I have had to accept insects are on this planet for a reason. They do a lot of good!
In our garden, insects turn the soil. They attract birds and pollinators too, which enables our vegetables to grow. ☀️💦🌱
I say again, what you resist, persists!
Take another moment and BREATHE. Change your Energy. ❤️🦋🌀
Every morning for the last few years, I have been doing this shaman-like practice:
I fully bend at the waist and let my hands and arms hang to the floor. As I rise, I raise my hands to the sky and say, “Thank you for all the gifts and blessings (knowings) that I have received from the East” (and do this for each direction, north, south, east, and west while turning my body to stand facing each of those directions).
I thank God above, earth below, my past behind, my future ahead, and the cells of my body within. I thank my parents and ancestors and know ALL are WITH thee (my grandparents name was Withee, and this makes that statement personal for me). I know ALL is WELL. ❤️🦋🌀🙏😘
I then, consciously send LOVE out in all directions: north, east, south, west, above, below, forward, and behind. Unseen and seen. Past, present, and future. Indeed, in ALL directions for the benefit of ALL.
There is nothing to forgive, because there is value in Everything. And Everything Resolves to Gratitude. ❤️🙏
Lately, I have mostly been getting my socializing online. And while I enjoy being online, some people tend to hide behind their keyboard and say things that are disempowering, unsupportive, judgmental, even unkind online that they wouldn’t tell me in person. And that saddens me.
Some of my “Love and Light” friends don’t act like they believe in unifying. They claim to believe in unity, but then they call me, or others names. Name calling is NOT unifying. There, I’ve said it.
And for Christians, one of the most used directives in the Bible is, “If my children,” “When my people,” and so on, do this or that.
God’s children, God’s people are called to be unifying, to serve, and to Love.
For more about this, read my previous article here.
So, yes, sometimes it is loving to leave someone, if you can’t manage to see another’s perspective and be open to growth and change, or muster the self control to be kind. ❤️🙏
What you resist persists
Will we get mad at certain things or people? Probably. But to live a wholly vibrant and fulfilling life, self control (starting with mastering your thoughts and emotions), is your work. Everyone has their own opinions. Let others be. Is it really your job to ruffle feathers?
Consider these quotes:
If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. 🦋
Remember, when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change.
Every feeling makes a subconscious impression. The dominant of two feelings is the one expressed.
Look at yourself. Are you perfect? And what is perfection about anyway? As I’ve written about before, expand your mind to find perfection in the imperfection.
Life’s an art more than it is a science. The need to be perfect is fear based. There is no perfection in Art.
Shine your light. No judging required. Have a little self control. Timing is Everything. I get that this is a matter of practice.
By its very definition, Love is unconditional. You can’t say, “I love you” and then get mad when your loved one does something you do not like. That would mean you only like that person when they meet your conditions.
You are rarely loving anyone. You like people. You like animals. You don’t love people when they do or say things you don’t like or agree with. It’s a wonder anyone stays married anymore or has children. So much discord.
Try a little patience with those who think different than you. Love is a seed. Let it grow instead of rooting it out or stomping it to death.
You don’t know what’s best for everyone. Nor do you or I know everything. Honestly, none of us will ever know Everything.
Art of Allowing
Because I have had to find a way to actually live my beliefs with a husband who is “constantly under foot” and doesn’t always agree with me in thought, word, or deed (action and timing), I am so glad the Universe brought Law of Attraction and Art of Allowing into my life in 2008.
Now, I am really integrating everything I have learned into my life!
When I get stressed, I stand up, take some deep breaths, exercise, do some yoga or qigong, take a walk, or sing!
Growing living things
I have planted seeds and watched them sprout.
Too much rain washes them out of seeding containers or moves them out of the place where I put them in the garden.
Too little water and the plants die. I am hydrating myself more now too!
I love watching ferns sprout through the dirt and form a delicate spiral. I love ferns and never knew they did that until I walked through the forest enough times to observe them growing.
We all grow through the dirt. ❤️🦋🌀🙏☀️💦🌱
The gratitude and love I feel and send is unconditional. I must send it to those I disagree with, as much or more than to those I agree with, otherwise I am not growing or expanding my consciousness.
I have broken down too. But, for now, I choose to bend as the willow. I choose to rise in growth. I choose to unplug from my phone and rest. I choose to turn, turn, turn. There is a season for ALL things.
Wrapping it up
I’ve written previously about some of my dreams and hypnosis sessions (similar to vision quests that Shamans do) to gain knowledge, direct revelations, and other dimensional guidance and healing.
I use breathwork, solitary time (to include prayer and meditation), fasting, singing, and chanting, like Shamans do. I enjoy drumming, but tend to do it only on my body, instead of an actual drum. I don’t use psychedelic substances, but can reach an altered state of consciousness by meditating.
I communicate with crystals, dirt, sky, stones, trees, and some animals. I know that I am a diviner, with an ability to bring healing to the planet by connecting Heaven and Earth.
Some shamans work with unseen elements within the subtle realms of sound frequencies and light (bodies of light and shadows). And while I know they are there, I am not bold enough to think for a moment that they work with me, though I am grateful for their help should they choose to intervene.
I embrace the ALL of what is wanted along with what is not wanted. The dark and the bright shining light that comes from mindfulness and accepting the sacred geometry within nature. There really is value in Everything.
A bit about me, your Spiral Sister
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